The not happy thread

Two bolded words make no sense. Don't try to start the apocalypse, man. Because you're getting mighty close with statements like that.

 

LOL, that does sound bad!

 

Kay, that was in the Happeh thread.....now I am not happeh because this season's sucky group of American Idol contestants (excepting Crystal and Big Mike) are very bad, and to add the ultimate insult to injury, this week is BEATLES WEEK.

They're NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO SING BEATLES SONGS!!!!

And my personal nightmare: Tim Urban. He turned a Stones song ("Under My Thumb") into REGGAE. REGGAE!!!! He is awful. Awful times one hundred million. He's like this season's Sanjaya--he sucks so bad, and yet he's the exact same--smiles annoyingly when getting bad reviews, and keeps getting voted to stay despite the glaringly obvious fact that HE SUCKS!!!

If he destroyed the Stones so thoroughly, I am seriously shuddering with dread to see what he's going to do to my beloved Beatles.

Unlike Glee, who can do a good cover of a Beatles song (surprisingly), this group is going to destroy them.

I'm excited to see Idol's artist montage though; the montage that explains what the artist(s) they're doing that week are all about, on Tuesday.

 

Stood up for the second date in a row. Two girls in 3 months deciding that they're not going to bother turning up. According to a friend (who's had to put up with me ranting at her down the phone all evening) I'm not all that attractive because lasses think I have low self-esteem. After getting stood up two dates running what might have set that off, then, genius?

 

Keep a strong front. Low self-esteem IS NOT attractive, in women or men (so I'm told). Feeling like crap is okay, it is natural. However, if you constantly exude an aura of "I hate myself, grrrr" no one will want to go on a date with you. Dates are meant to be a fun way to meet someone special. If a girl thinks you're gonna be miserable, she won't show up. Though, to be fair if he thought that in the first place, making a date at all just to stand you up was cruel and unusual.

 

Dude man here is right, I mean, being a little nuerotic and self-conscious can be sort of cute in it's own right but generally speaking a layer of confidence goes a long way. Be a man, take some control and look like you believe in yourself!

 

I'm unhappy someone called me "Dude man."

I'm from New York, not California. Man.

 

And I'm from Virginia and I called you Dude man. I do not change my speech by geographical location.

I am unhappy because I need to get a new pair of glasses. Again. This will probably be the 10th pair in my life.

 

That sucks, Nonnie.

I have to get new glasses every so often myself. It's not that annoying, but then again, I don't know what's going on.

 

I've got a three different eye diseases so I'm going blind fast and there isn't any surgery or anything to fix it so -shrugs-

 

That's terrible. I can't imagine it.

 

It makes me sad, because I want to become a photographer but I mean, a blind photographer? That just defeats the purpose. So I don't know what I'm gonna do.

 

Nonsense, Nonnie! There are blind painters out there. I even know one! I know you said photographer, not painter, but one could argue that blind people can't paint since you would need to see. Well, blind painters all over the world have proven them wrong.

I say this because I don't want you to be defeated by whatever happens to you. You want to be a photographer, well you be the best damn photographer you can be and don't let anyone else say otherwise.

Photography is not always just the physical. It means many, many things. All it takes is honing the skills a different way.

And believe me, I've been around blind people, am half-blind/totally deaf, so I know what I'm talking about. Plus, there was a time I wanted to be a musician like Ludwig van Beethoven (of course, I'd never reach his calibur) because he and I share a common disability.​

 

It's my birthday next monday, but i'm not looking forward to it.

I just know it'll be spent doing something with Matt, and possibly family, which is aboslutely lovely....but at the same time, it just reminds me of how f/cking lonely I'm feeling lately.

My new friends have now dispersed because Uni has broken up, and my old ones...are pretty much out the picture. I feel like I don't even know them anymore. Most of them stayed here, and nowdays look forward to nothing more than the next p/ss-up.

Sometimes I wish I could atleast pretend to be the scatty clubbing type, but the fact is i'm not. Hey, maybe I would be if I had some decent f/cking friends to take me, eh?

I'm so tired of always dreading events like this, for fear of realising my own rejection. I do this every f/cking year, and it ruins me.

 

I'm so sorry, Nonnie. Maybe there will be a way to restore your sight, maybe not. I don't see a way you could be a photographer, but maybe a painter, maybe your calling is to paint with words, and that will be your way to keep alive all the things you have seen.

Or maybe you will find a completely different outlet.

But there is no way I would minimize the depth of the loss you are facing.

 

But dude, how am I gonna know what I'm taking a picture of? Photograhy is not painting. Painting and music comes from inside, Photography is like translating something already there and to translate, I have to see what I'm looking at, if I even like what I'm, looking at and what I want to do with it.

Blindness will stop me.

 

If you've ever seen me paint you wouldn't say that

Religious friends tell me to trust in God, Atheist friends tell me to trust in science, either way it's all about faith I really don't have anymore.

 

I didn't think of that.

I'd go with Cogito's advice though. Just because blindness will prevent you from pursuing photography doesn't mean it can prevent you from being a painter.

Sorry if my last post was a bit boastful. I just have an anti-defeatist attitude about life that I fail to observe reality.

 

Lol, when did people start thinking I like painting? I mean, I like it, but I suck at it XD

 

Then just have faith in yourself.

You find a way. Because you have to. You never know what's inside you until you have run out of options.

Have faith in yourself. You will find a way.

 

And that's the motto I live by.

 

Hm. Alright. -highfive- guys.

 

Nonnie, check out these links about blind photography.

http://www.time.com/time/photogallery/0,29307,1897093_1883578,00.html

http://edition.cnn.com/video/#/video/international/2008/09/03/ime.58.bk.a.cnn?iref=videosearch

http://www.theblindphotographer.com/main.asp?CL=ENG

 

Plus rep for the awesome links there Mercy

 

thanks