The Happiness Thread

@Lemie @Shenanigator @Moon @GingerCoffee Thank you all so much for your support, and your advice on whether to go or no! I really appreciate it and you have helped me to make my mind up. I will go, and hopefully I'll be awesome. When I was in my last year of secondary school me and my friends formed a band called Bam! - we were fans of George Michael/Wham. My voice seemed ok and my friends played the instruments, we were awful lol! After school I properly trained my voice and did do singing at pubs and events around my village. Sadly when my health went downhill I stopped, so this week I'm going to practice hard. I also need to choose a song to sing, any suggestions are welcome!

Fingers crossed Friday will go well. X

 

I GOT MY DATA BACK!!!!!!!!!

 

Weeeeooooo!

 

Is enjoying her new stalkers!

 

I picked up my guitar for the first time in months and did a cover of Breezeblocks by Alt-J in the garage at like 1 in the morning last night. I miss singing and teaching myself how to play, so I just sang my heart out and played without really caring how it sounded. I recorded it and the guitar part sounds kinda awful, my voice doesn’t sound great either given the type of song it is, but I was happy with it anyways for some reason.

 

Awful guitar part? Not-great voice? It would fit right on on modern rock radio. Release that record and make a million dollars!

 

Because I'm selfish, vain and a bit of an attention whore.

So I've talked about my relationship to myself around here. Using the term "ugly duckling" to describe myself - because that was always what I was. They ugly one. The too big, bad skin, never good enough - one.

That has changed, though. The last couple of months. Yes, mostly the three latest where I've been told I'm gorgeous like every waking hour of the day, but also before that. I think it sort of started with my break up. Not because my sex was keeping my confidence down - but when I got alone I couldn't afford to put myself down all the time.

I couldn't live with myself if I totally hated myself all the time, right? That and Tinder is one vain and unapologetic bitch.

Anyway - my view of myself has changed a lot this year. I still wake up looking like shit sometimes, but I usually look at myself and feeling cute, feeling sexy. Things I haven't felt in a long time before now. I can go out wearing skirts on my own. That wouldn't have happened a year or two ago. Because I'm more confident now. I'm secure in my own body and that is an amazing feeling.

Spoiler: Did I mention attention whore?

So I always wanted to be able to do make up, but haven't learnt even though I'm lose to thirty now. My goal is to be able to look drop dead gorgeous before I go to England. First step today was to find a lip liner in the same color as my lipstick. Success! Now... I'm just going to learn how to use it...


I've always loved to dress up nice in dresses and such, but it always feels just like that - like it's dress up. I feel more like I'm doing drag than just being a girl in a dress - like most girls on the party might wear a dress. I'm trying to get over that. Not that I mind feeling like a drag queen - but I think I'll leave that post open to Lost would he ever choose to get in touch with his feminine side. Dresses and big make up just isn't something for adults in my family, so I never learned.

Anyway. Sorry for the all "me, me, me" - I've just been thinking about it the past few days. It still sort of feels like forbidden to think positive things about myself, but if I'd have to be honest - I can be fucking awesome, I can be pretty and I'm god damn hilarious at that.

Bottom line - I'm starting to get confident about myself and it's fucking terrifying and awesome at the same time!

 

Not everyone was after Daphne

 

Yeah, always been a bit of a Velma... but slightly less blind. Slightly.

 

Jinkies! A clue!

 

I'm working on a new short story. "How Iain got his Data Back."

 

Hah, you’re not vain or selfish by wanting to talk about being positive toward yourself. Congrats on becoming more confident. And you look awesome in those photos

 

Ahem...How Iain Got His Cocky Data Back...

 

Talking good about myself always been a bit... painful? Like "I can't say that" and now I try to think "why not?" Like, what's the point in going around disliking myself all the time? That's a waste - people - take if from someone who knows!

And thank you

 

Already trending on Twitter

 

Not happy about the song you've now put in my head moose.

 

At least post the real official video:

 

I'm happy that I have started getting to know a rather lovely guy today...you know who you are.

 

No coyness - extreme and dirty flirting is the only thing that works around here!

 

For Lemie's and Lost's perhaps. But I think me and *some text missing* are somewhat different. To be honest, if you look closely, it's probably kinda obvious.

 

Haha, me and Lost bumped into each other every time the forum for a bit heated months before we started dating. Because apprently we'r both drawn to that

Though you know best Good luck!

 

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Is that you, Cave?