The Life Thread

I nearly did something very bad tonight.
As some of you know, I've been having some rather bad luck this month and being jerked around about a possible job isn't helping.
I just wanted to make something happen. I was quite literally at the boiling point.
I don't really know why, but at some point while I was already to go, I decided not to. It wasn't out of fear, it wasn't from a change of heart I just decided to wait a little bit longer and see what happens.

Similar things like this have happened. Things will go poorly so I'll go for long walks hoping that something happens that will just let me react. Nothing ever does, but the walking usually relaxed me.
Tonight was different, I was going to make something happen. It was kind of scary.

Once I get a job, this will go away. But for now, I'm still a bundle of pent up energy.

So how do you deal with stuff like this?

 

Depends, is it frustration? or just extra physical energy?

perhaps exercising will help, walking seems to calm you, maybe take part in something of the martial arts related exercise or boxing or something. Maybe just write everythign down in a journal. Doesn't have to be neat but yeah, I suggest and recomend that idea to nearly everyone. I hate feeling like that. I usually end up getting grumpy and taking it out on others. but yeah. Not sure, exercise might help though, somthing a bit more than walking maybe. I hope everything goes well though.

 

1. You get hold of some death metal.
2. You lock the doors turn it on loud and just go nuts!!!!!

PS: this is a serious reply. I have done this. I work off the principal that afterwards you'll be so exhausted and feel so foolish for having a tantrum you wont worry about the issue before you did this.

 

Good idea!

 

Not sure if this is sarcastic.

 

lol! You'll never know. lol

 

DoZ its both. I've been sick for the last week, so I haven't been able to do much. But a large part of it is simple mental frustration.
I haven't had real privacy in 3 months. Lack of money. No one that I could call a friend, and the last people who came close were in the first 2 weeks of my travels. And no bloody job.
It kind of adds up.
Hopefully once I'm over this cold I'll be able to work of some of this excess energy. And by then I should have a job, so I'll either have an apartment of my own, or at least upgrade to a private room.

Frost thats a good idea. I've done similar in the past. Unfortunately I am currently living in a dormatory with three other people, and paper thin walls. And I can't risk losing the deposit I have on the room, or I'll be literally penniless.
So yay.

Thanks for trying.

 

lol. I feel for you! Geez, I hope that you will be able to get a job and your own space soon! Hope it's big enough for all of us to come and visit! I wish you teh very best of good luck Dom. Your a great guy so you have friedns, just there in spirit! Best of luck mate though! It wont be long before the good starts to come!

~Doz

 

DoZ since any apartment would be held by the school that may cause some problems. But I'm sure they'd let you stay in one of the classrooms.

Well I think stuff has finally turned around. I'm still broke, but I had two interviews today.
The first didn't go as well as I would like, but I survived. I should have word tomorrow.
The second went much better. I just need to see a contract, get some more info and I could be in the city by the end of the week.

And I'm going to Nanjing. I already have the train ticket, and I'll get a bit of money in my pocket from the huge deposit the hostel insisted on. So I decided to not even attempt to return the ticket. I need a change of scenery.

All of this has already helped ease some of the frustration. So hurray.

Thanks and take care.

 

Good on you! Best wishes and take care Dom.

 

Isn't life fun..
Soooo.. I'm not sure if I talked about this yet, but I'm now teaching three students piano (two of them are six years old, the other is seven). It's a little nerve wracking because I feel so incredibly responsible in making them play semi well. In making them learn.
It's also pretty frustrating how I have to completely jump out of my comfort bubble in order to interact.
Oh, and bus routes? Yeah, I'll be doing those from now on. I hate when my routine changes, and this is just throwing me completely around and back again.

*shudder*

 

Ok well, I'm just going to say something because I'm frustrated.

Tonight I went to Toronto with two friends from work (and my sister, as she's friends with them as well). Anyway, to make a long story short, we left at 6:00 and got home at 9:45. My mom freaked out a little bit and accused my "friends" of being "reckless and way too independent." Now, they're 24 and 26. I realize that's "old" and I understand where she's coming from. But it's time she realizes there are NO other people in my life who I can appreciate and have fun with. I like older friends, simply because they have so many experiences to share.

So now she wants me to find some "young" friends. As if that will be an easy task. (it literally took me SIX months to actually talk to them in a semi-friendly way).

*frustrated sigh*

 

Well I can see where your parents are coming from really. They would like you to have some friends around your age. I think that the main thing you do is sit down with your parents and talk to them about their concerns as a mature person.
Do not get stroppy and raise your voice in the conversation. Remain calm and don't fidgit about. If you approach them maturely they will treat you that way.

 

so this is how this thread works ei??

alright...
so guys

See in school they enforce a type of military program
wherein all the seniors are taught the very basics of militarization
and so I decided to join this Corps this year...And what luck!
I got picked and after an extensive summer of training I am now an officer
whoopee!!!!
even If am in a low position hahahaha

well thats all

 

Newguy that would be more appropriate in the chat thread.
This thread is more for if you have a problem and want advice.

 

It was just really odd. She kept saying she wasn't angry (but her tone said differently). Anyway, at the moment things are semi-good.
She needs to realize I don't like or even want "younger" friends. I'm tired of all the fluff younger people talk about. I want nothing to do with it.

Anyway.. I think I'm done venting. Thanks for replying Torana. Much appreciated. : )

 

oh thank ye kindly!

 

I can understand that dushechka completely. I was the same and still am now. I don't have many friends my own age. I never have really. I was so sick of all the conversations that go "Like omg did you see the way he looked at me? He is so hot! blah blah" argh I used to get so frustrated with it.

Anyways I have rather a pressing issue at the moment. Something that has broken my heart and I don't know what to do about it really. It has kind of taken me back a lot. Honestly it has had me in tears for quite a few hours.

My son is three years old. We lost my brother, his uncle, three months before he turned two. The thing is that when I went for a drive with my kids we had to go past the accident site. <was a nasty car accident>

On leading up to the site my son kept yelling to stop the car. I was going slow as I always do past there. He then began crying and saying we had to stop to pick up his uncle. I was really freaked by it as I'd never told my son about the area, he had never had any association with the area. Never been there before. Well anyways, my son then reached for the handbrake and was going to pull it up saying that we had to pick him up.

I pulled over as I didn't know what else to do, my son was hysterical. When the car stopped my son opened the door, held it there momentarily and then closed it again and looked at me with a smile and said. "We can go mommy. Uncle ..... is in the car now." We left the area and I've not been back.

I really don't know what to do or what to think of this incident. It is terrifying and extremely upsetting that my son new about this area when he had never had any association with this area before hand.

Does anyone know what I should do?

 

That's creepy, I must say. I can only say coincidence, as I do not believe in the supernatural or spirits still being here on Earth. Perhaps your son felt an emotional connection with the area? It may be inexplicable, but it can happen. When I lost my best friend, I woke up at the very time he died because I had a bad feeling. There's no way to explain it. Feelings like these spontaneously happen, so maybe there is some sort of emotional connection between people that are close that keeps those people constantly aware of each other.

 

I just wish I knew what to make of it all really. You could be right Baywriter, maybe I should try and get him to see a councellor. Although not sure if they'd be able to work with a three year old.

 

You certainly have an emotional connection with the location, and perhaps he picked up on your mood somehow. Young children can be absolutely amazing in perceiving moods, especially in their parents.

It does seem surprisingly detailed, but there may have been enough bits and pieces he knew to assemble a relatively vivid impression.

And there is always room for coincidence in the details, however unlikely it may seem.

 

Hmmm....maybe you are right Cogito. I just wish I knew for certain why he was going so behaving in that manor. I have made him an appointment to see our doctor over this incident. It really has me concerned about my sons mental state at the moment. I have never seen him behave like that before and it really is worrying.

Thank you.

 

There are child psycologists that are trained to council children, I'm fairly sure of it. Just go to the docs and ask for a referal.

But there are things that are out there and Children are most sensitive to spirits than most adults. So maybe there is someone out there that can offer you help.

 

I hope so cause he also tells me that the photo of my grandmother who he doesn't know as he only met 4 times when he was extremely little, is the night lady. He says she talks to him at night.
I am really concerned so hopefully they will be able to help me with my son. If he sees things, I want it to stop. This type of things in my opinion is not healthy for a young child.

 

Whoa. That is a really bizarre...phenomenon. As Cogito said, it could well be that the child has picked up enough to realise that the location was where his uncle passed. Snippets of conversation, your mood, everyone elses mood, the fact you were driving slowly could all have contributed to the way he acted.

Let us not forget either, that children have vivid imaginations. I remember when I was a kid, I told my parents that my grandfather who I've never met use to talk to me. Of course, he didn't really, I just liked to think he did. Again, children are perceptive indeed; it's possible he mightve heard about her when you and someone else might have been having a conversation about her.

I think you're definitely doing the right thing though, taking him to the doctor(you're a brilliant mother after all). I think there could be cause for a bit of worry, but not panic. Children are funny things.

(Also, on the lighter side, when you resolve the issue, it'd make a great short story plot.)