The not happy thread

^Oh emily -- that's terrible. I'm so sorry. What got to him? Peer pressure? Or tauntings from other school mates?

 

Family problems. His sister died a year and a half ago in an ATV accident.

 

^*gasp* Was she young? Oh my heart is breaking for him. And for his family who must be in dire straights at the moment.

 

Morphine day today. *growls* Hate it. Can't sleep on it, it just gets me into a half conscious delirious nightmare state, and it makes me fuzzy and disoriented awake as well..

All because I'm allergic to the Ibuprofen and Aspirin but needs something a lot stronger then Paracetamol against my cramps.

At least all my meds are as good as free. I got medicine cost at at least 4500$/3250EUR/30000skr yearly and only need to pay 275$/195EUR/1800skr year.

 

So after reading Sagan's "Pale Blue Dot" on the internet and thinking how we should all just get along because...after all, we're all humans sharing that one little blue blip in the vast, empty darkness of space, I go to bed and have a nightmare that a gang of thugs broke into my house and began to hurt my family and my pets. I'm helpless to do anything.

My dreams are so cruel to me.

 

Had a crap week. So I'm going home early today to play football this evening. I have that need to kick something, whether it's man or ball.

What are the odds of my knee going, just to top off a week of dreams?

 

She was 14. They've been through so much over the last year.

 

Oh, that's so terrible. What a tragedy.

 

Nothing seems to be working out today.

 

Gah! Im not only drugged, now I got sensory hallucinations to! Gah! My skin is scratchy and stinging.

 

I've done alot of walking lately so I stupidly convinced myself that I deserved to treat myself to dark chocolate, and now I feel sick after scoffing some down. It was like I thought it was gonna get up and walk away unless I shoveled it in.

I diet and work hard not to eat bad and then this happens all of a sudden, all cos I'm bored and on my own. What the hell is wrong with me?

 

It's moments like this, that next time, you'll go "Forget about it."

You'll be right. It sucks, or it must. *hugs*

Better a packet, than two, or a truckload!



Edit

Feeling a bit meh.

Getting a third medication introduced next week. Should be down to two in a month or so. The mood stabilisers I'm on are no good long term, unless i want to look like a hippo.

 

Take it easy. Studies says that best way to maintain a diet is to stick to it 80% of the time. Once in every five days you get to cheat a little.

Ang angsting over the diet is just risky, and might trigger a eating disorder. It was just a piece of chocolate.

 

Absolutely furious. Attempting to fill in a form. Like all forms it contains questions that must be answered but which don't quite apply to your particular case. So, filling them in involves anguish and doubt because you well know it will muddy the waters if you do answer and confuse and outrage if you don't.

F****** form-filling!

 

To begin with I appologize if this offends anyone else here, but you're not alone, this offends me to absolutely no ends.

It turns out that on halloween night there was a gathering in a local Legion, it turns out that the two individuals, whom won 1st place for most 'original costume', came in as 1) a member of the KKK, and 2) in black face with a noose around their neck.

As far as I am concerned, they should never have been allowed entry into the building in the first place, barring that they should have at least been asked to leave the premises. Totally tastless, and @#%#$#$ up.

 

Today, my school was a weeping hole of depression. Everyone it was crying, it seemed. And the kids that were most upset were all kept in the library. But, wow. People are really shaken up.

This has been awful. The memorial service is tomorrow.

 

That's tragic, Em. A lot of the kids probably feel responsible in some way, even though they couldn't have stopped it. People always cry when it's too late.

 

That's terrible, Emily. I hope the kids that need to talk to a counselor will have access.

A little over a year ago my daughter's boyfriend drowned while saving a smaller child who fell into a swift river. He was 15. It was just horrible.

Sad.

I hope for the best for all the kids at your school.

 

Really? Really? ~shakes head~ Something is dreadfully wrong with humanity. Dreadfully wrong.

I'm so sorry for you Em and for your whole school. The whole thing is just horrible.

 

Well, done right I would have though it okay. For example is a black guy decided to dress in as KKK and his white friend as the black guy. Humor is a way to communicate about difficult subjects.

But I agree. In many cases it would just been really tasteless.

 

Good gracious... Emily, I'm so sorry.

My siblings are enduring the same pain. A child from my local high school committed suicide a few days ago. They say it was peer pressure, and the service was today.

I just wish these kids knew death isn't the answer... that someone will always be there to listen...

I hope it gets better for you, and for all the kids who are in pain right now.




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Small sideline; I'm angry grumpy. Work tomorrow. 9-9. Horray.

Edit:

I just found out my friend's in the hospital. Lord help me, I don't know what to do...

I'm going to strangle her ex. I swear if I ever see him again, my fist will make contact with his face.

 

Ugh. The BBC journalists are on strike today. To show my support, I'm boycotting the BBC entirely for today. Except now I'm drastically down on choices of what to watch...

 

I haven't heard of this yet. . . What happened? I'm just curious.

 

It's a pension dispute. Nothing fancy, just that BBC management wants to cut their pensions rather unfairly. So the NUJ called a strike. I'd forgotten about it until this morning, when I woke up to some rubbish on the radio, rather than the Today program.

 

That's just wrong.