The Not Happy Thread

That's strange. I'm not sure why they'd keep doing that, unless they've double booked or something. Did they give you any reasons as to why it was rescheduled? It doesn't seem that they're that bothered about employing you but there might be a reasonable explanation. Hopefully you get the interview eventually and that it's worth it. It's not fun being messed around for nothing.

 

Lilix Morgan, you can also hit me up with a PM if you'd like. I've had plenty of experience with friends who take advantage and treat you like shit (or at least like the whole frienship is on their terms and they can string you along however they want). Maybe it's time to branch out a bit. Keep the door open for your old friends, but make bonds with new ones. And as for the parents, be successful. When they see you can make it with or without their support, they'll come around and be proud of you. It's your life, not theirs.

 

I'm not sure if it's just an attack of anxiety or whatever, but I'm feeling really down about my writing style all of a sudden. And that's normally the thing I'm most confident about.

It just all reads stilted and amateur, and I kind of just feel like throwing the towel in on the whole project.

Ugh. Mood swings. I should probably go to bed.

 

BED! NOW!

Then write later.

Speaking of which, I've had a setback with my story. No worries. I shall persevere! I have French ancestry, so it's in my blood.

 

Thanks Link I'm feeling better now. I was actually editing today, and I got drawn into the story against my will, so that has to be a good thing!

But I do have a major gripe again. So close to my last one, I feel like a miserable wee pessimist for posting it, but I need to get this off my chest.

I live with my boyfriend, and one other guy (who was a friend of my boyfriends at high school). This guy is an ASS.

My boyfriend and I were nothing but nice to him before we moved in here, and for the first few months of living with him. Now, we're merely cordial.

We were the only friends he had he's really antisocial. My boyfriend was his ONLY friend at high school, too.

Anyway, he's gotten worse.

He used to constantly insult my boyfriend, which got me really mad because my boyfriend is actually one of the sweetest people I've ever met, and this dude treated him like scum.

But it's ok, because now (we can't discern why) he avoids us at all costs. It's gotten to the point where he will only use kitchen appliances when we are not home. This is insane, right? Also, we're up in the lounge 'til quite late most nights, and all night long we hear him open his door, listen to whether we're still up or not, and close it again.

Then, when we are in bed, we hear him sneak out of his room to do God knows what. Probably use the kettle or something.

He wants to be the tax man when he's older. Who wants to be a taxman?

But I'm really hurt by his behaviour tonight. My boyfriend is out, so he probably thought it was safe to surface. He came into the lounge to get a drink of water, totally ignoring me. When I asked him how his day was, he said "Mmm", stuck up his nose at me, and then muttered darkly down the hallway to his bedroom. I only heard a bit of what he said, but he was basically insinuating that I'm stupid and will never get anywhere in life.

It really hurt my feelings I was just being pleasant and conversational. All I said to the guy was "How was your day?"!

I'm fed up with his attitude. You can't try and be nice to this guy, he makes it impossible. Screw him.

 

Pff, don't even listen to what someone like that says. It has no value.


As for me... sometimes I just want to go AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHH and change everything... then I realise that saying AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHH doesn't really help and that I can't change anything, which is probably for the best. Sigh. Life is so complicated sometimes.

 

dizzyspell: That guy is an ungrateful idiot. Try not to let him bother you too much because he's not worth it. Hopefully he changes his attitude, or you don't have to live with him much longer.

Lydia: I know the feeling. It can be good to let things out by going AAAAARGHHH though.

 

There is a big bumpy rash on my the upper-right side of my neck. Painful to touch and painful to move around much. There is also a weird rash on my ear only a few centimeters away from the neck mark. It's also painful to touch, but it's not bumpy like the other one.

I don't know what it could be. Maybe I'm just sick, but I wonder if something bit me too. We have lots of spiders in this old house... I saw a big black one as big as my hand a month back. I tried to kill it, but it hid under the refrigerator. I haven't seen it since though. I also saw very small brown spiders, and then what scares me is that my roommate and I have seen a black and yellow spider. Moderately big; about half the size of my little finger. We trapped it and let it outside, but then we found it again. We killed it and flushed it down the drain. I wonder if it happened to be the same one or if there is an infestation.

I also think I have a fever. I have no way to tell since I don't own a thermometer, but my roommate says I am hot to the touch, but I feel very cold to myself. And I have been feeling weak and sleepy, and parts of my muscles are sore.

I am so glad I am moving out in just two weeks. I can get away from these awful bugs. But I wonder what this is.

Yayyy.

 

@dizzy - There's obviously something wrong with this guy. Something bothering him. What about your boyfriend trying to talk to him? If he's his only friend then he wouldn't be much of a friend if there's clearly something going on with him and he doesn't even care enough to find out what it is. To me, a person in a normal frame of mind doesn't hide in his room to the point that he won't use the kitchen when other people are around.

 

Dizzyspell - Who wants to be a tax collector?????????? OMG! But I can see LaGs's point - try and see if something's wrong or he needs a friend to reach out. But some people are just weird.

