The not happy thread

I'm in the second of a trilogy of mystery books set in Ancient Egypt by Nick Drake. The book I'm reading is Tutankhamen: The Book of Shadows and I got to the part where the boy king...

Spoiler

...died of a broken leg due to a hunting accident.

I know it's based off of the real Tut and I know what happened to the real Tut, but still...It's sad to read about it.

*Goes back in time and casts 20 Heal Critical Wounds and 30 Fortify Health for 365 days on poor Tut*

 

^Yeah, they say that's possibly what happened, but I'm not so sure. It could have been something else.

 

I'm unhappy and sad and angry with myself because I'm not on here as often as I'd like to be, and I don't want to lose any of you or lose contact with you, and I feel like I am. I don't want to leave here!

 

You won't, Gigi. And you're not gonna loose me. =) Once you are on my friend's list, you're there forever. Same goes for everyone else on my friend's list.

 

^You won't lose me either, Gi. WF friends for life, yo!

Can I just...sob on someone's shoulder for a moment? I promise I'll be quick about it.

 

Go ahead. Sob all you want.

 

Thanks, Link. I'm feeling a little better now that I've had some time to just sit and relax at home, but I hate that I always come home from work so stressed out and wound so tight. It sucks all my energy away, so then when I have time off, I can hardly manage to do anything with it. I was hoping spending a couple days in Arizona would help, but it feels like I never even went...

 

Angry just like whatever. Truly hate it all, take back everything I said, why lie.

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f/cking fantastic. it's hard to breathe like it always is, i get this weird thing around my sternum when I get too stressed out and nervous and upset. no one knows whether it's something with my respiratory or digestive or muscular system, but it is very painful and lasts for days at at time. it is not constant, but it comes probably every few minutes, and when it does, if I am standing, I fall to the ground. when am upright when it happens, I can barely breathe. i work for eight hours tomorrow. I have two breaks during which I can sit down. this is going to be perfect.

 

Have you seen a doctor? Seems very serious.. When I'm stressed, my airways constrict and I feel this intense pressure on my lungs making it very difficult to breathe. I find I quite literally have to sit down and focus on my breathing before it goes away. I hope you feel better soon..

 

Once again, I have a nightmare in which humans are right <expletives>. This time, I and a group of people are in a sinking ship and everyone's clamoring to get into the elevator. I hold it open, saying "Forget about me. Get in! Hurry!"

What do they do? Laugh and push me against the wall as they make their way in.

Sometimes I think my brain has a mind of its own, as in, it's the antisocial misanthrope. Why am I having these dreams?(

 

Dude. Link. I'm so sorry. I have those problems too. *hugs*

 

Trouble is, that's when you wake up. What happens next is the elevator is jammed in the shaft. As you race up ladderways ahead of the rising water and escape in the last lifeboat, the boors in the elevator drown like rats in a cage.

 

Not very funny, Cogito. That really is an awful nightmare, Link!

 

^Sorry, link. Gee - that's not fun at all. I know what it feels like :|

 

Well, I can rest in the knowledge that

a) It was a dream.

b) If I were ever in that situation, somebody might say something like, "We won't leave you here! Come in!" or "There's a stairwell down the hall to the left. Use that to get out!" I mean, they can't ALL be bad, right?

 

I love you guys!

 

Can I just mention how tired I am? Barely any sleep this last two nights (last night because I had an idea, in fairness) and I can barely keep my eyes open.

I hate being tired. Can't produce anything and can't concentrate properly.

 

Exactly. There's still good people out there who would also act selfless in that sort of situation, real or not.

Ugh, I know that feeling very well. Your brains feel fried, short-circuited. Feel better.

 

It sounds similar to what I have, but I wonder if it's in my lungs or not, because it's more central to my body, not really on the sides?

I went to see my doctor once about it and he thought maybe it was heartburn or acid reflux and suggested Prilosec; it worked the first time but not the second or third times when I couldnt breathe. I havent gone back. =/

xx

Someone was violently raped on campus a few days ago. She is unidentified; I feel so sorry for her. It happened near the same path that I take several times a week, often well past midnight from my friends' apartment to my dorm, alone. I cant believe I just talked to my mom the other day about how it wasnt a big deal, that the path I take is well lit and has those emergency blue light stations all over the place, and people are usually there around 1am or so, because that's when the gym that is between my dorm and their apartment closes. I guess I was wrong. Talk about scary. I've never thought twice about walking home by myself because campus is safe and pretty and it's a short walk... but I think I'll make them drive me home from now on.

Edit: Make that two victims.

 

I'm exhausted.. mentally.... emotionally... and no matter how much I "rest" it doesn't get any better. I can't keep going like this. I've been working two full time jobs and going to college. I'm unhappy because I can't focus enough to write.... and well I'm just generally NOT happy ..... And I hate being whinny but ... gesssh.........

WOW ... I hope they catch the guy!!

 

I totally understand those kind of dreams. We people here believe in reincarnation and stuff. So there's this belief that maybe something happened in your past life and that comes through as your dreams. Sounds crazy I know, but I'm a believer.
Also, if these dreams persist, maybe you should try analyzing your daily schedule to see if there's something happening there that brings such things to the attention of your subconscious mind.
All in all, have happy and sweet dreams .

Gigi!! I'm back too !

I sympathize with you. I have these projects to submit in school and have been writing continuously for the past 1 week with barely five hours of sleep every night and we're having holidays! My back hurts so baad!

Merc, I hope it's nothing serious! And gosh that's terrible . Stay safe and take care!

Sympathies dude, I feel for you.

 

That's it. I'm giving you all a big hug right nao!

*Proceeds to wrap you all in a big, massive hug*

 

Don't start something you can't finish, man.

 

Lulz!

 

*slugs Rob*
Can't you just accept it?
*hugs Link back*