The not happy thread

Time was a weird haze of existence, seemingly existing in abstract throughout yesterday.

Anyway, today I'm unhappy because I only got 4 hours sleep. Why my housemate felt the need to text me the latest odds for the next Burnley manager at 2am is beyond me.

 

That sucks, Dante... and your housemate is an idiot.

 

Ummm. Why was your cell switched on at that hour?

 

Alarm is the usual culprit Cog.

 

L**ds fan, so it's to be expected

See below

Yep, that's the one.

 

Had a very late dinner at Chipotle (Burrito place) last night before bed. Bad idea. Woke up at 4:30 feeling totally bloated and only dozed after that. SOOOOO...TIIIIIIIIIRED

 

I've been very anxious, nervous all day today, and to a degree sort of agitated. Hyper mentally, but not really physically (in fact I've been really tired all day physically, actually, although my muscles have been tense all day), and I've been having these nervous shiver-ticks. I'm not quite sure why. It's been resulting in what I call word-babble (the official term being word salad). My sentences havent been quite making sense, and I'm talking really fast and I seem to lack the shut up ability. It's gotten to the point of annoying me, so I can only imagine what the effect on peers and friends today has been like.

It's just this weird, unnecessary reason of insecurity and confusion and anxiety, I think, but I dont know why?

Also, I have an ear infection (again) so I get to go to the doctor (again) which will take 3 hours or so (waiting room + waiting in the patient room + appointment + order, wait for, and pick up prescription + travel time = 3 hours). Gah.

Emotions in smiley language = :redface:

 

Poor Merc. I hope your ear gets better quickly! And I have word babble issues, too, so I feel your pain.

 

Big storm is moving in tonight and I have rehearsal in West Sacramento (half hour to 40 minute drive depending on traffic). With the storm...it may be longer. The problem is more that driving to new places or longish distances (this counts) tend to set off my anxiety anyway. Nighttime makes it worse. Add a storm, and I am really not looking forward to heading out there. Oh, the things I do for my art.

 

Good luck, Mina! I hope you make it there and back ok without too many anxiety troubles!

 

Sorry Merc, I hope you feel better soon.

And 'Mina, I'm also not very fond of storms... So I hope there won't be too much traffic trouble.


As for me, I don't know what's wrong. I slept bad, I was cold, and woke up feeling flu-ish... It's weird, and I don't want to get sick (again)!

 

Ahn. So sorry, Merc. Luck, Mina. And I hope you're feeling excellent tomorrow, Lydia. It is the season of perpetual colds for me, so I know, I know. Annoying and so on.

 

I'm just not happy, plain and simple. Don't feel like going into the details.

 

I'm sorry, Rei. Huge huggles for you.

 

Rei, I'm sorry you aren't happy. Big hugs to you darl

 

It is currently 29 degrees outside. It is Florida, not North Dakota.
I am sick of this cold weather...not to mention, the palm trees look miserable, I don't leave that out.

 

I'm sick again. I think the cosmic powers that be want me dead. or just miserable.

 

I had no lectures today. Not that it stopped me spending 8 hours in uni, mind. That's 18 hours in that place in two days.

 

Well I think my year long, happy relationship is crashing down. I can't help, but feel she cheated on me over Christmas break too. And I'm pretty sure it was with one of my few friends here. I knew I never should have left. What a wonderful way to start the semester. I'm too nice, and then it comes back to bite me. Every. Single. Time.

 

My condolences, Mingo. It seems that you and I are quite similar.
When I was around your age, my girlfriend of a year and a half cheated on me with my best friend. It hurt. Alot. Mostly because I'd been like a brother to him since we were both three.

I haven't spoken to either of them since.

Luckily, life moves on. In a couple years, you'll not care in the slightest. Getting there is the challenge.

 

If she did, shes a fool.

 

Thanks guys, I'm actually taking it quite a bit better than I thought. I think it's because I have so much else to focus on that I can turn my head most of the time. But I hate that all my plans, and my hopes are falling down. Life will go on though. Ugh, as it always seems to do.

 

Wow, Pirate Steve, I'm so sorry. That's a really horrible thing to do to someone, especially someone as kind and caring as you are. I know you said you're taking it better than you expected, but I'm here if you need to talk. *hugs*

 

Thanks Heather, that means a lot to me. I just usually don't like talking about these things anymore than I have to, it's a me thing. But I might breakdown here, you know how it goes. At least I have a few friends on here if need be.

 

Not happy- me no can sleep, and me has no idea where aspirin is hanging out. Me has headache.