The Happiness Thread

Children? In the Happiness Thread?

Ugh.

I made a safe space for you all: The Childrearing Thread.

Enjoy

 

Yeah. That's what happiness is about.

 

Damn. I relate.

Thankfully I realized this a couple years ago and have made agonizing steps toward getting out from beneath the shadow of the helicopter. This was one of the big conflicts between my father and my mother. There came a point where they sort of drove each other to extreme opposite ends of the spectrum and it was unbearable. I'd run away from home and lived with friends for weeks at a time.

And as you candidly admit, I was also to blame.

Things are much better now. But talk about fucking growing pains.

Time to open another beer.

 

https://parenting.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/04/01/why-does-anyone-have-children/

Happiness is my shmoopie dreaming away in her clink making her dreamy snufflewhimpers.

 

Fulfilling and happy aren't the same thing, in spite of often overlapping.

But this is The Happiness Thread. Not The Fulfilling Thread.

So I can see how kids get a bad rap around these parts. But is there really anything as bad as Hostess Snowballs?

 

Thank you! Much appreciated!

And regarding the correlation between children and happiness - even the doctor who tried to talk me out of getting my tube tied told me that parents are far more miserable than people without children/adult children! If that's the sales pitch of having kids I don't feel like I'm missing much...

 

I'm thankful my parents never felt that way.

This isn't directed at the person above me! Just generally at the hatred deep dislike of children.

 

In my case hatred is a pretty good word. And fear. I've got more or less a phobia of children. I'm not getting near any kids unless I really have to. They creep me out more than any insect, spider or snake ever could.

 

xD Oh, I am by no means good with kids myself. I am scared of them. Entirely convinced they hate me. They're also thoroughly disgusting. And annoying.

But I feel a similarly strong alienation, confusion, and agony when it comes to love. Yet I can't live with or without it.

So I hope to one day also have kids. With that comes a prayer that I would be a good parent.

 

Trying to come up with happy things to get the thread back on track, but only thing I look forward to right now is the interview on Wednesday, and I've already mentioned that a hundred times.

The last job I was interviewed for went really well! It's less prioritised, since its only part time but it feels good that they were so happy with my interview! So while I hope for the full time job, there's good chance of get the other one if things don't go as planned.

The job on Wednesday will also make it possible for travel next month, so that's a plus!

 

I wish you the best of luck. I believe in you!

 

Thank you

 

Guys, guys, don't worry. The brat is gonna be raised as a Viking from ages 1-10, so lots of axes, sacrifices to Odin etc. Then as a Spanish Inquisitor, minus the torture of heretics as he/she will secretly be one. Though perhaps that takes out the fun...



OT: My own blood work came back and....woot! My blood sugar is a .5 number away from normalizing. A1C went from a 10 to a 7.5. The Doc is happy and so am I.

 

You just must teach him/her some Finnish hospitality...

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Battle_of_Raate_Road

 

May the world never forget,





Haha.

 

I heard once that the way to survive being an SAS member was to not grow a mustache.

Probably not many people here will get that joke.

 

Kinda tempted to put that as my signature.

 

One of the boys I see on a daily basis gave me a hug today.

Ok, he offered it because he was sorry for nearly running into me, but it was a sweet moment.

 

Tomorrow I begin learning a new craft-scrapbooking! Been looking forward to this for weeks. Yay crafting!

 

Received and watched the 1981 La Scala production of Rossini's La Cenerentola, with Frederica von Stade as Cinderella (Angelina).
Even on DVD, it was wonderful. Such wonderful voices, and such a great version of the story, so well staged.

Happy Sigh.

Bought my 2019-2020 season tickets to the area's pro ballet company, too.
Life is good.

 

I mentioned speaking to the deputy head in the 'What are you doing?' thread, but I spoke to the deputy for a couple of minutes just before actually starting work. He said that he thought I'd make a great TA and praised my ability to develop a rapport with the boys. He suggested registering with the agency they have now started to use for LSAs and try to pursue some work experience.

That does mean there's a chance of coming back. We'll see.

 

I will get the job tomorrow.
I will get the job tomorrow.
I will get the job tomorrow.

Sorry, I thought this was the "desperate hope and dreams"-thread...

I'm somewhere between overtired and nervous about tomorrow. I should go to bed but I can't really settle down. I can't even imagine the waiting time between the interview and getting to know if I got the job. I don't think I've wanted a job this bad in my entire life. Maybe it's my rapidly shrinking wallet that's talking.