The Not Happy Thread

OK, point taken. And I'm glad she's not banned.

 

*Gives Lags a hug just for the sake of doing it* Meh *shrugs*

 

My last hour and a half have been spent editing what came out as half a page of story. Ick. It better be positively dripping with suspense when I'm done with it!

 

I have like a MILLION handwritten pages to type into my computer! I am so dreading it! Thing is, it's been really cold inside (live in a basement apartment) and nice and warm outside, but there's no shade so I couldn't bring my laptop with me, so I wrote by hand, which I think is cozy anyway. I might be nice and tan, but I have TWO full note books now, and I just know it's only gonna be like five pages when typed up... that bit also discourages me. Any software that magically turns hand written stuff into Times New Roman?

 

Doing it without software is good for the imagination. My best ideas always happen when I'm rewriting hand written stories by typing them up

Besides, you'll need to rewrite anyway. This way forces you to do it

 

OMG, I saw that post about Trish being banned as soon as I clicked on the thread (before Banzai's clear-upper) and I was like "NoooOOOOOooOOOOOo!" lol! But I'm glad it was just a glitch. Trish is a really awesome member!!

I'm finally in bed and going to go to sleep (it's 7 a.m.)

 

I missed the 'not' happy bit............now I really am unhappy.

And able to post here. A lucky, yet unhappy coincidence.

 

LOL .... I hope you sleep better than I did

 

One of my fellow skater's four-year-old son fell off their trampoline and broke his arm. Poor kid is going in for surgery to get a plate and screws put in.

 

Ouch That's terrible! Poor little guy...

 

So, it's official. I'm not going to have a life for six months and I have no idea if I'll be able to write or even have time to read anymore. It makes me sad!

My first state exam is in August and I have to pass on my first try, but it's literally going to take everything inside of me to do it.

I guess I'm just sort of bummed because so many people fail on their first attempts and it's discouraging. I had my first Becker review class this morning and the girl sitting next to me failed and this is her third attempt to try and pass. The guy behind me failed and this is now his second attempt. My freaking instructor failed two times before she finally passed on her third attempt and she has two masters and a P.H.D.

Sad thing is that the thing that is bumming me out the most is that I have to give up writing for six months but there is really no other option unless I prolong it, but that just a sure-fire way of procrastination and never becoming licensed. I just have/need to put my career first right now.

Who knows, maybe I can become a hermit and still get some time time write and read, in-between studying and just barely keeping my head above water.

In other news, I have a interview for a promotion next week and I just found out that I got approved to teach in 2012 spring semester!!!

 

Good luck Sundae! But I'm sure you'll be fine!

I've got a sore throat. It sucks.

 

You weren't screaming at penguins again were you? o.0 What have I told you about that ???

Hope it gets better soon.

 

Nope. Not screaming at penguins, just the hideous creature that crawled out from under my bed and ate all my belongings.

Kidding. thanks for the well wishes.

 

Oooo... revenge of the dust bunnies.. sneaky buggers!

 

My Mum can't find her passport, and she's meant to be flying to Australia, to visit her sister, on Wednesday.

I really think she needs it, and I can't bear thinking of any of my family hurting anymore. I know that she's not coping with the earthquakes back home, and her and my Dad are separating at the moment. Her sister and her are really close, and I know it would be so good for her to go and spend a week there.

I'm really mad that she can't find the passport. I really want something to go right for someone in my family this year. I am SICK of things going wrong for my them in Christchurch, while I'm stuck up here. It just sucks.

 

Sundae: Good luck. Study hard and try your best, that's all you can do after all. Sometimes writing does have to take a back seat, but you can come back to it so just concentrate on what you need to for now. Congrats on the interview for a promotion and approval to teach.

dizzyspell: That sucks. Hope your mum's passport is found and things turn better for your family.

 

I think I have lost a very dear friend. She was not only a friend but also a mentor and a mother figure who helped me through some of the darkest times of my life during which I could rely on no one else. I have had some of the best times of my life with this girl, and also, some of the worst. She means a great deal to me, and I just feel hurt because I thought our friendship was quite strong.

I'm also very nervous because it is about midterm for the second summer session of courses, and I will be receiving results tomorrow from a test I took last Thursday. I am taking two courses right now --I have a 95.6% in one of them, whereas with this one, I have a high D. I don't understand why this is so difficult for me.

I think this exam either went exceptionally well or exceptionally poorly. My passing grade in the class relies on this exam. (I hate when classes rely completely on exams. I always bomb first exams, without a doubt, especially when there are no practice exams. And I feel like I am always making up for that for the rest of the semester. And that nervousness about needing to do well because I bombed the first exam is not a good headspace to be in for future exams.) And if I didn't do well, then I will need to drop the class. And if I drop the class, then I may need to reconsider my major. And if I need to reconsider my major, then I need to reconsider being in college in the first place, because changing my major would mean adding more time to my college education, which I really cant afford. I cant really afford it right now when I'm trying to make it under three years.

Sometimes I just feel so horribly stupid and inept I want to cry. People have always told me that I'm very bright, and that just makes it worse when I feel this way. Am I bright? And if so, then what is going wrong? Am I not applying myself? Which is worse --stupidity? Or brightness without ambition?

It's funny... I try really hard to be perfect, and I'm just not cutting it. Interestingly I believe this may have led to the situation which led to the falling out between my friend and I, which just brought about more stress and imperfection.

 

Swear to Gawd if the US ladies soccer team does not get it together I'm going to scream! Grrrr....

 

I'm about to call the landlord and tenant board to inquire as to my rights and my best course of action. I can't really share what happened in good conscience, but suffice it to say my landlord is a dangerous individual and I don't feel safe living here. According to my research he's pretty much screwed if I do decide to go to the LTB, but I have to decide if that's the route I want to go. Meanwhile I have about 300 other things I should be thinking about. This sucks. I just moved in here and don't want to think about moving yet.

 

Mercurial: Sorry you've lost your friend. It sucks to lose one, especially when you think you've got a strong friendship with them. And don't try to be perfect because no one is. Just try your hardest and good luck with the exam.

Sidewinder: That sucks you have a rubbish landlord. Hope things get sorted out soon for you.

As for me, I'm not making that much progress dealing with certain things. Also, one of my references so I can volunteer hasn't responded so I contacted one of my uni tutors but I don't know if and when they'll reply. Just sucks that it's a setback and I may not be volunteering as soon as I'd hoped.

 

Woke up Friday morning with a chest cough. And not just any cough, oh no, not for me, but an infection-induced cough. Hurray for antibiotics and sterilizing the house.... (Can't let the kid get this or I'll be miserable even longer).....

Woke up this morning with my kitchen so overrun with sugar ants it looked like my counter tops were moving. *ICK!!* I got a mental image of my cabinets and appliances being toted out my back door by a thick line of ants. (have I said ICK with enough emphasis???) **ICK!!** For once i am looking forward to getting home after work to CLEAN!!

 

Wish my xbox would read my discs again.. I haven't played a Good Game such as halo reach and modern warfare two in about a month or two. :/ But I've always had problems with that xbox, so I've come to the conclusion, I'm going to buy a new one. :/ Whenever that'll be. -Grrrrr- That's my grr face.

 

I'm sorry about the xbox but picturing your avatar making a ggrrrrr face just made me crack up...

 

This is what it'd look like: