The not happy thread

Ugh. WHy is it these publishing places sound great, but then their guidelines say 'We are non-paying' and that 'we want first publishing rights'.

So they think that they deserve the rights to my work, without buying it from me? This is ridiculous. They just take, take, take these places.

Yes, I do want to get published, and it isn't about the money - I don't care if they paid me 10p, atleast it'd mean that they paid real cash for the rights to the first publication of my work. And of course, there are more than enough unpublished/published, snide people, who claim that 'if you weren't paid, then you aren't published - it doesn't count'. Even if it's published in a genuine, well-read magazine.

It's ridiculous. What do you have to do to get respected for the hard work you put in? One way or another somebody's going to shoot you down for it.

 

I'm unhappy because all my friends are going to a bonfire tonight. I asked, curiously, who's bonfire it was and my best friend wouldn't tell me. She then got offline and so did I. I recently got back online and she is on.....has been for a while. HM.
I hoped she would talk to me, but no. Well....GREAT.

So now I'm stuck at home tonight, with nothing better to do then practice, watch suckish movies, and clean my room. I'll be doing THIS while all my friends are out at some mysterious bonfire which I asked not only my best friend about, but 2 others also....no one answered. Apperently everyone hates me today. So anyway, I'm stuck at home tonight with no one to talk to. And to make things worse, it's the 2nd to last day of summer. That's great.

I'll probably have nothing to do tomorrow, either. And it's the LAST day of summer. I'm also unhappy because, despite the fact that I followed her around, my best friend also ditched me....for a friend she pretty much spent 7 hours with for 10 days the last 2 weeks.

I am ALSO unhappy because I can't get this song memorized on flute. It's incredibly hard, and has tons of key changes, which are very hard to remember. It's also incredibly fast music.

I am also unhappy because school starts Monday, and while I am relavently excited for it I have a feeling it's gonna be another year of uninvite-to parties, boring classes, and hard math homework. Also my best friend is going to be in the popular group even more this year and Kara quit band so I have absoloutly NO ONE to hang out with in band....which sucks, MAJORLY.

I also really wanted Kara to do Bible Buddies with me, and instead Jess is doing it. Also, Emily got a phone and now is becoming so much more like Jess and all the other popular girls which I hate. Kara is getting sicker, and I am inncredibly worried about her. Also, Abby is in college and that depresses me greatly.

Also, Lindsay's youth group is on Wednesdays and I have a feeling Emily will be going to them instead of AWANA, and she'll be ditching on AWANA a lot more this year because she'll be "tired" from drumline, which she'll unknowingly brag about AGAIN this year.

Mostly I'm just unhappy cuz I feel like it and cuz of all these reasons combined. This day has pretty much sucked, and it's not even 4:00. I hope church makes it better tomorrow, but probably not. This. Is. GREAT.

 

I'm unhappy because we found out my uncle's cancer has returned for the FOURTH TIME.

 

Oh, no. I'm sorry. I hope he gets bettter. He sounds strong, though.

 

Yeah, he's a tuff guy. He'll be okay. He's gone through hell before.

 

I'm not happy because someone doesn't seem to want to fulfill his responsibilities and has decided that it is just easier to forget that his responsibilities ever existed.

 

I am so sorry to hear that GiGi. There are things in life which we simply do not understand. If you ever need to talk, I'm here.

 

Gigi, I am extremely sorry! My ex's father had cancer rather badly, that would always come back. So I can understand a little how painful it must be for your family. Big hugs!!!

 

Thank you guys so much. It makes me so happy that i'll always have people here that actually care. He's tough, and we all know he'll pull through. We're keeping our heads up, and our minds positive.

