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Giant hairy goats.

 

lol.

 

In other news, I'm a faery.



Discuss.

 

I'm not THAT young. hahah. I remember what it was to be grunge. I never called her grunge. haha

I dunno. I've never met her, but she's seems like a good girl. Pays her taxes.

 

Lav, you have a very beautiful daughter. She looks like such an angel in her sleep.

 

Your hand looks like it's twisted at a very strange angle there.

I like your glasses.

 

lol, your older than me it would seem. not hard to be actually.

huh, im doing it now too, feels normal. and thank you.

 

By quite a few years, lol.

 

I feel in my late 50's most of the time. I think i am meant to have a short life.

 

You should take the came from the guy in that other picture of yours, you might need it.

 

Yeah, I plan to kick it at 42. There's no way I'm living past that age. I don't take anywhere near good enough care of myself. That's how I explain how crazy I am right now; midlife crisis.
...oh and that damn chemical imbalance. -sigh-

 

I sense liver death?

 

Oh cris, but he's attacking the mall right now.

Hm, i can't figure out what to do when i get into college, what I plan on doing with my life and such, so I think I might just wander and die young. mid to late thirties sounds good enough to me.

 

Why do you say liver death?

Don't worry about it. I'm 23 and still haven't decided what to do with my life. It's ridiculous for them to think we're ready to make such an important decision at such a young age. Give yourself time. Don't rush into anything. Do what makes you happy.

 

I have seperation anxiety. nothing makes me happy anymore.

 

I have sever chronic depression, I'm bipolar/manic, add, and ocd. I have anxiety attacks almost every month and I have daddy issues. And this is all on medication. Imagine me unmedicated. Believe me, I know where you're coming from, but don't worry. You will find happiness. I didn't think I ever would either, but I'm getting there. Slowly, but surely, I'm finding those little things that make life a little better.

 

Ah, I have some of those. Alot of other things too. No pill required though, I don't believe in them, so to speak. and It's not that I'm not happy, I just don't see me finding a job that will make me happy. I love my life.

 

I didn't want to do the medication thing either, but it got to the point where I had no other choice. I couldn't even function anymore. It's a low dosage, just enough to level me out so that I can at least get out of bed in the morning.

 

People laugh, but my medication is Church, if I don't go at least either sunday, wednesday or thursday, I'm crazy.

 

Why would people laugh? It's what works for you. If that keeps you going, then by all means, use it! I wish I had something other than Zoloft to fall back on. If I miss even one pill, I go off the deep end.

 

People, even Christians, they don't like to believe in God. they like to paint him as something a little less powerful and real, something less than what he is. People are scared of the idea of heaven and hell and angels, demons, and that those things could touch earth and peoples lives. I believe in all that and people laugh. 'tis the way things go.

If I ask for patience, I get it, ask for strength, grace, a little companionship, and God gives it to me. I'd hate to have to take a pill for that. i'm really not good at remembering to do that kind of thing.

 

Neither am I, haha. I have to set an alarm to remember, and I still forget. Which is why I know the consquences of missing one all too well. Believe me, I wish things were different. The worst part, and most depressing thought, is that fact that this isn't going to go away. This is chronic and forever. I have to deal with this for the next 80 years.
-sigh-
It doesn't help. haha

 

Yeah but who decided that??? some head doctor? Never define yourself by your "problem" just because you struggle doesn't mean you ARE your battle. And I believe that anyone can overcome anything. You can still fight this I believe.

 

I never said that I define myself by my problem. Believe me, I still live life to the fullest and I never take a day for granted. I just know that this is something that I'm going to have to struggle with this for the rest of my life and that thought is exhausting. Somedays are just a lot harder than others and the idea of having to go through it again and again puts me on edge sometimes.

 

I will begin working on solutions for you. for now, I must sleep.