The not happy thread

Agreen, I'm sorry to hear of your loss. If you need anyone to talk to, I'm always around!

I'm sorry, Lydia! Want me to find you a Click remote?

Poor Gigi! I hope you feel better soon!

Is he doing any better now? I hope so! Poor Tobin!

Don't worry, Em, you'll beat her score! I can feel it.

 

Thanks. I'm going to wait a while before getting another dog- I had Ares for fifteen years, and his brother, who I lost last year almost to the same day as Ares, for thirteen. I feel better now that it's over, as he had clearly been in pain since he first fell ill two weeks ago. It's weird in that I've accepted that he's gone, yet every time I find myself in one of his favourite parts of the house I expect to see him.

Also, he very much answered back. He was a bad dog, who delighted in his badness and made you love him not in spite but because of his evil nature.

 

I screwed up slightly, but she's pulling away greatly. A simple pass of the mind and slip of the tongue and I spend my morning crying because I've made the person I love care less. And now she's leaving for a week, right after being away for three. And I sulk alone for a week with no friend in sight, in a tiny dorm room in the middle of nowhere. Once again I'm spiraling down down down...

 

I'm sorry, Steve. I know it's hard, but try not to let it get you down. I'm sure things will be better when she comes back. Feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to! *hugs*

 

Thank you Heather.

 

Anytime. I hope everything is ok.

 

That sucks, Steve. I suppose it's not comparable, but I sorta know how it feels when you wish you didn't say a certain thing... I really hope (and I think) things will turn out allright... anyway, you don't deserve anything less. Same here, if you need someone to talk to.

 

Thanks to you also Lydia, I hope everything works out too. I can't afford it not to.

 

Someone tagged the church. Ticks me off. Why you gotta spray paint a pentagram on a church huh? Nothing better to do.

 

They are like feral dogs, marking territory.

 

That's really horrible. People used to vandalize/break into my church back when I went, and it always irritated me. Vandalism in general irks me (my car has been egged three times, and someone broke my sister's car window the other day-grrrr!), but when it's something like this, where someone doesn't agree with a religion or whatever their reason for it was, it's even worse. So you don't believe in religion or something-that doesn't mean you need to spray paint a church. Just don't go to it on Sunday. Stupid.

 

People like that obviously are lowlifes with no sense of self-worth. Pity them their stupidity and clean up the mess. I'm not religious at all and I wouldn't ever consider doing such a thing and indeed condemn people who do. Even if there was some perceived slight (and I can't see how) revenge is never the answer and you'll be the better person for shrugging it aside.

As for myself, I don't know why but I've felt rather depressive later. Not depressed per say, but just the general feelings. Maybe because the holiday rush is gone and the withdrawal is occuring (xD) or just general anxiety. Dunno.

 

Cosmos, I hate feeling depressed without there being an actual obvious cause or problem to fix. Sorry ot hear you are down.

 

I set a goal to gain 2 kilograms over 2 months. I had gained 1.6 kilograms, and yesterday I weighed myself and have 1.7 kilograms. So I'm almost back to my starting point.

 

@Carmina: Thank you. It's incredibly frustrating, since I'm the type that likes to attack a problem rather than wait it out. Ah, well, ce la vie.

@Torana: Sorry to hear that you're having trouble. Try not to let it make you anxious as that will only make the problem worse. Best of luck with it.

 

I have a funny story about church vandalism... sort of.
I was 17 and really wanted to throw my girlfriend an AWESOME birthday party so I rented this hall for a night. I got all of our good friends together and bought all the best party stuff. I even had a pinata stuffed with little bottles of liquor.
Anyway, as the night wore on, things got a little out of hand. One of my friends jumped on my back and I smashed him into a wall and left a man-sized dent in the drywall. We were all completely carefree by the end of the night and a few people decided to sleep on the floor amongst the empty bottles.
Fine by me, it meant they would be there to help clean up in the morning.
Well, morning came and I got a panicked phone call.
It seems the hall I rented was actually being used interim as a church by some hutterites in the area. I'm not sure if hutterites are everywhere, so to those who don't know them, they are like amish people, only a little less afraid of technology.
Apparently these people showed up in the morning to find hung over teenagers crashed all over the floor of their church, beer bottles strewn everywhere, a decimated pinata, blow-up dolls, the works.
They decided to have their mass downstairs. They went down and found an underage couple sleeping together with a number of unmentionables tossed around the room.
I guess next time I'll ask what is going on in the morning before I decide to wait to clean up a rented hall!

 

Destin, that is why my church has a no alcohol policy for renting our hall.
We got the pentagram cleaned off, like it never happened....at least until next time. We have been hit half a dozen times since I started working here. Could be worse though...my sister-in-law's boyfriend once set a church on fire while high...accidental hate crime.