 

Gigi, I hope he feels better soon. *hugs*

Ok, now considering other people's posts, this is going to sound really whiny, but I hate my computer. It's a compaq cq2009f. It's... pretty low end to say the least. Though with the exeption of it's graphics card, it generally gets the job done, so I went out and got a new graphics card, a Geforce 9400 GT, only to just now realize that as part of the cpu's "streamline" design, it doesn't have the slot to put in a new graphics card. So now I can only play certain, older games on it, since it can't handle just about anything made in the last four years.

Though on the bright side I guess, needing money for a new cpu is a good insentive to get my behind in gear and finish the stories that I've been putting off.

 

This is a pretty "soft" complaint, but don't you hate it when people who can NOT BBQ insist on trying anyway?

(How bad? A microwaved hot dog tasted better than what he made.)

 

i hate all.

 

That.. does not sound good.

I dont know you, I've never met you, but we are people. Sometimes a hug (even a cyberhug) can work miracles for someone in need, so I've always got two arms outstretched and two ears open to listen if you need anything.

 

thankies *accepts hugs* but all my stuff is just so trivial that it doesn't even deserve rant.. it's just that it's all and not just half or some...

 

I hear ya. The little things, when all piled up, are far worse than the big things that come only ever so often.

If you do need anything, though, and you dont want to face anyone in the morning, you can always vent to me via PM or whatever.

Feel better, Kanga. (I always pictured you as Kanga, from Winnie the Pooh, by the way. ) Problems have solutions.

 

Gah! Paypal is just messing with me now!

I put up for supporter a week ago (in fact, I started the transaction on the 13th!) but the bank transfer is still 'uncleared', even though I went to my bank on Wednesday and it said the money had been removed from my account! So where's the money?

Grrrrrrr!

 

Had a panic attack in front of my boyfriend today, just as I was about to catch the train back home.

I feel so embaressed.

 

Eoz, the 2nd day of Dan being here in Australia, and I had only just met him in person the day before hand, my car broke down and I had a major panic attack. So I can understand completely how you feel at the moment. <big hugs>

 

Thanks Torana, I appreciate it.
I guess it was inevitable that he would find out about my anxiety disorder,
I'm trying not to feel bad about it.

 

I am about to sound really, really crazy. All the same, it'd be great if someone read this. I dont know if I am going to tell my parents about this yet, or any of my friends because I dont know if I want to give them an alert that I am about to go off the deep end again. I want them to think that I am still going to continue to be okay, when I have a very strong suspicion that I will be in a million little pieces all over again. So it'd be really cool if you read this, and you dont even have to respond if you dont want to --I just want to know that someone is hearing me.
**** it. You guys dont want to read about and probably dont care about the whole damn issue anyway.

Let's just say this is the most upset I've been in quite a long time, and I have gone through a lot of **** in recent months.

I hate everything, ****ing everything.

 

Oh my god you guys. The vote was no. The VOTE WAS NO.


They're leaving. They're probably leaving and this town is going down the tubes. We don't know what's gonna happen.

 

I'm so sorry to hear this, Gi.

Are you sure they're leaving? (You said they are, and then said they are probably.) Dont freak out until you're certain, and even then, please remember that there are still jobs out there, waiting to be filled. They might be hard to find, but I promise you --they're out there.

Keep us updated, and keep your chin up.

I dont know what else to say.

 

*Hugs gigi*

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I miss my baby boy. We've been in eachothers pockets for a week, half at his house, half at mine. He's gone home now and I feel like half of me is missing
I want my munchkin back. I know I've been with him 24/7 for a week and i'll be seeing him friday to go to the Rugby, but it doesn't stop me missing him the minute he's out the door

 

GiGi, I am sorry to hear that. It seems you have been hit with a lot this week. Just remember what I told you, You have a friend. *hugs*

 

Gigi: Hang in there, girly. Although I can imagine how scary that must be.

Eoz: Ever tried citalopram? It has been my savior.

Ashleigh: Your reason for not being happy is a reason to be completely ecstatic (you're lucky enough to have a munchkin to miss in the 1st place).

Mercurial: I did read it. Good luck w/whatever it's all about.