The Not Happy Thread

Listen to epic tunes on Youtube and think about your scenes playing out to those tunes. That's what got me to jump my WC just now.

 

This girl who I organize writers' meetups with hasn't been responding to texts or anything in the past month or so. I have no clue where she's been.

 

^ Could be she's lost her phone or something? :c I guess you've tried email and everything as well, huh? Are you worried about her or do you think she's just ignoring you?

About Highschool: I only keep in contact with a couple of people I met there, and one of them is my boyfriend. It makes me feel really sad though because there are people there who were really great and fun. Mind you, I've always felt like an outsider and like I don't really belong with people -sigh-

Speaking of my boyfriend- I am so sick of him right now. He's a really nice guy, and I know he loves me but he's so f*cking stupid. So many stupid little things; he always seems to view me as an afterthought- like he was supposed to meet me today, and was two hours late so I had to phone him. Turns out he didn't f*cking phone me because he was at his Grandpa's and thought it was rude to phone from there. He had arranged to meet me at a certain time, how is it so hard to make a 2 minute phonecall to say he can't make it??? Apparently it's also "rude" to ask what time it is when visiting someone.

>_> He's always doing stuff like that, I really can't be bothered with him sometimes and think I'd be better off alone- but I do love him and if truth be told, I haven't got anybody else... </rant>

 

Ice Queen: I've recently been in a similar situation and trust me, don't just stay with him because you haven't got anyone else. It may seem like it'll be better than without him (For me, I have no proof this is true yet) but you've got to remember that you deserve to be treated better. Talk to him about it, tell him your concerns. It really isn't hard to excuse himself and make a quick phone call, he could even have lied and just said he was going to the bathroom or sent you a text, so maybe that's saying something if he's always doing stuff like that. Hope things get sorted.

 

It makes me feel alot better to know that I wasn't the only person who felt like a total outcast at school...And nice to know I'm not the only person who doesn't still go out partying with their classmates, just 'cause it's the social norm. I feel less of a weirdo now.

 

^You can say that again, brother. I'm just wondering right now if it's worth it or not. If I'm just wasting my time, chasing after something that's like the wind...

 

I often wondered that myself, especially when the story doesn't really make sense.

But I can't quit. It's insanity.

But I suppose we're all insane. After all, only we would think this is possible. XD

But if you're just tired of the story, give it a rest. Work on another story. You'll know when you're ready to work on this one.

 

IceQueen, don't ever feel like you have to be with someone just because you "don't have anyone else," especially when the guy blows you off. Being single is just fine. I've been both in relationships and single, and relationships and singledom are equally happy only when the guy is nice and respects you as an individual. When he treats you like crap in any way shape or form, singlehood is BETTER! Fear of being "alone" shouldn't trap you in a relationship. And you woudn't be alone anyway, because having great friends is just as important and will probably make you just as happy.

As for the fellow writers' meetup organizer, idk where she's been. She's not blowing me off at all; we're good friends and she's direct and it's not like I'm texting her 10 times a day or anything. Idk. Who knows. She might've lost her phone or something.

 

Yep. We're definitely insane. If I was sane I wouldn't write... but I can't stop the words coming from my head, and when I can't put the images into words it's even worse! Pfah. What a sorry bunch, eh?

I complain when I have too many ideas... complain when I don't have enough... whine when I have a lot of writing to edit and whine when I can't write enough to edit. Never happy. Madness! AHHHH!

*runs around ripping hair out*

 

Went to a barbecue to enjoy myself, Didn't expect to come back with a case of food poisoning. Worse feeling ever.

 

I don't like food poisoning. :<

*Le' sighs*

Is it typical for newbie writers like me to feel despondent at around this time with their stories? I mean, I'm 3K into my story, it barely makes a lick of sense, I'm not sure I'm even stretching the mystery out right so that it doesn't take too frickin' long or the readers know instantly who did it within the first two chapters and are foaming when the protagonists are still questioning it five chapters later.

A part of me wonders if I started too high. I mean, I'm enjoying writing about it, but why am I feeling this way?

Aaagh! Writing! Why must you be so enjoyable, yet be such a tormenter!? D=

 

^If it makes you feel any better Link... I Hate my story right now and I'm thinking about shelving it for a while and actually writing something else since well.. I'm not really writing right now anyway.

