The Not Happy Thread

No idea. The first year and a half was great, and we finished the manuscript to one book. But we also have the story planned for two books more and a vague idea of a third, so it would have been pretty stupid to run off before we "finished". Why not wait and get as much as possible?

But I'm over all of this and have moved on to my own story. (read Happiness Thread to see what I mean.) We had a great thing going for a long time. It's a shamse she had to ruin it, but I refuse to let that ruin the good memories.

 

Stuff happens in life. No big, have fun and move on and take this as a lesson learned to not trust other people too much when they can screw you over.

Sucks that it happened, though.

 

Yeah, I have a difficult time trusting people because of stuff like this. But I prefer solitude anyway most of the time, so that's no biggie.

 

Really hoping that I can get through work tonight without having to leave early like I did yesterday.

 

Woo, glad it went well.

As for me, I thought I was having a good day (or what I consider a good day at the moment) but it's just turned into a bad one. It's funny how it can just turn like that purely because I can't switch off.

 

Why did you have to leave early? Were you feeling bad?

 

I'm not really happy right now. I'm tired and nervous. I have so much schoolwork to do... I am doing very well in my Spanish class, but my bio class has the second test coming up on Thursday, and I am very nervous. I did poorly on the first exam because I had no idea what to expect. I guess I can make it up (tests are worth 20% of the final grade), and I think he would give me the benefit of the doubt if I do well consistently from here on out and boost my grade, but I'm worried if I can do well. I feel so stupid sometimes.

I am so overwhelmed with school. When classes are over, I get a two week break (in which I will be attending two festivals, driving to Kentucky and to West Virginia over two different trips which are unrelated to the festivals, and moving out of my apartment), so while those are all good things, I feel like it's not even time to decompress. And then I get to turn around and do another whole fall semester. I am going to burn out. I want to give up all the time; it is so hard sometimes.

My phone stopped working. Verizon is nice enough that they're mailing me a new one with priority 2-day shipping, but I lost all of my photos, music, videos, and documents in the process. I cant believe how reliant I am on my phone.

And to top it all off, I think I've lost a really, really wonderful friend. I wish I hadn't been so stupid. I need to talk to her soon, and I know it's going to go badly. She has been more than a friend to me --she's been a guide, a mentor, a mother, a teacher, a sister. I know it is not all my fault and that even if it was, these things do happen, but it still really hurts. We were close.

And my stomach will not stop hurting. It feels like I swallowed a serrated knife, and it is cutting at my insides as it goes along my digestive tract. Great!

 

Woke up completely wrong this morning, and now I have an annoying crick in my neck. Plus, I only got 5 hours of sleep (7-12) and I need three more =/. Also, it's freakishly hot again.

I know what I need. I need a massage therapist in a cool and relaxing room, I could definitely catch up on some sleep then. =]

 

I'm sure you'll do fine, Merc! Science tests are always scary lol...but you will do GREAT. I know it! I'm not sure how you plan to study, but my recommendation is that instead of studying by reading through the book, focus on end-of-chapter practice questions, working through study guides, etc. Can you meet up with a friend from the class and quiz each other? That helps a lot. Bottom line is, studying by doing helps you learn it and remember the best.

Your break will be awesome. You'll be doing stuff you love and having fun with your friends. Trust me, it won't burn you out, because you don't have to deal with stuff like work or school. And you also don't have to worry about being bored after the first three days of relaxation. Your electro music fest will be SO AMAZING and I'm jealous that you get to go!!

I don't know the circumstances, but if you've done something to piss her off, the best thing to do is apologize (preferably in person or with a phone call, but by text/facebook is second best if she won't let you talk to her). Then give her plenty of space. She won't want to be bombarded with 10000s of sorry texts. Give her a sincere apology immediately, then try contacting her 3-4 days later (giving her space in between) to ask if she wants to go get some frozen yogurt [or whatever], your treat, and talk things over. Since she's been so much to you, I'm sure she has a big heart and will welcome and forgive you with open arms.

Conflicts like this rarely last without coming to a positive resolution. I'm sure everything will be fine.

 

When it rains with you, it really does pour, doesn't it? Hopefully your break from school will be more relaxing than you anticipate, even if you do have a lot going on. And no matter what happens, just focus on doing your best and try not to stress out too much.

