The Happiness Thread

Good thing that you are well again, take it easy and take care .

 

I think you may have a case of pedant-icitis.

 

Walked a couple miles through the local nature preserve, enjoyed the wind and sun, and saw the green pushing up and through last year's detritus. Birds singing, squirrels skittering, No mosquitoes yet. Not much else to ask for (save a sudden end to Covid-19).

 

Oh my god! It's one of these rare moments. I just lied for a bit to rest my back and relaxed completely, like I was floating and there it was; the most magnificent scene for my WIP. It narrated itself and it is perfect. Felt like I was merely the audience of another director. So strange, yet so fulfilling. I almost teared. It's gonna be dramatic and cathartic and it's gonna feel like crying after sex. Writing is going pretty well these days overall and day after day I'm making accelerated progress. I'm at the point where all hell is about to break loose at last and I'm loving it!

 

I've written the crying after sex scenes! They turn out pretty awesome!

 

I cry before sex. Sometimes years before.

Sometimes years after, now that I think about it.

But I don't think there's truly a problem unless it's during.

Self-deprecating public remark for the day... check.

What did Gandalf say? Not all tears are an evil?

 

Must be the whole: "All good things come to an end", thing.

 

Having experienced it more than once myself, you'd think I could explain the reason...but I can't. *shrugs*

 

I think the best explanation is that it is an intense release of emotional energy,
that overwhelms the person just after the rush of climax.

 

So, change the perception of time of the traveler,
therefore they travel in that state, thus making to
their destination?

 

Here's how fucking stupid and blind I am: just until now I thought your profile pic was a storm trooper.

 

I disagree with this, but I can't explain why. Seems my brain has already gone to bed.

 

It was neither of these reasons, unfortunately. A bit of the "because it's over" one, but... Yeah.

 

Oh, and I signed for my house today. I'm officially a homeowner.

 

Congratulations! Now the moving fun begins.

 

Hahaha. It's funny how just one comment upon a scene in my WIP got so much attention. I got a way with intrigue.
Anyhow, I've never cried after sex, but I imagine it to be cathartic as @Cave Troll said. There are people that cry out of happiness and gratitude and I'm not one of them. When I'm happy I smile. When I'm extremely happy I smile wider and kinda look like a husky on cocaine. When I'm sad... I keep it all inside actually, but if I was to express myself I'd cry. I might tear up though when I'm feeling extremely, but utterly mad in a situation, which is quite rare. I mean I must have experienced it thrice in my life. The feeling of being done wrong by somebody or a situation and not being in a position to do shit about it. I usually turn icy cold when I'm mad. Need my space, you know?

As for my character it's a newfound sensation. He just had enough of it all and it's a very complicated situation he's in. It's the breaking point where he changes. It's like crying in the arms of the enemy.

 

I once smoked a toilet bowl.

Good shit.

I recently signed for an apartment. It's a rent and only for to-be students, but it feels good to finally be on track in life. Statistically, I should have been in prison, in heavy drug problems, or dead. But I'm starting my degree this year.

 

My characters cry cause, issues. At least now they're all together.

 

I wish you only the best. It'll be rough a lot but you can do it. I know this might sound like empty platitudes, but I also come from an abusive home. You are not a statistic of failure. You have every right to happiness as anyone else. You deserve happiness as much as anyone.

 

Nah, I'm a piece of shit. My wrong-doings aren't outweighed by volunteer work or other good deeds. I'm a useful person due to my past but not a particularly good person.

 

I'm a perennial optimist even though I shouldn't be. You don't need to do volunteer work or good deeds to be deserving of happiness. Nothing really you can say to change my mind.

 

I suppose. I think happiness is a fleeting feeling rather than a constant state. Don't you?