 

At lease you guys can write, I'm stuck with an laptop that has the lamest typing programs in the world. So I have to wait until I'm at my dads house to type a word.

 

It has internet?

Google docs?

 

I'd so go for it, in regards to getting in touch with your old school friends.

When I went to college I drifted away from my school friends, and didn't see any of them for nearly 2 years. But I didn't make any really close friends at college, and the last few months I've been back in touch with my friends from school and I'm loving going out with them again.

The worst that can happen is that you don't have much in common any more, but it's better to try, right?

 

Link and Corbyn - it's totally normal to have those feelings when you're early on (under 10,000-15,000 words) in the novel. After you hit around 20K, you're very much in sync with the story and the going gets WAY better. Just stick it through. This is from someone who's done NaNoWriMo twice and has written about 20,000 words in less than two weeks.

You guys can do it. Just man/woman up. I have faith in you.

Aaand..my writers' meetup co-organizer got back with me...she'd been sick for a long time and stuck at home because of it [working from home now], nothing serious or chronic, just bad outdoor allergies that she's getting taken care of. So, the writers' meetings will resume!

Ash -- I"d definitely get in touch with your old friends. I stay in touch with mine and I can't imagine where I"d be without them. Also, try using Meetup or a similar UK equivalent site to find other writers, or artists, or some other similar interest, and get involved with that? This way your friends will have similar interests as you. It's worth a try. Good luck!!

 

^Thanks Mal.. I know I should put up and shut up more with regards to my writing.

In a non writing related not happy note...

Spoiler

The other tech I work with who is completely useless these days, came in today and turned in her two weeks notice. I should be happy about that but I'm not. I've worked hard here over the last five years I've been here. I never take my time off/sick leave. I've been looking forward to taking a trip in October and finally getting out of here for some much needed R&R. It's not going to happen. Because the girl quit and my boss has decided that he will not be hiring a replacement. I'm a very sad panda right now. I'm not only loosing my R&R but I have to cancel plane tickets

 

Bleck Corbyn that sucks...its annoying when people act like it's no problem at all to just dump you with everything. Ew.

 

I hate switching from one mood to the next so suddenly. I can be singing and dancing along to music trying to cheer myself up and then the next thing I'm starting to cry. What's wrong with me?

Also, I hate not being able to write. I want to start writing my novel but I can't seem to concentrate and be in the zone to do that. It's so frustrating.

 

I'm exactly the same hun; my moods are all over the place 24/7. It's even worse on that special time of the month, but usually I don't even need that to trigger it. Sometimes I just cannot control myself, whether it's anger or sadness.

Oh, the joys of being a woman. =/ Hope it passes soon. x

As for the writing, I find that watching author interviews really helps me, particularly if they're popular or someone I really admire. It reminds me of my goals and gets me motivated.

 

I checked into one of the forums I'm a member of and some noob called an old member and good friend names.... I hate newbies who think they know everything... I hate it even more when I have to tell them what the laws are and tell them to stfu.

 

As a member of many forums (And staff on a fair few) I know what you mean, what's worse is when members waltz in and start insulting the staff. (In a way that is faaar removed from friendly word jousting)

It's just rude.

 

Seems common sense and common decency have gone right out the window... I'm either getting really old or people in general just suck??? IDK which it is any more.

 

My anxiety has gotten really bad since starting work. I'm living nearly constantly on the verge of a panic attack. My Mum is trying to set me up with a counsellor, but I don't know how that will go.

I swear, everyone in my family is so f*cked up at the moment. Mum and Dad split up, my little brother's depressed, and god knows what I am. Terrified, most of the time.

Have I mentioned before that I hate earthquakes? I know that some things are inevitable regardless, but I know I would be coping better if I hadn't been through the 'quake. I am sick of being scared all the time!

 

Dizzy - that sucks. I know how being anxious is, although mine's been fading. I hope things get better for you and your bro. The counselor will help.

Re the rude newbies, I once had one accuse me of being a plagarizer. Right on an open thread! And she had no proof. Thankfully no one believed her - she kept it going for several posts and just garnered a bad reputation.