At the start of the year, after god knows how long dreaming about it, I finally decided that that I had to stop messing around and just get on and do it, I had to write a book. I set myself a target to have at my fingertips a novel length piece of fiction by the end of the year, whether it was finished or not I decided was unimportant, but I wanted 100,000 words in my hand come midnight on December 31st. To achieve this I would do my best to write every single day, but If I missed one I wouldn’t let it slide and would get right back on I the very next day, and every day that I wrote I would write for at least an hour. It’s not quite midway through June and I broke 100,000 words this morning on the train. I’m nowhere near finished, I have my story in my head but have no idea how to turn it into a novel and I’m just writing everything down. I figure I’m maybe halfway through, so I’m going to be closer to 200,000 words when I’m finished, and then I will have to take an axe to it and start chopping, taking the legs out from under the minor characters, cleaving the extraneous scenes in two and reducing a forest of dialogue to kindling. And that should be a hell of a scary proposition, but it’s not. 100,000 words was a scary proposition, but I kicked its ass in double quick time. Sitting down with serious intent knowing I might fail was a scary proposition, but I didn’t fail. Today, I didn’t fail, today I won. But nobody knows, because the truth is I’m still scared enough that I don’t want to share this with anyone else, no one who knows me anyway. I will finish this thing , I look at myself in the mirror each night before I go to bed and tell myself I’m a writer and then order myself to finish the novel, but I’m not ready to share it with anybody yet. Maybe I never will, maybe it will remain unpublished and unread forever. Maybe it will spur me on to write something much, much better. Or maybe when I finish it I will never write anything ever again. But today, I won, and I couldn’t just let that pass, so thanks for listening.