The not happy thread

One of my best friends had a completely unpredictable and inexplicable allergic reaction that came within minutes of killing her. No clue what happened, and her family has been through everything you can imagine since they moved last August. It's so hard not to be able to help the people you love! I can't even be there physically to encourage them. . . . Argh. ARGH.

 

God, that's frightening. I hope your friend is all right and they can figure out the cause.

 

Mina hun i'm so sorry Jesus, when it rains it pours eh?

Thank god Steve got that job! Now it's his turn to support you. However, you're a hard working lady, and I bet you'll bounce back soon enough. They put too much stress on you at that place anyway - I think you should work in theatre, like the place you help-out in and perform now. They need people like you!

Try to look on the bright side hun. You're not well as it is, so perhaps this is time to take a breather and get some recouperation?
xxx

 

Drunkenness upsets me. Really, drug use of any kind. I don't give a flying **** about how "great" it makes you feel, whether it be alcohol or amphetamines; they all blow more than a sperm whale with a head-cold.

I believe it to be a serious lapse in self-discipline and I refuse to be around anyone who is inebriated and acting like a fool. Unfortunately, the two are inseparable. Bastards. That's all I say.

 

I totally agree. I can't bring myself to go out in the centre of Edinburgh on a Saturday night because it is such an ordeal to tolerate the drunken louts who pester and shout.

It's like being in a Twilight Zone - the zombies v ordinary people. But they win, because decent people just stay in and watch a dvd.

 

I'm a bit of a harsh lad, I'll consent to that. I don't drink, smoke or "party" and I never will. I wish I didn't have to tolerate those who do. It is a mark of supreme self-disrespect to abuse yourself through drugs (alcohol IS a drug, never doubt it) and I consider myself above such disgusting displays. That is not arrogance, it is self-control.

/rant

 

My Them Crooked Vultures CD got cracked.

 

Filed with EDD for unemployment benefits. Have to deposit last check. Apparently they couldn't do that one direct deposit. I feel hesitant to deposit that check...like it will really be over once I do. Steve is being great. I appreciate the supportive things everyone here has said. I haven't eaten since last night...and I am getting whoosy...but I really don't ant to eat anything. I don't even feel hungry. But my hands are shaking and I am kinda dizzy...so I should make myself....been over 18 hours.

 

Oh my god, Carmina. I'm so sorry this happened to you.

I hope you find something better soon. In the meantime, though, take a little time to do some things you enjoy but may not have had time for.

Hugs if okay.

 

Hugs from me too.

 

That really, really stinks. I'm sorry for you. I really hope things calm down and get better for you.


I'm not happy because I don't know how to calm myself down when I get stressed out, which leads to more and more stress. That, and the meds dude my doctor suggested has a waiting list of three months. Three months? Three months? I'm supposed to go THAT long without meds? ... and the medicine my doctor suggested was what I told him made me so sick to my stomach I can't eat... even after telling him that, he said I should take them again. I'm very close to changing doctors.

 

I'm sad that Carmina's life seems to be in a hellhole right now. Please, big guy in the clouds, please let Carmina's life get better! D=

 

Sorry to read about your hardship.

Be sure to contact Blue Shield soon. HMO benefits end quickly when employment is terminated. Your employer is required to notify the insurance company of your "triggering event" and CalCOBRA eligibility, but it could take a few weeks before your benefits are reinstated. It won't happen until you've paid the premium. The good news is that you are eligible for benefit continuation under CalCOBRA law, and there is a federal program right now that will credit federal government money against 65% of your healthcare premium cost. Make sure Blue Shield provides that credit.

FYI- the Franchise Tax Board of the California State government will be hiring soon. Most state departments are laying off, but Franchise Tax is the only department of our govt that brings IN money, so they are being staffed up. They hired 130 people last spring. Their hiring procedure requires an online test to be completed before submitting an application, so I would suggest you go on their website and complete the test ASAP.

Good luck.

 

Thanks. She's stable. On oxygen and still has hives, but the swelling has gone down. As far as I know, they still can't tell what happened.

 

I never would have thought it would be difficult to pinpoint the source of an allergic reaction. Glad to hear she's doing better.

 

Sorry, I only just now saw this. Big hugs from me. Hang in there! I will include you in my prayers tonight.

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I have been going through pretty severe depression to the point that my best friend threatened to force me to go to the hospital. The last time it was this bad was several years ago when there was a crisis in our family.

The only way I could still be here, I believe, is because my bf basically took me and carried me through these past few days. He forced me to do the every day things to take care of myself, otherwise I wouldn't even leave the bed. I wish I could heal my brain that keeps barraging me with a feeling of existential loneliness and hopelessness (for lack of a better phrase). I need to connect with more people (in real life, not the Internet world), forgive my parents for their lack, but dealing with abandonment anxiety and depression means fearing/not trusting everything and every person. I just want to be healthy and normal and feel hopeful. Don't pity me, but I guess I'm giving you a glance of what real, long-term painful depression looks like. I am on medication, BTW, but sometimes there's really no medicine to give you true perspective.

 

Still have a cold.

Found a nice avvie of Link and Zelda, but file was too big. So I had to stick with this one.

 

I am in a lot of pain this morning with my right shoulder and arm...I have RA and it is getting worse. I'm not sure how much longer I push myself through the pain. I am tired of my body hurting, the meds are terrible.
I am too young to have this. *sigh*

 

Best wishes, Chim.

My sister in law has RA and only in her early 30s... I know from her that that can be terribly painful, and she's raising three small kids alone, after her husband (a police officer) was shot and killed last year.

I hope you can find better meds for it... and wish you the best as always.

Charlie

 

Female thing rant, don't read if it will make you uncomfortable.

Spoiler

CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMPPPPSSSSS!!!! *screams in pain*

 

I would have to open that... now I'm uncomfortable.

 

That rant is epic, but for the sake of your soul, don't open it.

Spoiler

In all seriousness, Em I can't pretend to know what you're feeling, but I hope it gets better for you soon.

 

I'm so sorry, Marina. I really wish I was there so I could make you feel better in any way, but I'm not, so all I can say is I hope things get better, and chin up! There are so many nice things, even though they sometimes might not be too visible. And it sounds like you've got a great guy at your side.

I hope you feel better soon, Nemo! Drink lots of lemon tea with honey!

I'm sorry, Chimmy. *hugs*

Ouch! Hope you feel better soon, Ems!

 

I hate shopping.

 

I seem to have a bit of a stalker on my hands. I'm seriously not joking here.