The not happy thread

*huggles*

life has it's bad moments...I was going through a very bad time last year, not dissimilar to you, though neither half as bad, and many times I wanted to give up. However I saw it through and today as I look back, I realise it's made me a better person.

You 're a beautiful, strong and wonderful person inside-out. Hang on in there, every cloud has it's silver lining.

Feel free to PM me, or drop in for a chat in hotmail.


*huggles again*

 

To bring this thread back to petty complaints...it has been beyond f-ing hot (meaning it is too hot to even want to f....which is saying something for me). Even with air-conditioning...it is so warm that it is affecting my sleep. Lots of dreams. Lots of tossing and turning. Lots of waking up to find a cool piece of sheet. I wish I could afford to really blast the air. Ah well. Like I said, a petty complaint.

 

Oooh...I hate to post after myself, but some guys from the city came turned off our water for like a half hour...turned it back on...and now we have Niagra falls coming out of one of the unrinals in the men's bathroom. I have cute shoes on...I am NOT wading through toilet water to try to stop it. Hurry up Jack...get here and fix it. Just seeing all that toilet water makes me want to take a shower. Ugh.

 

You must be on COBRA. The government is picking up 65% of the cost of COBRA from March to December of this year. The benefit is conditioned on the triggering event for COBRA taking place between September 08 and current. Also, the COBRA coverage MUST come from "involuntary" termination of employment (as opposed to quitting your job or any of the other COBRA triggering events). It is a stop-gap program which will end in December since there is no provision for extension.

 

My sysmpathies. I woke up aty 4:30 this morning, to find there was no electricity and apparently hadn't been for a long tym....thanks to that the mosquito killer didn't work and i had mosquito bites all over and was itching real bad. To top that, the inverter was apparently was not charged and fluctuating, so the fan was also working in splits and jolts, nor was the A/C. I was so darned sleepy, but couldn't thanks to the heat. I finall y dozed around 6 after I'd covered myself all over and counted a thousand sheep..!

 

Thank you, everyone. Things arent going to change anytime soon of course, but now that I've had time to sleep (I was really exhausted yesterday, which resulted in the Great Boom), I'm at least feeling a little more optimistic. I apologize for letting such personal things out in the open --probably more upset with myself for writing it than any of you reading it-- but that's exactly it, with things so personal, it helps to say it to a stranger sometimes, or at least someone you dont have to face tomorrow morning.

And Carmina, yuck! And I thought it was sticky here in the midwest (it's actually a nice chilly 85 degrees today)! I can only imagine how hot it is in Cali. Have you at least been getting as much rain as we have?
As for your urinal problem? >=O Gross.

 

We don't get rain in summer. When it is hot...it is just hot. UTI has hit the road. YAY!!! Now only miserable from heat and poverty. Oh and Merc, don't feel bad about writing that stuff. It does help to vent to impartial people. None of us minded. That is what the thread is here for.

 

My midol is in mom's car. and I need it.

 

Ugh. I got stuck behind a learner driver, doing 30 (barely) on a national speed limit road. For about 15 minutes.

Absolutely ruined the drive home, because I usually love flying down the dark empty roads at night.

 

My boss is being nit-picky about this directory roster I am working on. Originally, it was formatted with the full name in a cell (this was formatted per the request of a printer who wanted it organized a certain way). Now I am reworking the same roster for our uses. However, boss wants me to capitalize the last name of every family. As the last name shares a cell with all the first names, I have to do it manually. Did I mention we have over 400 members? So...tedious...

 

I lost my job today.

 

That sucks, Mephisto. I hope you find another one quickly.

 

For no reason I think, I'm beginning to doubt that I have the capacity to be happy. I can be content but I don't remember being actually happy, perhaps when I was 6- years old. Nevermind. I am happy.

 

I'm sick. My ear infection is not healing even though I take a really strong antibiotic twice a day and have to put 5 very painful drops in my ear twice a day, too. And I'm getting headaches every day, but thankfully I'm able to stave off the migraines with the medicine my doctor gave me; I just wish I didnt have to take about seven pills every day.
And I think something's wrong in my body... My chest feels raw and parts of my body feel like they're going to fall off. I'm getting really fantastic waves of vertigo every time I stand up, and when I do stand, it really kind of hurts.

To MayoClinic.

 

Get better. Migraines huh. I don't think I ever had one. And on top of the other stuff.... you're seeing a doctor right? Luckily for me I just have mid - almost very painful headaches pretty much every day. Think it's the glasses(needing new ones). Should get them changed. Or maybe it's lack of sleep lol.

 

For your headaches, it could very much be both. Migraines run in my family, but any kind of headache can be triggered by a lack of sleep, poor eyesight, even some activities and foods. And then there are some people who have headaches, usually migraines in my experience, that are triggered by a certain kind of animation. The new movies like Coraline and Up, I cant see because the way it's designed actually really hurts my head. Maybe some people are just born broken.
My mom cant have anything over a certain amount of sugar per serving because it triggers her migraines.
I'm not seeing a doctor for my migraines yet (not a specialized one, I mean; I'm seening my general practitioner), but I'm in line. Until I get in, I'm supposed to keep a food and sleep diaries, as well as when they occur, etc. *sigh*

I havent seen a doctor for my vertigo and body aches yet because that came on very suddenly, within the past week. I dont know what to think about it; I'm wondering if it's a side effect to any of the drugs I'm on. I've been on amoxicillin before, but not the migraine medication, but I dont understand how it could make my body ache like this... Boo.

I hope you start perking up, too. There's nothing like that blanket smothering your emotions. Happiness is hard to come by these days for me too; reminds me exactly of the quote in my signature. I think maybe perhaps the true sense of happiness is sometimes misunderstood; it doesnt have to be over-the-top and out-the-window crazy, but smiling just because you feel like it is something everyone deserves to do.

 

Can't sleep now so I decided to go job hunting.

 

Good luck with the job search!

 

Someone just played a very cruel joke on me. Wow, this is not a good day at all.

 

A f!cking mahoosive BUMBLE BEE landed on my forehead today!

I have NO idea how it got there, I was in a frickin' car nearing the motorway. My window was wide open because of the heat wave we're having, and he must've been flying towards the car, and got caught in some sort of slip-stream, haha.

I didn't even NOTICE that he was there until i caught a glimpse of myself. I'd pulled the mirror down to block the sun, and saw this HUGE black and yellow big fuzzy BEE sitting above my nose!! I hadn't even FELT it!

I screamed and kicked about so much that my dad nearly crashed the car LOL.

*shudders* eeuuggh how horrible!

 

I hate insects on me! I went biking and I just got covered in insects!
They crawled in my eye, my mouth, my t-shirt, on my legs... Eeew....

 

My anxiety is elevated. I rushed to get back to work on time...only to get back 5 minutes late to find my office full of people. Then I got an e-mail from a friend inviting me to the Thistledew Theatre tonight. They need some people to read monologues for a writing workshop they are having. I did a show there once, so I am familiar with the place and the people, but I have never driven there. I have a lot of anxiety about driving...especially freeways. I always carpooled before. I am sure that going out there tonight will be good networking and good to push myself, but the anxiety has krept in. All my Lorazepam is at home too.

 

I am mad becauses boys are mental. Can't make up there minds. Confusing. They want you to prove yourself to them and then when you go to do it, they say never mind, and then get mad at you, and blame you. I say mental.

 

I understand you completely, Lightning! Boys are weird.

 

My hubby is sad, and frustrated, and hurt. That makes me feel bad for him and a little impotent, which is an awful feeling.