The not happy thread

Urgh, you have my sympathies. I hate having anything done that means going to the dentist.

 

I'm so tired. So so tired. School and running and everything I have to do every day. I'm just so tired.

 

I am so very tired, and so cold. Don't know why. And it's been a bad day - I got very little done, and everything seemed awkward and unhelpful.

 

And now the depression is setting in hard...ugh, it's going to be a real long weekend...

 

Yeah, you always have a very busy schedule, Ems. You should get some rest...

Aw, I'm sorry, I have those days too sometimes. Tomorrow will be better.

Hey, brother, I don't like seeing you sad. I'm always there if you wanna discuss Gladiator.

 

Haha okay little sister. Thanks.

 

Sod off, work. Not got in before 6 any nights this week, even though I've not had any lectures scheduled at all on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. 10-4 tomorrow as well

On the plus side, only 2000 words to go of my Jurisprudence coursework.

 

Scratch that bit about being done with all this journalistic bull. I wouldnt normally call it bull, but. Well, this is bull****. Just got a notification that the "final" draft I submitted needs to be revised again?

I'm so frustrated. Pieces dont get published if you dont comply to the "reccomendations" that eventually someone will tell you to "take into consideration." Instead, all physical copies will be dumped into the dead box and all virtual copies into the dead folder.

My "final" piece has been ripped to a quarter of its size. It's been bastardized, torn apart, and is now totally unreadable. There is no way I will read what I've been left with, that will have my name attached to it. It's just disgusting and hardly any of it is in my own words. (Check it: I recognize two sentences as my own.)

I dont have a problem if my writing actually sucks, but the point is that it usually doesnt. I've won national competitions for journalistic writing. I'm not a bad writer, and it's embarassing, hurtful, and rude that people are treating me like I'm four years old and cant even print legibly.

(Or am I? Go ahead, and tell me I suck if you want because honestly if I do, than I'll leave it at that. But no one has given me as much of a hard time as these people have. Most people actually come to me if they need help with something to do with writing.)

I was given a specific angle for this profile; I wrote it. I talked with the editor overseeing the project, and the way we left it, the piece was fantastic and there just needed to be a better conclusion.

All the sudden, this version is suggesting that I introduce a source who was NEVER talked about when I was assigned this project. The source has no credibility or purpose in this piece --it's just "convenient" for them, I suppose.

Note that technically I should sign up for projects I wish to undertake. Honestly, I didnt have the time or the patience for this assignment. I'm doing a lot right now, and I told the editor that. Come December, she's asking me where my piece is. LOOK AT THE GOD DAMN BOARD. My name is not up there. I was forced to write this assignment, and now I have been forced to change it to fit their delusions.

Write it yourself. I have half a mind to call up and say that this piece is not cohesive, makes no point, is not even a profile, and is embarassing to both myself and the subject of the profile. Some of it is not even honest and is opinion, of which is not mine. And if they want this piece, they can ****ing rewrite it themselves because I dont want my name attached to that crap.

 

One death. One in hospice death expected any day now. One in ICU. Now..we have a missing teenager (17...think good thoughts she comes home safely and soon). Pretty depressing around the church this week. Can the week be over yet?

 

I'm sorry to hear about the deaths. What is occuring? That is most disturbing. You have my deepest sympathies.

 

People who fervently deny evolution by natural selection are really starting to irritate me.

I'm sorry folks, it's scientific fact.

 

1) I leave home when it's dark, return when it's dark.
2) "Student intern" apparently means clerical help.
3) I'm not sure if I've interpreted a poem correctly, but if I did, and if it was about me, I can add just one more mean thing he's done to me. On the other hand, I could be totally wrong owing to my paranoia and oversensitivity. Whichever, I still miss him and wish I could overcome this.
4) And lastly, astronomy 101 is completely boring.

 

^ You sound almost exactly like one of my friends . . . only she doesn't live in Seattle. Anyway, tacklehugs and backpats.

Cheers,
lav

 

Aw, thanks, lav. I would tacklehugs back, but I usually do it all wrong and end up just offering to shake hands, which people think is weird.

 

"Student intern" is pretty much the definition of clerical help. My best friend who to do a student internship his senior year ended up being stuck in a back room for seven hours a day filing papers. I don't know how he survived. Good luck to you.

As for the poem, that is extremely irritating to figure out. One of my old friends did that exact same thing about people in the class, mainly the girl who was now dating her old boyfriend. It would be just hidden enough to not call her out on it, but it was still there. I wished I could do something for my friend being attacked but I couldn't because I wasn't sure. So I feel your pain, well at least somewhat, for that whole poem thing.

