I started writing my story using "scenes" - something that I felt strongly about in the moment, that I could use for my overall tale. I kept writing until I had - literally - a hundred or more different lengthy scenes, many of which eventually contradicted one another (because I changed the theme of my book a dozen times before settling on something). This morning I hit the breaking point. I'd been constructing my story much like paper and scissors and glue project: plucking old pieces I really loved, and trying to fit them all together. Guess what? It doesn't work. It kills the whole reason for writing - I was so sick of copying and pasting, I forgot why I even wanted to write in the first place. Enter breaking point: I trashed everything except the parts I'd put together, and my finger is itching to scrap that, too. But I don't want to start over....I'm wondering if this is a normal part of the process? Writing, and rewriting? Am I nuts? Do writers do this? How many times is a "normal" amount of times to write a book over? Is this revising, actually? I've written this same story a number of ways, a dozen times, and it was never right. Never perfect enough for me. So I'm at the beginning - again. What's wrong with me? Or am I on the right track? Is this what writing is partly about - molding and remolding and then smushing the whole thing only to build it back up again, better than before?