Are there any massage therapy schools near you? A lot of the time they offer cheap massage deals so the students can get practice, you should check it out!

 

This one is going to be a bit of a doozy, so excuse the massive depression.

I feel like I'm being completely and utterly neglected in an emotional and personal sense from my closest and pretty much only friends I meet with in person. One of my friends whom I've known since 8th grade had gotten herself so wrapped up in her boyfriend and all her college drinking-partying buddies that I've been left sort of as a last-resort type of gal. She'll come to me only when she needs to vent about her boyfriend and their problems, but will never let me get a word in about my life edgewise. This is. Beyond. Frustrating.

The second blow is in the form of a friend of mine whom I've known since childhood (talking less than four here, hah). While she moved to NC and we have stayed in touch, she's not as proactive with me as she was initially. I worry I may have upset her somehow, but, I don't know how.

The third would be my friend who is taking an extended vacation to Italy, but that's not her fault in the least. Her drug usage and how it's turning into her whole life, which means she won't hang out with me because I'm very anti-druggie, is basically why she'll hang out with all her locals and their addictions but not spend the night with me having some normal, less dangerous fun.

But that all just makes me sound like a whining brat.

My second piece of bad news came in the form of an email. A friend of mine has backed out of offering to create my book cover. That one was a personal painful blow. I'd rather not voice my words on that.

From there? Tim is being completely kicked out of his house, and he's moving up here to find a job and ultimately, a home. But the stress of wondering where he'll stay is killing me. Heck, the stress of him finding a job period is killing me.

But my biggest, and most personal upset comes from the home front. When your father tells you that, 'it would all be okay if you no longer wanted to see Tim and go to college instead and we'll support you' instead of something like, 'I love you, we all love you, and I'm going to support you in your writing and your love with Tim', it kills. It burns like a hot knife through my skin and into my chest, searing and charring the flesh with permanent emotional scars. It hurts when the one thing you want in life is for your own parents to support you and mean it, but instead you are told how much of a disappointment you are to not have gone to college, to have gotten a real job, to have found someone more stable relationship-wise.

That. Always hurts the most.

 

In about fourty minutes I'll be half way to thirty. :/ Lol.

 

Psh, I'm older than you, don't complain.

 

No, there aren't any schools like that near me as far as I know. I wish there was though! There are spas I believe... but I don't have enough moo-lah for that. I'm still sitting here with this massive crick in my neck and I guess I'll have to wait it out until morning or something. lol.

 

@ Gigi, It makes me feel so old though knowing I'm now officially half way to thirty Lol, Before long me and my friend Nicole Who will be thirty in march WIll be sitting in the retirement home In wheelchairs

 

That's way different than how I thought of it. You may feel old now, but trust me, you're gonna want this back.

 

I'm sorry about your parents, but, maybe one day They'll understand that you're doing whats best for you and support you through it all. By the way, If you ever need to vent feel free to hit me up with a pm. I don't mind one bit.

 

Yeah, When I'm like thirty I'll want it back

 

A year makes a big difference. I wish I was 15 sometimes.

Of course, we're both young.

 

Mmhm, true that, but still..Hard to believe how time flies by so quickly. I feel as if I shouldnt be this old yet.

 

Alright. I'll say it. I hate the modern world.

I'm sick of not being able to use a camera or a phone because I've misplaced the Charger. Currently I have 7 charger leads in my room, all different shapes and sizes, and none of them are what I need. I don't know what most of them are for. Also, despite the they are glorified lengths of wire they cost so much! And there are so many different versions of them!

 

Lemex, my foxy friend, the modern world does not abandon it's peope! You need a universal charger. Best Buy, Future Shop, Wallmart... You should check it out!

 

I'm British. I don't have a Wallmart or a universal charger.

 

Lemex, I think Asda is owned by Wallmart, but I don't know if that helps.


Jayyy, Oh to be fifteen again, the year I left school, got my first job. Don't worry about getting older - enjoy the here and now, no matter what age you are.


Love both your avatars.

 

So she's put my interview off AGAIN and asked me to ring back monday. What the hell?! Are they actually looking to employ someone or are they stringing me along for the fun of it?