 

It was only an interim church for them, I think their normal church was undergoing some renovations.
Otherwise it would have been obvious that they would want to be in there on sunday morning.
Also, the guy who rented it to me didn't deem it necessary to tell us that they were using it.
Mega-Awkward.

 

My longwinded worries:

Spoiler

I'm not happy because it seems I'm in bed with a migraine more than I'm not.

I told my doctor that I'd been having them about once each month since I started the medication that is prone to causing them. But lately, it's been getting so bad; instead of monthly, it's more like weekly, and sometimes even more frequent. Now I do almost all of my work days or even weeks before it needs to be done. Because migraines are really debilitating.

I didnt tell her that lately they've been getting worse for a few reasons. One because it was my last time with her before switching to someone less expensive and I didnt want to trouble her, two because my mom gets mad at me when I have migraines (I dont know why she does; dont ask) and she happened to be in the room at the time, and three because I really dont want to switch meds.

But I came down with a migraine yesterday and had to take another med to calm it down --otherwise, it never goes away. I went three days without taking the migraine-fighter medicine once (because it knocks me out, and I hadnt the time for a nap), and it was with me every day. Today, I have another headache, although it's much less powerful.

Because some of the side effects of this med can lead to heart attack, fainting, stroke, and death --and migraines do make you more likely to have a stroke-- we switched to a different prescription back in the summer. It made the reasons I am on the med even worse, so we immediately switched back. We've been looking for alternatives, but none of them seem to work. And I would rather take the migraines and feel well than not take my meds at all.

But there have been a lot of talk about this medicine lately, that a lot of people have been having terrible side effects. My doctor is totally confident in it --she even takes it herself-- but she doesnt get the migraines like I do. My grandfather had a stroke this summer and I already have a condition which makes me more likely to have a stroke as well.

I'm just worried about what happens if I keep taking it, and worried about what happens if I dont. And I'm pissed off because I'm in so much pain all the damn time.

I'm also just really annoyed with this volunteer / internship / work situation right now. I thought I was going to be able to leave in January, but they can keep me until my work is officially shipped out and done --and nothing I say can change that. To put the cherry on top, she's just given me another task for the project. Just chain me to the desk already.

 

I know what that can be like, Merc, and you have my sympathies.

I have some fairly major problems of my own at the moment - the biggest one being that I have work to do before I go back to uni. I'd pencilled in today to make my return to Newcastle, only I'm not in Newcastle now, but still in sunny Mirfield because my train was cancelled because of the snow. Advice is not to travel, but I'm making an attempt on Friday because I need to get to the library to get some materials for this work.

I wouldn't normally be so bothered, but I need to do an opinion for Monday afternoon. And what happens if I can't get the opinion finished? Oh yes, I get kicked off the whole course. Wonderful. Which means I'll have a really frantic weekend if I can even get up into Newcastle. I hate snow.

 

I don't know what to say, Merc. Hang in there x

 

Wow Merc. I'm sorry you're going through all that.

 

Thanks guys. I'm just really... I dont know. I would be fine and quietly succumb to my migraines because as long as I have the time to pop a pill and lay down, I'll be ready to go again in a few hours, but I'm just worried because of what the migraines could lead to.

I have the migraine-fighter pills, but those are to be taken as needed... I dont take anything that prevents them, and I think that might be a good idea. I'm just worried because the chance of having a stroke is already more likely for me than for others, I'm afraid that what-if, one day, my migraine triggers a stroke? I was with my granddad a lot this summer to keep him company in the hospital after his stroke. His stroke, the docs say, was mild, and he still has trouble walking now, half a year later.

Maybe I should see a neurologist. I have a friend who saw a neurologist for her migraines. I have to see my general practitioner in a few weeks for a follow-up appointment; maybe I'll ask him then what he thinks. Maybe he'll have a miracle pill right there in his pocket. I'll just have to make sure Mom doesnt come with me. But maybe I'm freaking out unnecessarily. I dont know that much about strokes, just that I'm more likely to have one than other people. But what does that really mean? Maybe I'm only .5% more likely. I dont know.

All the same, it'd be great if my head didnt hurt every day. It makes trivial tasks, like math homework, much more difficult.

oh-my-gosh-that-felt-good-to-blab-out.

 

That's pretty horrible, Merc. I really hope that you'll find a solution somehow, because... that just sucks... not being sure if you might get a stroke, and just, yeah, the fact that your head hurts... *hugs* If you ever feel like you need to blab out more, I'm always there.

 

When I have a migraine, I can barely function. I had a migraine 2 days ago; I can't imagine having these kind of headaches regularly as you. I hope you feel better soon.