The not happy thread

Bradford's a town in the southern UK

 

Link, I hope your day gets better.

And Lavender, I hope you get all your work done, and that you quickly stop feeling so sore!

As for me...would someone please kill me? Lady rant:

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I went to the lady doctor yesterday, both to get a pap smear and because I had some weird issues going on, and not only did she not see anything when she did the pap, she ordered a blood test to find out if I was pregnant because of the other issues going on. Fast forward to this morning, and suddenly I'm bleeding heavily-by far the heaviest period I've had if not ever, then in a very, very long time. Now, I don't know if any of you ladies have ever had a pap done close to when you start your period, but I have, and the doctor can see spotting if it's close to when you start. So it's very unsettling to me that not 24 hours before I started this heavy bleeding, the doctor didn't see anything. And also, it's just been incredibly painful since it began...and I have to work in two hours. We'll see how that goes.

Anyway, sorry for complaining when others have so much bigger issues to deal with. I'm just very miserable, and Joel worked at 7 this morning, while I work 2PM to 10PM, so it's just a crappy, crappy day...

 

So sorry, Heather. I hope it turns out to be nothing serious, and in the meanwhile I guess you're just gonna have to bear it... I'd take half of the pain if I could...

*hugs*

 

Thanks, Lydia. I've been taking painkillers, so hopefully those kick in at some point...if not, guess I'll just have to tough it out at work. I work with all boys, so none of them will want to hear about this.

 

You have my sympathy. Here's to hoping it's nothing serious.

 

Thanks. I haven't, but thanks. I hope you feel better soon, too.

 

Could today have been any worse? I submit that it could not. I just got out of a very long, hot shower to calm myself down. I came to check my email and retrieve a file I sent to myself. However, after reading a particularly devastating message, I think I need another one.

I feel very volatile and vulnerable right now, very confused and scared and unsure of when these nightmares will end. I know that's life, but it seems like it's been some time since anything to make up for this has happened to me. And I work very hard to do just that, bring happy things into my life, but lately that's done nothing but backfire.

I mean honestly, I was thinking to myself around noon this afternoon, "Could I suck anymore as a person?" It took all I had to get through the day without anyone seeing me lose it. Now seeing an answer which affirms my question, I really have lost it.

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Thank you all for your comfort and support on my last post here, especially Doug and Zoe. I tried to respond earlier, but my Internet shut down a few times during my writings. I will thank you properly once I have recomposed myself; I truly appreciate what you have said. It made me feel a lot better when I read your kind words.

 

Not happy because I have two math tests tommorow. Yuck.
Mer, I hope you feel better; HiddenNovilest, you, too!

 

You poor woman. Smears are painful and uncomfortable as it is, you've just had your issue exaccerbated by a factor of 10.

 

I avoid smear tests at all costs. I'm scared to have one. But, I really should get one soon.

Hope you feel better really soon Hidden. I hate lady-time.
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I have two essays due in on monday and i've managed to do half of each. Oh, and those halves are utter sh/t. Christ.

 

Not really making me unhappy so to speak, but I am worried.

I've been looking for a job quite intensively for the last week and a half, I've applied to about 15 places, and I haven't heard anything back from any of them. I currently have my heart set on this pharmacy assistant position close to where I live- it did detail in the advertisement that experience in pharmacy wasn't essential because training is provided.. which is great news because I've work in the hospitality sector for the past 4 years.

I guess I'm just not very confident with my resume, I've only held down three 'proper' jobs in the past because my Mum kept getting sick everytime I started work so I had to cut down my hours/stop work entirely quite a number of times. One of the jobs I had was in catering, and I thought I did pretty well in that considering it was a 6am-3pm, sort of job, however the manager was my Dad's girlfriend, and my Dad currently detests me for requesting child support from him for my younger brother, so I highly doubt his girlfriend will be in the position to say something positive about me if I list her as a referee.

You know, I'm so tired of my Dad making even the most straightforward of things, a slow, complicated process. Don't help me out or anything Dad, the world revolves around you, remember?

 

Those weird awful pains have come back. I was almost crying on my way home because I was in so much pain.

 

Yikes, Em! I hate to say it, because I know how you feel about going to the doctor, but have you seen one? You should probably go if you haven't. And I can say that, because I had weird random stomach pains from the end of last week to early this week, and I went to the doctor.

Merc, I hope you fell better. Sorry things are bad for you right now.

Zoe, good luck finding a job! I'm sorry that your dad is making things difficult for you.

And everyone else who was struggling with things (I'm sorry, I'm exhausted or I would have quoted you each individually), I hope you get them straightened out soon.

Thanks, everyone, for your sympathy. It means a lot.

 

Heather... ouch. Hope you're feeling better.

Mercy, sorry you're having such a rough day.

Zoe, hope you get the job and that sucks that your day is being a bit of a prick about things.

 

Feel better, Em.

 

Really not looking forward to my 1pm lecture... Criminal Law, Sexual Offences Against Children...

This is not going to be pleasant

 

No. Unpleasant topi to say the least, and frustrating to know how much cannot be prosecuted.

 

Unpleasant indeed, but look at it this way, if you can: your lecture on it will probably bring more awareness about it. And the more we can name it, the more we can shame it, and bring about some justice and preventation.

 

Really not happy because some people in my family are having stomach flu, and I'm beginning to feel sick now too.

 

Not good! I hope you don't get sick!

 

I'm having a nightmare week. I've been in agony for days. My ribs, back and stomach are giving me constant agony to the point where I am near to collapsing at times and I can not get in to see a doctor for a month. Too bad if it were my appendix aye? What's the worst that could happen if it were? I could die. Not so bad, the world is a **** hole anyway and I've had enough of it.

I'm having a very bad week and as far as I am concerned, to hell with it all. The whole frigging lot. Think positive and build strength from it? Bash that where the sun don't shine. I'm sick of being positive all the damn time and thinking that it'll make me stronger and that garbage. Why? Because no matter what you do, no matter how hard you frigging try, some a-hole is always going to be there with whatever weapon possible to smash you as far down as they possibly can smash you down and while you are 100 foot down your hole, they then start pouring quick dry cement down the whole and stay there with a big smile on their face saying "There's your positive thinking you fool".

 

I just rolled my ankle last night really badly playing volleyball. I'm on crutches now and my season might be over

Hope you feel better Torana, I feel your pain.

On the bright side, YAY Tylenol threes!

 

So today I was told by my lawyer that there's pretty much nothing I can do to prevent my dad from taking ownership of everything in my/my mums estate...

I think I'm just gonna go cry for a couple of hours.

 

I can't sleep, and I have a test tomorrow. I've been trying to for an hour and I've pretty much given up now. :/

 

I hope you don't end up getting it, and that your sick family members get better soon!

I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now, Tor. I'm just a PM away if you ever need to talk!

Aw, I hope your ankle heals up so you can keep playing!

What the hell? That sounds pretty bogus.