I'm writing a thank you letter to my doctor..... I want to avoid saying anything negative, but I struggle to find positive things to say. As a disabled man you can imagine life wasn't easy. Coming from a dysfunctional family wasn't easy either. How do I thank him for saving my life when I don't value it? I can name plenty of negative life experiences but I'd rather not. I could grab one of my older posts from another forum if I cared to do that. I have been told by my mom I'm the first child in the USA to have a adjustable medos valve shunt put in them. As nice of a conversation topic that might be it's not something that ever helped me to make friends in school because I never knew. I want to know if it's really true. if my surgery was something significant to him and his career, or to medical science in general. Was I an experiment? Was there a chance I could have died on the operating table? and why did it have to wait until I was four years old for them to recognize I had a neurological issue? I know nothing about my surgery. Now I want to know everything. I have my medical records but they don't answer the questions I have. Point blank my question is this...... Does my life have any meaning at all? Did the surgery that was done on me play any part in the further development of the shunt?