This thread must seem silly, out-of-place and seen for over a hundereth time, but as I'm not currently working on anything to post a progress journal and as I don't feel this should be a blog post, I'm starting this thread (I hope I'll contribute new). When I registered with the forum two years ago, I was enthusiastic as every newcomer and thought then was the time I was going to nail my writing down to a solid, novellist-to-be base. However, with the milestone of final thesis round my neck, my keenness soon died away; the realization of how difficult it is to write a quality thesis in foreign language discouraged me heaps, as did the final product and on learning that my English sucked in the realm of Epic, I thought myself "cured" from writing disease. After graduation, I was offered a job with considerably huge, international company where English was spoken on daily basis, the correspondence, meetings, mails, newsletter and all that jazz. The work was stressful, a nine- to-five one, so I spontaneously started writing snippets in English to wind off (relax) and later set up a journal (the actual first entry took place at university, I just left off with that). And in free time in work I would nit-pick on grammatical mistakes or inaccuracies in newsletters (uff). I would post a new journal entry almost every day, describing my feelings, observations, opinions and the like. The activity has brought about a certain habit that I can't seem to neglect, the nagging need to get my thoughts recorded in the written form keeps coming back to me all the time, so on the side to writing my journal, I note down my thoughts and story snippets to my mobile phone's notepad on my way to my current job or elsewhere. The above described process has taken about a year, during which time I've been teaching English and reading/writing constantly. What I'm trying to say by all this rant is that I finally have the feeling the actual writing habit has come to existence, rendering my backlogged projects possible to be written, see the face of the earth. I finally have the feeling I have something to say. Subconsciously, I feel I'm able to value the will and the grit to finish a project, help my ideas out of the dark woods of my mind. I sense a new dimension in all that. It's...difficult to put into words. A quote by Murakami that has been nagging at my conciousness lately, one that I came across in one of his interviews: "You have to go down into a dark place when you write and you need physical strength to survive, to come back to the surface."