The not happy thread

This just sucks. I feel like I'm just reacting to everything....and that's it. I just want to curl up and sleep somewhere.

 

So do!
Go and find a cupboard to hide in for a bit?


I am unhappy because I feel like a social reject atm. I don't go out, I just exist. I'm broke too! here's a question-

How can a talentless-teenager-living-in-the-middle-of-nowhere-without-much-time-and-almost-no-buses-into-town make some money? (Can't ask parents. When I say talentless, I mean it, so busking/selling stuff/making jewellery isn't going to work )

 

none going round here atm

And my bus goes into town TWICE a day so I'm pretty much stranded! I live 5 miles from town

 

I would. But I'm still in school.

 

We get along ok most of the time...it's just more recently, especially since planning the wedding began, we've started having some issues with each other.

I'm sorry things didn't go well with Mike. Just give it time and maybe things will start to sort themselves out.

 

I am upset with my mother and my sister. It is a very long story. Basically when my grandmother died 8 years ago, I asked for my grandmother's wedding set as the only thing I wanted from the estate. The executor of the estate (my uncle)agreed. Before my wedding 3 and a half years ago, I paid have to the rings repaired, resized, and to replace two of the missing side stones (small diamonds). I wanted to wear the rings to my wedding as my something old. My older sister freaked out and demanded that she should get the rings (or at least one of the two in the set)since she was oldest and didn't have any diamonds (her wedding set is garnet). To keep the peace, I agreed to wear the rings to the wedding and then give them to my mother with the understanding that I would get them upon her death. That was a very difficult decision, but the only way I could see to maintain my relationship with my sister. Fast forward to yesterday. My younger sister (who already got a third ring of my grandmother) was freaking out because her wedding ring doesn't look like a wedding ring so no one believes that she is married. My mother pacifies her by giving her my grandmothers rings. Mom told me this IN CHURCH so I couldn't argue or say anything about it. This morning I asked her if it was a temporary give until my sister can get her own wedding-looking ring (although if I was her husband I would be pissed that she didn't want to wear the ring she married me with) or if it was permanent. Mom said it was permanent. I asked if it wouldn't be fair to have her wear them until she got her own then return them to the person the executor of the estate promised them to or back into the trust until her death. She said "they are on her hand now" and she left. So...I am pissed. I am sad. Knowing what drama it caused before, I am shocked that my sister would take them. The 8th anniversary of my grandmother's death is coming up (her funeral was day after Easter, so already difficult holiday). I miss her, and this just stirs everything up. Is it selfish to be upset about this? I know it a material thing, and that my mom had good intentions to cheer my sister up (she is bipolar and in a depressive swing). I still feel robbed. Especially since I am the one who paid to have the rings even made wearable (they had been cut off my grandmother's hand when she went into the hospital). Ok...need to stop venting or I am going to cry at work.

 

No, I don't think that's selfish. To be blunt, your mother has lied to you and used exploited your faith so that you couldn't make a rebuttal. Your elder sister has to deal with the fact you asked your uncle first, and therefore should be awarded your possessions. Your younger sister is being childish and shouldn't care about what other people think of her marriage, because it's none of their business.

That said, I am unhappy because I moved to another continent six months ago, am being forced to learn a language I do not like, and going to school has brought back some painful and unwanted nostalgia.

 

The girlfriend gave up smoking over a week ago, and since is a total bitch.

I wish she would smoke again because her mood is pissing me off to the point, its making me want one.

Im going to be okay though, it just sucks.

 

I really screwed up this time. Made the worst mistake of my life. Because of my own damn insecurities, I've pushed away everything that could've ever made me better, and this time it was the best thing that has ever happened to me, and there's very little chance of getting it back and little chance of it ever happening again. I dont see how it can get much worse.

Paradise lost.

 

Don't worry even when it seems like it wont, things will get better, they always do
I don't know what happened, but everytime an oppurtunity is lost, something new comes along even if you don't realize it

 

Aww. =( I know how you feel.

A little over a year ago I made a choice that made me lose one of the two most important things in my life. I spent nearly ten months in agony over it, regretting it, hating my choice, but knowing it had been right, but I was still completely miserable. I thought there was no chance in hell of getting it back, but at that point what did I have to lose? So I tried. I put my all into it, and things turned out.

So don't give up. If you feel that bad then what do you have left to lose? If there's anything at all you can do to get it back then go for it.

Hope you feel better.

 

I'm upset because my sick grandad is back in hospital again

Plus, it happened on my mum's birthday. She didnt even get to open her presents before rushing to my grandparents house

What a horrible day.

 

Ashleigh-*hugs*..hope your Grandpapa gets well enough to come back home soon.

 

That's what I meant - find a school cupboard/cloakroom/forgotten classroom

Works like a charm And if a teacher walks in, wail a lot/ burst into tears, watch them fall over themselves trying not to upset you.

 

Ugh
When a girl at school was quitting, all she'd flipping do was moan about how much she wanted a smoke (she hadn't even been smoking long) until I'd snap and tell her to go and have one/...then she'd say 'but it's bad for me!' that didn't stop her before

I am unhappy because I have such a crap day tomorrow, I might as well just curl up in bed all day
And I failed some tests.. .

 

hahahaha, that's always fun.


....Guass elimination continues to haunt me.

 

^ Lol

When we bunk assembly (so boring) we hide in empty classrooms.

The other day, when some smokers were in the orchard, they saw an assistant head wandering around looking for girls to catch/beat/suspend so they ran to the Edno (where we were hiding) and she followed them..they ran in screaming 'SHES COMING' and we all jumped out the windows and ran off....didn't get caught either! Hehehe.

 

Ha, that's funny. ^

I'm never going to get everything memorized for church tonight. I have to know the 23rd Psalm, books of the Bible in order, Apostles' Creed, Lord's Prayer,Wesleyan Rules, and the Ten Commandments.

This is going to be a long night.

 

^Oh. Not nice.

The only one I know is the Lord's Prayer...that's the only thing I got from Holy Cross primary..that and a fear of vicars :S

 

Yeah, I knew the Lord's Prayer and Wesleyan Rules. (There's only three.) And it didn't take much to get the Ten Commandments (Thou shalt not...) either. But the books of the bible in order might kill me.

 

^Would definately kill me. Not just cos I'm atheist, either!

I can't learn off by rote, my mind always wanders.

 

Mine does too. That's why I'm having so much trouble with it. Bahhh.

 

Hmm...the only thing I can say is keep flipping reading it!
Osmosis..

Oh and don't distract yourself (not that you are on here though. oh no!)

 

Well...I have 3 hours and 15 min until it's due...i've got time.

 

haha you'll be fiiine!

I'm off to bed in a mo, even though it's only 8.50, I'm knackered