The not happy thread

^No one can self-centered when their feeling things. And this is the not happy thread. That's what it was put up for. I'm so sorry to hear it, Mercurial. I do hope things improve for you.

 

Thanks, Tayleea. I hope things do too. I've calmed down enough to finish some homework, but I'm too nervous to sleep tonight. Things are just going to be awesome...

 

Aww I'm sorry Hidden I know how annoying that can be.

 

Ohmyfuingod

Srsly Merc that girl needs a good slap in the face with the firm hand of reality. Stand up to her! Don't let her treat you like this, you don't deserve it. I know there's only so much you can do (obviously you can't force her to change her mind), but at least make it known that you're not going to tolerate being treated like a second hand citizen. You remind me so much of myself you know; I'm pretty passive when it comes to confrontation and I know it's really difficult sometimes to say how you feel, but I've found the longer you hold off from expressing yourself, the worse you are treated. I'm so angry for you, I kind of just wish I could teleport myself to your dorm and give that biatch a piece of my mind.

 

I contacted an agency to send a poetry submission. They said they didn't have any poets, but I was welcomed to send them a submission.

While their policy said it takes 6~8 weeks to answer, it only took them THREE DAYS to decline me with the following words:

 

Ah, I've been gone for too long, sorry, you guys.

That is crazy. If it wasn't for my Patriot win this past Sunday, I would be crying for you, Agreen.

Merc, I'm so sorry. It sounds so tough for you. My cousin went through a terrible phase where she was having panic attacks constantly. She was missing days at school and the limit was coming up. But they lessened after awhile and weren't so severe. I hope that happens for you. Don't be sorry, we are here for you.

I'm with you on that, Heather. The holidays can't be over soon enough. I'm worrying about Christmas presents already, and rude customers are the least of my problems.

 

I feel like my creativity is being crushed by school work. Every time I wanna write something new, even just a short story, I feel guilty because I have work that needs finishing, and I really should do that first. However, I also have to write (and then analyze) a short story as part of my coursework, and although that sounds fun, it's hard not to allow that to wreck my creative flow. I feel like I'm always worrying that it isn't good enough, and then I end up focusing too much on techniques, rather than letting it flow as usual.

Who said Create And Media Writing was a good idea at uni?

 

^ I feel like that sometimes too. It kinda sucks, but I just end up going with my creative flow, and doing whatever else I need to do afterwards.

Unrelated to above, I'm frustrated. I have been for a while about this, and it's driving me crazy. I decided to do a spin the bottle kind of thing with the two choices alternatively written in a circle and whichever it pointed at was the decision I'd have to make, or at least my reaction would tell me what I honestly thought. It turned out practically even so I'm no further forward. And it's just frustrating me so much, and I don't even know if there's a decision to make. Anyway, I know this is very cryptic but yeah, I hate making serious decisions and not having a clue what to do.

 

Interestingly enough...

She filed a room change request yesterday. She didn't even tell me until she got back that she had already done it. I was caught a little off guard. There are things that annoy me about her --she can be a bit bitchy and blunt and she has a little bit of a superiority complex (which makes me, with a pre-existing inferiority complex, feel fantastic ), but I didn't realize that she thought so lowly of me until last night.

We had a heart to heart... She says that she feels like the vibe between us is bad. She says she doesn't like the way I handle stress and that I am a negative person to be around. I don't understand this. Maybe I'm just oblivious but I haven't felt any kind of bad vibe. How could I? She's never in the room. And I do tend to overreact about things and am a bit high-strung, but that's just my personality. What hurt was that her comment that she thinks I'm a negative person.

I think I'm the happiest I've ever been. I have been working through some serious issues right now, but I think I'm a happy person. It was a little brutal and too honest, I feel.

Even though we have our issues I would have preferred to continue on being roommates. I think compromising and working through things is important, and furthermore, I like to think I'm pretty easy to live with. But she's the one who's changed since we got here, not me. She's the one who parties 5 days of the week and is the girl who is failing tests and skipping class when she needs to maintain a 3.5 GPA to keep her scholarship --not me. She's the one who's decided that it's okay to cheat on her boyfriend. I've put up with her total personality change... because people do change when they come to college. But I don't see what I've done wrong.

I just feel stabbed in the back.

In the end, I guess it doesn't matter. As silly as it sounds, this is a relationship, and it takes two to make it work, but only one to break it. If that's her prerogative... so be it.

I'm just really pissed that I'm going to have to adjust to a new roommate all over again because she's inflexible and, quite frankly, mean.

 

Merc, It is hard to get soo close to someone in such a tight space. I know you feel betrayed, but at least she wasn't there long enough to be a real distraction from uni or worse... at least she didn't do major harm in some way. Honestly this girl sounds like SHE has issues that SHE needs to work out. I know it will be a large adjustment for you getting used to a new roomie, but This is probably going to be the best for YOU. It's a fresh start. Just take care of you and don't stress about the roommate situation.

 

Well just make sure the first thing you do it move the beds back.

 

Haha I agree.

Kind of stinks that she pulled that and said that stuff to you, but truthfully, I think you're better off. Hopefully your new roommate will be cooler and have her head on a little straighter.

For what it's worth, I know I've never met you in person or lived with you, but I don't think you're a negative person. You're a great girl and a good friend.

 

I need a little rant...

I think that some parents (of boys especially), need to teach their children proper and appropriate behaviour in and out of school. Some children really have no respect for anyone and certain behaviours they seem to have are behaviours that children of their age should not have yet... it is quite disturbing and unsettling for a mother to witness such behaviours. Especially when said behaviours are in relation to their own children. It is disturbing to see what the youth of our species have turned out like these days. I would be ashamed of any of my children should they ever behave in such a manner at such a young age. I can only hope that I have raised them to have far more respect and courtesy than 99% of the children today.

end rant...

 

*sigh*

There's really no getting away from it. However stupid it is, I'm going to have to do this damn ethical review for my dissertation. Quite what the ethical issues of writing to the Ministry of Justice and the Law Commission, I'm not sure. Maybe I'll traumatise the Rt.Hon. Ken Clarke by asking him for a statement, I don't know...

 

Well, I think I'll add my grumblings to this thread.

I had a job interview on Tuesday and from my perspective it went really well. Basically its a job that I can do with my eyes closed and my hands tied behind my back. Anyway, I got an e-mail today saying that I didn't get the job and I'm now thinking to myself "What more do I have to do to get a decent job?"

I'll be disapointed for a couple of days, but I'll pick myself up and begin to chase the end of the rainbow once again.

 

I've been there, Phil. Still am, to an extent. I can't find paid employment anywhere (not that I'm trying at the moment, considering that it's the middle of a hectic term at uni - and yes, some of us students do do work-saturated degrees rather than dicking about all the time ).

Keep going, lad. There'll be something out there if you keep your chin up and stay positive.

 

I'm a wreck lately. Lots of issues going on and none of them seem to be improving and they all need lots of attention and hard work and I just don't think I have the strength to handle it for much longer. I'm just so tired and need a break from all of this.

 

I'm sorry Em that life is giving you such a hard time. But whatever it is, you can do it. We're right behind you.

 

Seems like karma is hard at work! I'm glad you guys had a talk and she's filed the room transfer. Hopefully your next roomate will actually treat you with some respect.

 

My best friend here at college just went through a similar situation. Things usually work out for the better

 

I'm older, but I work two jobs and am a full time college student. Thank god this semester is almost over...

I feel like my head is going to explode

 

Sounds like it's time for a vacation to Las Vegas.

 

I can come too, right?

 

Of course!! We can make a party of it.

 

YES.

That's exactly what it's time for.