The not happy thread

I don't know why I'm posting this but anyway. I was upset yesterday and today someone who should care about me and ask me if I was feeling any better hasn't. Added with the ever increasing jealousy and paranoia and worry I feel because of that someone.

 

That's frustrating. I'm sorry!

 

I'm unhappy cause I just recieved an infraction on my first day here! I feel stupid and miserable.

 

Hey, don't be sad. You'll get used to these rules after a while, they're not too hard. And critiquing something will only get better and easier the more you do it, so don't worry, you're not stupid and miserable and you'll learn soon enough.

 

Yeah--at first I felt like I had to watch my step here too, but the longer you're around the easier it gets, so you're just fine.

 

I have caught the plague going through the cast and crew of All Shook Up. I am losing my voice. That makes rehearsals for 12th Night challenging.

 

Ouch, that's no fun. Drink lots of lemon tea with honey, and I hope you get better soon!


As for me...

stressed. Add to that the fact that it are the bad days of the month for me and I can't find certain things I need to know before Friday... makes a not happy Lydia.

 

You know when things can't possibly get worse and they do? To add to yesterday's problem, my cousin is now in hospital after collapsing with a brain haemorrhage. I don't know the prognosis, but when my dad phoned me he didn't sound positive.

I'm currently in Newcastle until tomorrow evening. I came up here to primarily do some work and also to gather my thoughts about the first problem. Now I feel like I'm away from where I need to be. But I also need to do my work for deadlines and exams. I haven't felt this helpless in a long time. Everything's out of my hands and I just hate it. I want to feel like I can control what's going on in my life and stop people slipping out of it, and at the moment I can't.

 

Oh, that's horrible.
And it's definitely not easy with so many things on your head already... I'm sorry. I'll pray for your cousin to be alright, and hopefully I'll manage to be of some help with yesterday's problem...
It sucks that you have to go through all this stuff... hopefully things will get better soon. :/

 

Thanks, Lydia. I know that normally I can deal with these things individually, but with them all coming together, with exams on top of this, I'm currently just reeling. I'm heading into uni in a bit for some food and hopefully I'll see someone there who'll make me feel a bit better and cheer me up, even if it's only a respite.

 

Yeah, I can only imagine what it would be like, exams only is nightmarish enough for me...
Hope you find someone that can cheer you up.

 

I wish there was something i could say that was decent. But i just hope things get better as soon as possible and hope for the best for you and those around you.

 

Thanks, Speedy.

 

I'm sorry you're so stressed and not happy!

Man, Dante...I'm so sorry you've got all this piling up right now. I hope your cousin will be ok! And that everything else untangles itself so you have a chance to actually relax.

 

It's just not fair the horrible things adults can do to the children in their care!!! Defenseless little kids who end up spending their ENTIRE LIVES trying to recover from something SOMEONE ELSE did to them! Something they couldn't stop or control! It's not fair that grown people would take advantage of someone without any defense in such a horrible way!!

Agh. It's just.. not good. At all.

 

I know. I know.

Adults who mistreat children can do some serious pshycological damage to them. The children understands that the adult is the authority figure, so the adult that mistreats them leaves the children thinking they're (themselves) terrible, horrible, that something must be wrong with them to deserve this.

And like you said, they spend their entire lives trying to understand that what the adults did was wrong.

I had one such adult, my seventh grade English teacher named Mrs. Tindal. Because I was deaf, she would insult and belittle me. She would humiliate me in front of the class. I would remember coming home thinking I was a terrible monster, that my deafness was a bad thing. She was probably the worst bully I've ever faced, and there was not a damn thing I could do. I took solace in reading about Napoleon Bonaparte and there was one point where I pratically worshipped him as a god-like figure. (I think I still do in some sense.)

Even now, seven years later, I still have lasting impacts from her and it shows in my stories. Almost all of them have at least one character who is like Mrs. Tindal.

 

I didn't know you're deaf. Hm.

That's awful. Just not right.

I can't stand it.

 

Wow, that's awful Link.
This Mrs. Tindal shouldn't be allowed anywhere near kids.

 

^I agree. I can't believe someone like that was a teacher and didn't end up losing her job over that. You can't have been the only student she did that too, either...how terrible.

 

Oh, she did it to other deaf children too. My parents made sure that I'd be the last deaf child she tormented.

 

...what happened to her?

 

Tragically, she still has the job.

Not to worry. She provided fodder for me to create a few nasty characters. They will most likely be punished in ironic, tragic ways.

 

When you're a success, Link, you should go pay the old b/tch a visit

 

I am not happy because my computer is full of viruses and keeps shutting down on me.

 

That's not good! I don't know anything about virus fixing, or I would offer you advice.