P.S. Astronomy 104 (That's what it was here) is really frickin' boring. I only survived by paying some attention during labs. It's fairly easy though, except with spectra. Have fun. haha

Mingo

 

went to Tobin's pediatrician appointment and he basically accused me of neglect by not feeding Tobin enough beforehand, then basically told me I should stop breastfeeding and only formula feed, and was a general a-hole to me the entire time, treating me like I knew nothing.

1- Tobin was very spewy for a few weeks and so his weight gain was down as he just couldn't keep his feeds down.
2- yes, my milk supply dropped off and it happens to a lot of women and it can take a while before you even notice.
3- my milk supply is back and he is actually gaining more weight with having my breast milk than he was with just the formula.
4- I was accused of over feeding him yesterday.

I can't win with any of these people and seriously about ready to tell them all where to go. I've had it now and only just holding back the tears. Trying so hard to not break down because Dan isn't in the best frame of mind at the moment and I'm barely able to.

And to top it all off, I have a sore throat and I can't eat. I can barely get water down at the moment.

 

Tor. sorry to hear this crap.
go tell the dr. to fluff a duck.
now go make yourself a cup of tea with lots of honey and a bit of ginger. Dr. moms home remedy.
luv and hugs.

 

thanks lessa
I'm still in a bad mood, because mt tongue is swollen and extremely sore and I can hardly swallow without crying and not talk as I can hardly move my tongue. Today is already turning out to be a horrible day

 

That's terrible, Tor. =( Don't listen to those guys accusing you of neglecting your baby. As long as you know in your heart that you're doing your best to care for Tobin, who gives a (eep) what they think. They've probably never had babies in their LIFE! I could go on and on, but Cogito may be mad at me, and I don't want that to happen. :3

I forgot my laptop charger, so now it's just relying on battery alone. I've put it on "Power Saver" to lengthen the time, but I doubt it'll last until I can get it home to recharge.

Worst Case Scenario: Battery runs out before my Geography class.

Best Case Scenario: Battery runs out AFTER my Geography class.

 

Oh, Tor...I am so sorry to hear that your day is in this state. People are people and they all have an opinion, it is my thought that most should "can" those opinions and put a sock in it.
Just remember that you are a good momma and your love for Tobin is true and pure. I know you are a good person, Sherie. Just hang in there, a brighter is coming.

 

thank you both. I really do appreciate it.

Turns out I'm either allergic to a herb capsule I'm taking or I've tonsillitis. Gotta wait till 10 am to see the doctor at the hospital to find out. I always have bad luck on my birthday, why can't I just skip the damn day?

 

not happy and very hurt today.
just found out that friends have been for years communicating with 3 people they removed from a board I had and when I thought I was talking to friends about problems privately, they would go on face book and emails and tell them all stories about my life.
Not sure if I will ever feel like opening up to people again.
sort of want to go away and hibernate until I drop dead.
It not only hurts it is embarrassing to know that I was so gullible.

 

Sherie (Should I call you Mrs. Sherie to be on the safer side?), no one knows Tobin better than you and your husband.

Screw those guys who says you're "neglecting" Tobin. They're...

all right, I'll say it. Probably will get a warning from Cogito.

They're nothing more than sad, lonely, old men who still play WoW in their very elderly mother's basement while scarfing down cheetos. What do they know of babies? Hmm? What do they know? To them, Tobin's just Baby #2,848 with xyz hair/eye color and son/daughter of the your-lastnames.

Oh dear, I can sense an anti-doctor rant coming on. I'd best stop now.

EDIT: My laptop is almost out of batteries. Why in Yoda's name did I leave the charger at home? I feel like a complete moron!

 

lessa, I am extremely sorry that people have done this to you. I know how it feels to have people treat you in such a manner.
I wish I was there so I could give you a big hug. They had no rights to violate your privacy like that. I really am sorry.
If you need someone to talk to, I am always there for you lessa, as you have always been there for me and I value your friendship. I know how hard it is to find people to trust in, and it is even harder when people continue to treat you like a doormat. Not everyone is so cruel lessa, and I'm extremely sorry that these people could do such a horrid thing to you. It is a very low act and very disrespectful.
Love and hugs to you.

 

thanks Link. You truly are an angel and know how to make a mom feel better. It means a lot. Thank you so much

And no, just call me Sherie
Hope your charger lasts.