Reminds me of this roommate my friend shared an apartment with a few years ago. He wasn't paying his share of the rent, and he kept saying it was because his boss didn't pay him ever (also ranted about the boss and work on a regular basis, blaming it for all his problems) Total and utter BS, so my friend called the boss as the landlord. She soudned all concerned like "My tenant hasn't paid his rent in 4 months and said it was because his work isn't paying him, is this true? Surely there are laws against these types of things" and then cited a bunch of specific complaints he'd made about his job. The liar got fired. Great story.

Merc, that sucks about the spiders. But soon you'll get to move out! There was a huge spider in my room last night, but I didn't mind, I just left the light on. As long as it's not a cockroach, I"m happy.

 

Thanks guys! Mal, that story is so funny!

He's tried more than once to talk to him, and so have I. We knew he wasn't sociable when we moved in, but we expected that to mean he'd stay quiet and keep to himself, as opposed to being outright insulting every time he condescended to talk to us.

As far as we can tell, this is (honestly) his natural behaviour. Not that it's normal. I think he needs to see a psychologist, to be honest. He was like this when we first moved in with him, but we could deal with it then.

Then, after the Christchurch earthquake which killed 182 people, he didn't bother txting us and asking us if we were alright (and he knew we were in Christchurch, visiting my family). The worst part was that when we got back, he said that his parents had told him to ask if we were alright, but he couldn't be bothered.

So that was when my boyfriend and I kind of decided he wasn't worth having as a friend. Not that we're rude to him or anything now, but yeah. Can't wait til the lease runs out in October.

 

He is a douche. Plain and simple.

As for my not happy: I think my writing has halted. My writing that I did three days in a row? Yeah, not happening. :[ I don't know what the problem is. Have I lost interest? Got tired of it because I've been writing every day and want a break?

How do you push yourself to write when you don't feel like it??

 

Read other books. Take a walk. Do something calming to let your mind rest a bit. Forcing writing isn't good.

 

I think your a good deal like me. I'm easily distracted when it comes to my writing so it's hard for me to stay focused on making myself write. Hence the part in the bottom of this post that shows my own word count hasn't gone up in several days.

Tonight I will be making myself write. It doesn't matter what you write. Just make yourself start with something small unrelated to what your actually working on. For me I use a different forum where I used to RP. For ten minutes I write out a snippet for the character related to the story line then post it. I then dive into my writing. Usually it works but as I said, I'm in one of my own teeters. I can't crack my whip and make you write, I can't even do that for myself, but at least I know that I have to, need to.

I don't disagree that this approach isn't good for everyone, that MAKING yourself write won't do more harm than good. But I do know me, and what I need more than anything is to make myself sit my butt in my chair and just write... NOTHING.. nothing else.. because if I don't 3 months from now I'll still be right where I am right now.

So Link.. what kind of person are you? The kind who pushes yourself to do it.. or looses interest, gets side tracked and then doesn't finish your stories... YOu told me once which one you thought you were, but I think you should ask yourself again.

 

I got some advice once from a prolific, well-known science fiction writer. He has a lot of novels and short stories to his credit. He said you treat writing like any other job. At a set time of day, and for a set number of hours, you sit down and write. Preferably the same time every day if you can do it. And you write whether you want to or not, whether you feel like doing it or going and doing something else. Just like you wouldn't not go to a regular job just because you don't feel like it, you don't just skip your writing because you don't feel like it.

Just passing it along.

EDIT: I should note the advice was given in the context of someone who wants to be a writer as their full-time job. Someone who wants to be able to quit their day job and live on fiction writing. If that doesn't apply, then the advice doesn't apply either

 

^ I hear ya.... I've been told the same thing over and over again. It's something I'm trying to get better about doing.

 

I'm trying to get better at it too.

 

I have a few things to rant about today:

1) I've stayed up all night again
2) I'm sleeping during the day, which I dislike
3) I missed an RP post I was supposed to have been at (outside site)
4) It's still hot outside and in the house
5) And my stomach hurts for an unknown reason.

 

Wow, I'm sorry you have a roommate like that. I would swear he sounds exactly like someone I knew in high school, but he is a dead now. The guy was antisocial like your roommate, rude, and used people for his own gain.

Oddly, his own temper killed him. He would get angry if the slightest thing didn't go his way. We kept trying to tell him to chill out and learn some self control. One day he got so mad he burst a blood vessel in his brain.

Poor diet, high blood pressure, and a bad temper make for an equation with a bad solution.

 

Dayum, man.....

My acid reflux has been so bad for the past couple of days that sometimes I can't even move without feeling like I'm going to throw up. Makes practice a lot of fun...

 

@ Hidden- Oh god, right? I take Nexium and sometimes that doesn't even work. I hate that...

 

Yeah, I've been switched from Prilosec to Nexium to Aciphex to a combination of like six different pills at different times of the day...nothing works. It's driving me crazy.

 

What...the...fuck?

Trish was banned? For what??

Can somebody please tell me

 

Wow.

 

Firstly, Trish isn't intentionally banned. I'm not yet sure how or why, but i'm looking into it. I had something like this happen recently, and I suspect it's to do with a forum glitch related to a particular browser.

Even if she was banned, that wouldn't be an issue for general forum, but rather an issue for moderators and the person in question. Please, if you see any member banned who you think is unintentionally banned, rather than starting a discussion about it, please notify either myself, Cogito or Daniel immediately.