The not happy thread

that would really piss anyone off. It's disgusting.

Rob... LMAO!

 

If that's a refrence to Twin Peaks you are the most awesome man on the planet.

 

I am printing bulletins for the funeral tomorrow...on special paper..of which we only had 100...the copier grabbed the papers crooked...and printed them all with the last line of the prayer of St. Francis cut off and with a smear from where it failed to grab the papers correctly. This is the paper that the family picked. There is no getting more before tomorrow. PISSED! I can't wait to get rid of that machine. So..I did a quick redesign and am reprinting all 150 on blue parchment paper and will present both to the family to see which they want to use. SO PISSED!!! I just hope they don't blame me. Stupid copier.

 

Status of Driving Test #3 - FAILED

Status of Driving Test #4 - TBA

 

I'm not happy for a number of reasons tonight. This year has been a really rough year for my family. My pregnancy was very stressful, my mothers health has deteriorated quite rapidly and my uncles empire came crashing down around his feet, because of a group of people in a small country town here in WA.

a rant to get things off my chest.

Spoiler

My uncle has worked his way to the top, at an early age of 22 he could have retired and lived very comfortably. But no. He kept working away and striving to be the best that he could be. He owned property all over the place and so many businesses, it wasn't funny. He was doing great. Then came his downfall... in a tiny little town he bought a home, then a few business. One of the businesses sent him almost into bankruptcy as his managers and workers stole so many thousands of dollars from his business, and many thousands of dollars worth of stock from the business, that it had put a major strain on his finances.

Another uncle was working for him, and he was one of these people. His son was partners with the uncle who was losing his empire, and now his son has decided to make sure our uncle loses every last thing he has to hold onto. Family is doing this to him. FAMILY! That is sick. It makes my blood boil with anger. How could you do something so horrific to your own uncle??

My uncle, who has never known what it is like to go without, as he has always had a lot of money and helped out most of our family members over his time, is now worse off than I am. He and his partner are barely able to feed themselves at the moment. If it wasn't for his partner getting an allowance from her father still, they would not be able to eat at all. My uncle is on the verge of committing suicide and it is breaking my heart that there is nothing I can do to help him out. He has always been such a proud man and EXTREMELY positive, and now... now it is heartbreaking to speak to him. He is so negative and you wouldn't believe he was the man I grew up knowing all my life. I hope there are miracles at Christmas time and he is given one. He deserves it so much, especially after everything he has done for my mother.

Now, my mothers health. She is having minor heart attacks all the time, her health, in 3 months, has deteriorated 40%. Which really isn't good at all. She was given 5 years when she was diagnosed and it has been just over that now. We were told to expect these sorts of outcomes in her last 12 months, and now every day I just keep expecting to get that phone call... I can see how much she has slowed in the last few months, and one of her conditions has spread around her body more now and she is in a lot more pain than she was before. It's killing me inside because I am so scared of losing my mother now. I know that the time is coming, and each day, the fear just keeps getting stronger.

I over heard her on the phone to my aunty, her sister, and she began talking to her about how bad her health has become, and I have been fighting back the tears since then. I have to spend the day with her Saturday, and I honestly don't know how I am going to be able to hold the tears back all day.

And with 3 people constantly trying to stir for me right now and upset me all the time, I just feel like I'm losing the plot at the moment. Everything just seems to be building up at the moment and I am finding it hard to cope.

Well, sorry to rant for so long... I really needed to just get it off my chest. Now I can hopefully go back to pretending that everything is perfectly fine once again.

 

I am sorry Tor. Hug your baby...take a deep breath...and do what you can do. Remember you can't take care of anyone else if you can't take care of yourself.

 

Thanks Carmina.

 

I am experiencing anxiety today. It isn't up to an attack yet. But, I feel pressure in my chest and I have become aware that breathing to too shallow. I overslept this morning and had to rush to get to work on time. I think that started it off. Also, having the funeral with the bulletins messed up yesterday. Normally I would say I just need to get through today, but I know my whole weekend is jammed full. I need to sit and breathe before this becomes a full attack. I left my Lorazepam at home anyway.

