It really has. Anyway, introductions before I get into that. Hello from Northern California! I'm Bone_Dry, generally known as "BD" or "Kay." I'm a former fanficcer with a moderately large volume of stories to my credit. I say "former" because I haven't been able to finish anything since early June of last year. That's what finally drove me to come here. My former genre of choice was murder mystery, and the fandom for which I wrote it was Bones. I've since drifted away, tried and failed to write fic for X Files, and finally decided to flip everything upside down - write original work in the fantasy genre. I thought I had finally hit upon a solution after almost a week of extreme productivity. But then I stopped. And now it's been almost two months. I'm scared. What I come here hoping for is support. I have always struggled with plotting, and I've always pushed myself to do better than last time. However, without a community to post or direct questions to, my creativity and confidence has tanked. I have found that I no longer trust my instincts, and I no longer have any faith in what little I've managed to produce. My folders are littered with dead plots, scrawled ideas, and partially begun stories. Writing is something I love doing, but it has become clear to me that without help I probably won't be able to finish another story. And so I come here, heart bared, desk covered in notes, and hair in disarray to ask if there is any help for me and, if so, where I can find it, because my muse (Deleterious, or Deleii) and I are at each other's throats and I can't take his unhelpfulness anymore.