The not happy thread

Neha, you are like me. We are too kind for our own good sometimes. We only act out of respect and have the best intentions at heart and make the mistake that others must have the best of intentions for all as well.
Dont you ever change yourself, Neha. If you're not mild, then dont pretend to be --it will only bring you to where you are right now; upset because you couldnt be different. If you be yourself, you will draw people who like that person. I hope.
I'm so sorry to hear about the lies you've been fed as well. That's way out of line. I had an aunt like that; she would spin so many lies and turn people agaisnt each other... I dont know what to tell you, but know that the liars will be caught in their own web soon enough... Karma, seems to be the only thing we can hope for in situations like that.

 

Mercurial--huggles- I get by having faith on The Man Up There too. If he's mapped out life, I'm pretty sure I'll get justice sometime.

But when it gets too much, I just have to rant.

 

I'm tired and have a "No sleep" headache. I couldn't sleep last night because of the plague, and so I went downstairs to try to sleep there, which didn't work, and I ended up watching a movie at midnight that was saved on dvr, expecting it to rock me to sleep. Instead, I ended up crying at the end and still not being able to sleep.

 

I'm currently trying to get out of depression. I've been slowly progressing out of depression since early Friday morning. This is because on Friday morning, my cat (whom I've had since 1996) had to be put to sleep because of kidney failure. I was devastated when I found out that the only option was death, and I cried and cried and cried for a long while afterwards.

I've been trying to distract myself from thinking too much about that fateful day. Whenever I think about it too much, I get really sad. I know the pain will pass away (for the most part) with time, but at the moment, it's damn hard to cope, especially when the one who died was practically your best friend when everyone else ignored you or was against you. I probably took my cat's death the hardest out of everyone I know.

So yeah. That's pretty much what I've been going through for the past two days now.

 

*hugs* I know your cat's at peace, and I hope you get better soon.

 

Try not to think about it

Depression feeds off attention, at least in my experience, I know it's really hard to shake away from, and it's hard to keep busy when you feel lifeless.. but try anyway.. try until you make it.

 

I"m not happy because I have a stomach bug and can't seem to manage to eat anything at all. If it keeps up I'm going to have to go to the doctors and get checked out and if heeven suggests hospital... I'll scream!

 

Yes, but if you scream, they still will put you in the hospital, but with the crankiest nurses.

 

Bit annoyed because im only half way home. The boss rang us lunch time today, telling us to put stop overnight in Brisbane, rather than carry on.... Not overely fussed, but you know...miles away from everything that matters.

 

I'm so hungover. and tired. and my heart hurts. && i'm at work. bad times!!!

 

Stressssed

 

Mum pretty much hates me because I told her I couldn't afford to buy her a Mother's Day present because I have to pay a university late-enrolment fee as well as my health insurance. I snapped at her for asking, because she knew I had bills and work had been giving me no shifts.. I apologised and said I was tired and stressed but she didn't care. Now she hates me, and doesn't want to talk to me, which is bad timing because I have an interview with the executive dean of Psychology at university tomorrow and I wanted her to come.

Oh well I guess I just fail at life. Nothing new there.

 

that's not done, I don't mean to sound offensive, pardon me if I am, but you're Mom should understand! make her a card at home and write her a poem and I'm sure she'll . And you're a real kool person, and I'm sure life's got better things for you. Keep hanging on. All the best with the interview

 

I didn't sleep well last night because I was nursing my Hunny through the worst allergy attack he has ever had. He ate sunflower seeds. Innocent enough right? Wrong. His throat began to itch and he couldn't swallow. His tongue, lips, and face swelled a bit. He had hives that started on his head and hands and eventually grew to meet in the middle. He was freaking out with a panic attack about it. Having been through this myself myself, I had an idea what to do. I gave him a ton of Benadryl and monitored his breathing. If he began having any trouble breathing I was going to take him to the hospital. After 4 hours and two doses of antihistamine, the redness and all began to recede. Still, I got up several times in the night to check on him and make sure it wasn't coming back and his breathing was still good. So, I am starting Monday kinda tired.

 

That was my day yesterday. I ran around all over at work, just praying the entire time that I wouldn't throw up on anything.

I guess it was self-inflicted, though, so can't complain too much...

I agree with Neha...make her a nice card and write her something beautiful, and I'm sure she'll forgive you. It makes me sad that your mom would get mad at you because you couldn't afford to buy her a present.

Ohhhh man, I feel so bad for both of you! I'm allergic to a lot of different stuff, so I'm no stranger to eating something and suddenly finding that my throat has closed up and I can't breathe. Not a fun thing to deal with all night!

 

Urgh. I threw up in the taxi on the way to work. I didn't start work til 2pm & still didnt trust myself to drive. Then had to apologise to the taxi driver for being so blatently minging.
xxxxx

 

Sounds kind of like how I feel right now. x.x
I'm not happy because my prom was a bust overall. My date became an overbearing jerk demanding dances for the first hour and a half, and I had to tell him I didn't want to dance and was just uncomfortable with him on the dance floor because I didn't want to ruin our friendship. He wants more, so much more, and I'm just not looking for a relationship right now. When the time comes it shall come, but until then, I'm not hunting anyone down.
The sad part was that the highlight of my prom was when I was dancing with my friend's boyfriend, who is just so amazing of a person and a kick butt dancer on so many levels. His hands and movements were enough to have me sitting at my table later, dazed. And I can't ever have him because he's taken.
My weekend topped off with a stomach ache that's still around, making me feel like I might throw up, and I learned my ex went to the movies with my former friend ashley and they made out. now I'm waiting to see which one gets pregnant.

 

Aw Lilix that sucks, theres always such a big build up to prom and if its not as good as you expected, its such an anti-climax.
On a good note - at least you have the decency to know when a guys off limits, when this 'ashley' clearly doesnt. Hate it when people don't adhere to the unwritten rules of love.
xxxx

 

Yeah, it really sucks when you get all ready for it and then... nothing.
But Ashley is just ruining everything, even the chance for just a friendship with my ex. She's moved from one guy to another over months, from her ex Erich, who I know b/c he's my friend, to about five other guys. It's gross. She has no respect for anything.

 

Yikes! Doesn't sound too terribly fun. I worked at 8 am, and my fiance had to drive me to work because I was in kind of the same boat. He was really nice about it, though...bought me like 2 liters of water so I could hydrate and then got me a bunch of random food because he wasn't sure what would help my stomach feel better.

And Lilix, I'm sorry your prom was a bust. It stinks that you looked forward to it for so long and then you didn't even really get to enjoy it. As for Ashley, what goes around comes around, right? I'm sure eventually things will catch up with her and she'll realize that maybe she shouldn't have made some of the decisions she has.

 

Less than a week until my life explodes. Finals for my college-level classes begin this week, finals for senior-level courses begin in two, and finals for my standard junior-level classes begin in three.
The week after that, I take my SAT and ACT again.
Three weeks from then, I start summer school for three to four weeks (depending on how fast I work).
One to two weeks after that, I start regular school again, filled with teacher and counselor recommendations, college applications, college interviews, and more courses that I really dont feel prepared for.

Do they ever stop testing you!?

Why am I here?! I need to be studying for the rest of my life...

 

Are you feeling a bit testy?

 

Cog...don't take this the wrong way...but your bad puns remind me of my dad.

 

You're lucky to have such a woinderful family, then.

 

I am,, but this is the unhappy thread so I can't brag about it. See my most recent post in the Happy Thread to see what I said about Dad today.