 

Okay, I'm really irritated because Purdue University's Class of 2014 / Fall 2010 class decisions came out today at 5PM.

I have been waiting around for an hour and half, checking the site regularly --even before 5PM just in case they posted early. It's now 5:22PM and it seems like every other applicant wordwide can see their admissions status but me.

I have a feeling I'm in, but dammit, why cant I see my decision?! I. I. You have no idea how uptight I've been this past week about today's decision and Wednesday's results (next Wed), and it's really starting to piss me off. Surely this site-crash happens every year (mind you, the admissions office hours end at 5PM, so no one can call until Monday).

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

You're going to drive yourself mad. Go do something else.
Go out with a friend, listen to some tunes, read a book. Anything but wait at the computer.

 

But. I. Cant. I'm too busy being pissed off to do anything else, and besides, I think tonight is one of those lovely Friday's in which I am to be a good little girl and hole up in my room.

Oh. Uhm. Nevermind.

See the happy thread. :redface: I just dont know how to read.

 

I went through all of this in August, when I was waiting to see whether the University I wanted to go to had made a 'firm' choice of accepting me, having already made a conditional offer like the other four Uni's i'd applied for. It was awful, because the website just crashed and it seemed like forever - but the great news in the end redeemed it all. Now I look back and wonder what on earth I was so worried about.

Anyway, I know you got in now, so well done

 

Tor, I accidentally quoted the wrong post from you, but I just want to give you a huge hug right now. I'm sorry to hear about all the things you and your family are struggling with right now. Such heartbreaking things to deal with! I hope your uncle gets back on his feet soon, and that things get better with your mom. If you ever need a shoulder, I'm just a PM away!

I hate when little things keep happening to add to your stress when your day starts off like that. It makes it so much harder to calm down and stop panicking! I hope you made it through your day ok.

Haha I read this after I read the happy thread, so I was really confused at first...I'm glad you found out that you got accepted before you went crazy!

 

thanks hidden. Things are only going to get worse from here, that is the hardest part about it. We all just have to accept it is going to get worse till she dies. We know it's coming and honestly, I just wish I could put a stop to time. It hurts watching her condition progress all the time. I'd rather never know the time is coming for a friend or family member like this, because every day is heart breaking and the pain never goes away, just going to get worse. We've known for 5 years now she is dieing, and now she's really getting bad. I hope this isn't her last Christmas... but it could be, so I don't want it to come.

 

work this morning = tentacle rape

HALP

 

How sad. I can't imagine being in that situation. I'm sorry you guys have to go through that.

Uhh...yikes. Sounds scary.

 

Indeed. I'm now instructing techs, sending/calling tickets, and taking calls. I've been cussed out by angry customers twice already.

This is not a good day.

 

I'm sorry, Rob.

 

Further proof that working with the general public sucks. Sorry you're on angry customer duty Lav.

 

I just spent 5 hours working on my drama coursework, and it's all crap anyway. Ugh.

 

My grandfather has to have open heart surgery at 79 years of age this coming Monday. Surviving the surgery will be a victory. He puts on a brave face but I know he's terrified. We all are.

 

I'm sorry to hear it. But you can take comfort in the fact that your current avatar is the hottest thing I've seen in recent memory. WOW. :redface:

 

Lol. Ashleigh is very pretty.

I have been cleaning/organizing our spare bedroom so I can take it over, but I can't figure out where a bunch of this stuff is supposed to go. I want to just leave it in the garage, but my mom's not here to okay it.

 

*megablush* :redface: Thanks! Well that cheered me up, haha.

And thankies Marina :redface:

 

I'm so sorry. Hang in there, be brave for him, and I hope he makes a safe recovery. My best wishes are with you. xx