The not happy thread

LOL poor thing I drag him through hell everytime

Well as long as he gets me a present and brings Ben and Jerry's ice cream...then maybe i'll try and control my rages just this once

 

*hugs* Ashleigh..it's 5 days to go....sounds like a looooong time....buuuut then you're free for 24 days!

 

Ashleigh...birth control do wonders. If you aren't on 'em...get on 'em. If you are...find another. I barely get anything now whereas before I would be doubled up with back pain and a migraine.

 

^ Lol i've been on 'the pill' since I was 12 years old because my periods were so awful.

I still have to have the five day break though because If you take them for years without having a break, your body can train itself not to have periods anymore which of course puts you in the risk of being unable to have kids.

I was planning on continuing another pack straight after this one so that I could miss out my birthday and my week away with matt, (you can continue them on and off, just not continuously for years) but silly me, I was on the last packet and hadn't put in another prescription yet. So I had no choice but to have the five day break

 

I'm not happy as I'm suffering from withdrawal from alcohol.

 

That can't be fun
Congradualtions on trying though.

I am unhappy because my friend likes me so much and I'm beginning to feel very guilty for not liking him back

 

I haven't written anything in 2 months.

 

I have to go to church tonight to sing and I would really rather not

 

I am not happy because this morning I have no control over my emotions and have spent the last half hour crying.

And Ashleigh, I feel really sorry for you. I had mine for 3 months straight almost, I'd only get a day or two break every 2-4 weeks and I'd get them again. It was sheer hell! I'm kind of glad I get 9 months (probably only seven for me cause I can't carry full term and go 2 months premature) break from that time fo the month. Though the morning sickness and abdominal discomfort I cop every day is no different to how I felt for the previous 3 months before becoming pregnant... (and my problem was caused by taking birth control...)

 

I spent all day in an office filled with flowers. I now have an awful headache and want to scratch my eyes out. Why did God give me allergies?

 

I am not happy because my dad thought I needed to hear him yell at me for twenty minutes on the phone earlier. That was rather upsetting.

 

I'm sad because Lexi leaves tomorrow, and I wont get to see her again until mid-June. I wish I had more friends who actually lived near me, but it seems that the ones I pick all move away.

I'm also stressed because I dont think my grades are good enough to get into the schools I want to get into. ARGH. *pulling hair out*

 

You and me both kiddo

 

I have a crap phone. There. I said it. Stupid thing won't charge.

 

**** life.

What's the point in trying to care for people who just take their emotions out on you and make you feel like the help and support you're trying to give them is nonsense and that you're a ****ing idiot for even trying

**** everyone, i'm so sick of being stepped on, I do nothing to other people to hurt them, I always try to be a good person, but somehow, I'm still punished for things I don't do.

I don't even know who the **** my friends are anymore.

**** this all.

 

oh and i hope the people who hate me feel a deep sense of satisfaction when they find out how incredibly awful I feel.

another thing I love about people, is that they're so easily satisfied knowing that another person is in pain.

how incredibly ****ed up.

 

Well that was interesting. Cheer up Eoz!

I don't believe how paranoid my dad is about my internet usage. This is the first chance I've had to come onto the site in days because he's gone out. GRRRRR.

 

People suck. Yeahhh. =[ Sorry you're having a bad day/week/month/life.

 

Eoz, there are good people out there, people who can be trusted and who care. There are also people who aren't worth scraping off your shoe. It sounds like you've encountered the latter, but they aren't the whole story.

I wish there were a testing kit you could pick up in the local pharmacy or Radio Shack to tell the difference.

Failing that, at least trust in yourself.

 

Eoz; there ARE still good people in the world.
Don't lose hope.

I'm still trying to get off the drink, but it's going well so far.

 

I've been through this myself before, quite recently actually.

I was friends with a horrible girl that was a total social idiot and I spent all my efforts trying to make her feel good about herself and convince her that there was nothing wrong with her.

She was invited to parties despite nobody liking her stuck-up, selfish attitude and the fact that she was so overly sensative - and I would be the only one that stuck with her all night just incase she got upset for any reason.

When I got sick and tired of her treating me crap - I distanced myself. What did i get for that? **** from the school because she claimed to be depressed and I apparently caused it - she said I bullied her. All of this was clearly to make me hurt just because she was too full of herself to change in order to make other friends.

I was totally backstabbed by her, and it made me feel the exact same way you're feeling now.

But, when you feel better things will look up - it's times like this that you realise who your real friends are, and hey - in the end, it makes it easier to shake off those people that hurt you.

Cheer up chick. Oh, and sorry to tell my opra-story, but i was just trying to illustrate that i've been betrayed by friends that I helped before too.

 

I just want to hug you and Zoe today!

 

Those of us who tend to actually have a heart are always the ones who get hurt in the long run. My innocent nature has taken me for a turn time and time again, and it hurts, yeah (and is also the reason I have very few friends in my kindness-less and morally desolate little town), but you grow.

Like Ashleigh said, abandon those who bring you down and surround yourself with those who will lift you higher and encourage you to be the best you can. After this instance, hopefully you'll develop an internal radar (much like I have) that sends out a red flag anytime you get too close to those who only want to use you as a stepping stone.

I'm sorry that had to happen to you; it's an incredibly painful and lonely time in life, but it's something that happens to a lot of us (those who havent experienced such betrayal, consider yourselves so lucky), and I think, as time passes and the pain ebbs, you emerge stronger, wiser, and ultimately better.

In the meantime, I always take a particularly painful time and write out my hatred so it doesnt begin to turn inward...
Best of luck, dear.

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To be more self-centered, I am upset because I'm writing an article with a few co-workers... I'm really passionate about the subject and had specific goals for this piece. --And then they came in and f--ked it all up.
I'm the one who did all of the research.
I'm the one who got us two of the three priceless interviews.
I'm the one who came up with the idea that this should be written about at all.
Now my objectives have no chance of surfacing in this article, and it's too late to do this on my own now.
Dammit.

 

I have had that happen in school. We had team projects as well as individual projects in every class, and on one occasions I had teammates who just didn't give a damn. All I could do was contribute what I could.

I was a bit more fortunate in that instance. I had had that teacher before. He knew my work, and had my individual assignments as well, so he was able to give me full credit on the project.

None of which probably helps you feel any better in your situation though. I do understand your frustration.

 

Oh dear Lord, Ashleigh I feel your pain. Theres this girl who is in my college course. At the beginning of term, I tried making friends with her (and everyone else, naturally) and she seemed okay...a little condescending, but who doesnt have their bad days, eh?

Except her bad day was EVERYDAY. Im usually very friendly when Im not in a confrontation, and I treated her with the upmost respect. But this girl (who is a complete social idiot) garnered my sympathy, because with such a sensitive personality, I could tell she probably had it rough. I was on good terms with everyone, and everyone else HATED her. So I took pity on the outcast.

Boy did I waste my sympathies. Despite my constant friendliness, she completely abused my kindness. I suggested her to go to a social event in this bar I knew, and then she BEGGED me to take her. I pitied her and did so...when we got to the bar, she started acting like a twat, told me she had to go and socialise with 'better people', when in reality, it was me that didnt want to go with her.

Even after this happened she kept ringing me and started draining the hell out of my energy. I stopped talking to her because she clearly has no gratitude or understanding of human kindness.

Thankfully, her and her clinginess is away in japan now. Im FREE!!!