I have been dealing with recurring cold and flu like symptoms since January. I get better and feel fine for a period of three days to a week then get slammed again with more of the same symptoms. Right now I am on my second round of antibiotics (three weeks after the first round) for a sinus infection that has returned with a vengeance. It is starting to take a toll. I can't focus on my book research. It makes absolutely no sense. I forget what I read as soon as I read it. I don't dare open my rough draft in progress as I am not fit to proof it and anything I add to the story will again make no sense. The words seem to spin and go in and out of focus. My music suffers. I can't sing. I can barely talk for the hoarseness. I sit down to practice songs I had almost memorized on the piano and the notes make no sense. It is as if I am staring at a foreign language on the page and I know it should be easy to translate, but I can not interpret it for the life of me. I get lost and can't figure out what measure I'm on. My fingers stumble across the keys. Guitar is a joke. I've spent too much time sleeping and trying to regain my strength and not enough time practicing. I just started guitar lessons in January. My fingers just stopped hurting two weeks ago and now, I just spent the past week and a half under layers of blankets sleeping off feverish dreams, hoping to save enough energy to make it through my 12 hour shifts. It has worked for the most part. I've only called off one day, in spite of how ill I am. I rest during my breaks and try to sleep to regain some energy. The problem is, my newly formed callouses are gone. I know there is nothing you guys can do. I'm probably just venting at this point. I just feel creatively stifled and frustrated every time I attempt to work on any thing. My book has been at a stand still as a result, and I just want my strength back so I can focus.