A while ago I posted a piece of one of my stories here and it receieved some pretty straightforward reviews. To improve the piece I needed to change a lot of things. Not so bad I thought at the time. Because once I had given them some thought, I realised they were true. So with renewed enthusiasm I started rewriting the piece. But that's when everything went wrong. In order to follow the advice I was given I had to leave out sentences, even entire paragraphs that I had once written with so much love and dedication. Now this might seem a bit strange to most, but you see, I am not the one writing my stories. It's my characters. They decide where the story goes, they decide the dialogue etc. It's like I'm merely the tool to put everything to paper. And when I started rewriting I felt like I killed them, or at least part of them, of who they are, simply because it suited the story better. I even changed my mc's name, the name he has had for as long as I can remember. (years and years) simply because after some popular new story the name would now be considered cliché! I felt like the story was a beautifully decorated room, and I ripped out all the fancy decoration, because they were repetetive, or because they didn't add to the overall flow or storyline; leaving only a bare room, with the (in my eyes) bare necesities... And yes, I understand that too much decorations and pretty words don't add anything and might only confuse readers, but it felt good writing them. And part of me misses them. So much in fact that it hurts. Like it's almost physical. Now I know that if I want to be a better writer these changes are necessary and for the best, but right now it's confusing me. I mean I'm not writing to make money out of it, I want it to be how I want it to be, not because it would sell better or anything. But I also want to be a better writer, just for myself.... I'm sorry for rambling I'm just really confused right now. I'm feeling like I hurt my characters, my babies. Does anyone else feels like this when you rewrite your stories? And if so, how do you deal with it?