The Not Happy Thread

That really, really sucks. :[

As for my not-happy? Well, a forum I used to love going on has been invaded by an obvious troll who thinks he's soooo important that he believes anyone disagreeing with him to be his enemy. Yes, his enemy. The mods try to ban him, but somehow he keeps coming back.

I decided to just log off and leave forever. Shame. I really liked that forum.

 

WHY ARE THERE SO MANY HUGE FUCKING SPIDERS AROUND?!

Christ, my skin is crawling.

 

Damn, how many of them are around you?

 

I had a dream where all these massive wolf spiders surrounded me... it makes me shiver everytime....

 

Too fucking many...

Thanks for sharing...


Seriously, there are millions. It's really making me reconsider my anti-firearms stance. A shotgun would be very useful right now.

 

Well, mayhaps instead of a shotgun, what you really need is a bat? Or a club?

 

Or a Sword for that matter? Slice and dice! But really, i would need shotguns too. Cause Spiders scare the crap out of me and they make me sick.

 

That's terrible. I would be crushed.

What happened to make you lose it?

 

Things fell through with my friends tonight due to some unforeseen circumstances. We're going to hang out tomorrow, but still, it's a shame. I tried to find other people to get with, but I guess I'm a lonely loser for tonight. I am really wanting to get out, have fun, and forget about things for a while, but I guess that isn't going to happen.

I wont even get to say goodbye tomorrow to my guy before he gets deployed. Because, you know, life sucks and all.

Maybe I'll just take a sleeping pill and call quits to this failure of a day. Speaking of which, I need to call my doctor and get a refill set up. I've been probably abusing them in that manner too much lately, and so when I really need them I'll risk running out and being up all night...

I feel familyless, friendless, boyfriendless, and alone. I my life. At the risk of sounding emo-y and mopey and just pathetic, sometimes it really does feel like it is me against the world. I wish it wasn't a long weekend, really... Any other time, I wouldn't be complaining about a 4-day weekend. It's just that I need to keep myself busy or I'm just going to break. And I probably will break tomorrow. Great.

 

Hang in there, Mercruial. Ive had those feelings before. 2008 was when i had the worst parts of my life. Right now im just bored and lonely, but not as much as i used to be. I don't have a girlfriend so im even lonelier. It kinda sucks when the girl you like keeps avoiding you, then stares you down at lunch but then looks scared. It's so confusing. You are going through more emotional stuff then i am though. Im a guy, not a girl so im girlfriendless instead of boyfriendless, but yes ive gone through all the other ones before.

 

Thanks, FX. But yeah... The feeling is truly awful. It is nice to know that i'm not alone, although I would never wish my feelings on anyone. Misery doesn't exactly love company, in my opinion.

I sometimes get emotional, but I like to think that I am a fairly strong person mentally. I just feel so broken right now though, because everything is happening at once, and I feel like I have absolutely no one to turn to. Not even my friends --who should be around, but I guess I make friends with the wrong type; it seems like everyone in my life only wants to be around when I'm on top of the world and wants to dump me when I need a little help. I'm so sick of temporary friends.

I want to do the leaving this time. I cant wait until I graduate. I've only got this year and the next. May 2013... and then I am out. I. Cant. Wait. It will help to leave this place --the school (although I do like it, academically and aesthetically speaking), the state, the region-- but also just forward thinking. Nothing heals like time, right?

 

Right. Life doesn't really start until College. Once you get out of Highschool all those "Popular" kids with all these friends will lose everything they have been showing off, and it won't matter anymore. For the ones like you who feel alone, college is a great place to meet people who actually care about you. Im only in 8th grade, but i know the results through my sister. She's 21. She has met so many awesome people through college, i just know it's a great place to make friends. And sometimes you have to dig alittle deeper.. try to find new friends before you jump into your life in college- you never know until you try. Im really shy myself, so the part with getting a boyfriend/girlfriend i can't help you with sadly. But just hang in there, even when life seems to be hopeless. I myself have gone through royal hell at the age of 11 and learned so much since then. 3 years later, im having a similiar problem, but not as bad as before. Life has it's ups and downs. Even the most luckiest and richest people today such as Jim Carey and J.K Rowling had gone through some morbid times, and with enough effort and without giving up, they had a much better life on the horizon.

 

Actually... I am in college. I just started my second year. I'm turning 20 next Saturday.

I do agree that high school, in terms of making friends, is a lot harder, and college is a good place to meet people. I have made a lot of new friends since starting college, but unfortunately my "picker" seems to be off. I've lost several already, both physically and some emotionally and geographically. A really close friend and I are slowly but surely working on repairing a friendship, but it is slow. I've never really had a problem finding a boyfriend (not sincIe starting college, at least) --I'm just upset about this one having to leave, as I've never connected with someone like I did with him before. But long distance just isn't going to work for us.

I know things will turn around eventually; I just wish I could speed up time a bit.

 

Tomorrow I work from 10 AM to 4:15 PM. Six hour shift. So much for a relaxing weekend. Not looking forward to it.

 

Oh sorry about that haha, i thought you were still in highschool. And im not in college yet, so i have a hard time getting a girlfriend. 8th grade might be too young to have one, so i try to focus on just getting school done sometimes. And why did you lose so many people? were they the ones causing the problem?

 

Yeah... I never really felt at home in high school, so I never really found anyone I was terribly interested in or anyone who was terribly interested in me, but once I started college I started going on a lot of dates, and I dated 3 guys somewhat seriously up until this point. Being in a new environment really helps.

As for losing people, well. One of my friends passed away, and two good friends have transferred away. Another person decided that drugs were more important than his friends... And I am working on repairing another friendship with another friend that went south because of some personal issues too. I'm sure I drove away some people, and I'm sure that some others drove me away too. In college, I suppose you can meet friends for life (and I think I have begun that --one friend who transferred, we still talk all the time despite her living several thousand miles away again-- and I think this guy and I will be friends forever too, even if we cant be together), but it also is very easy for people to come and go too.

 

One of your friends died? That sucks. You just aren't having the best of luck when it comes to staying touch with friends. I hope everything gets better for you. And im interested into this girl in my school but i don't know if she is about me. But it's good you still have 2 friends you still talk to- hopefully that number will go higher And you should tell your other friend to stop doing drugs or atleast try to help him/her to get out of it.

 

college search/application process=major major stress

 

God, I know how that is. I hate that, too.

 

Started off a good day, but then I got sunburned and started a massive migraine that lasted all day, got into another fight with my mom (who has made it a point to make me understand what a horrible person I am, as she's been doing practically every day lately), and accidentally overdosed on caffeine. Yeah, overdid it with the excedrin trying to battle my migraine, now sitting up waiting for my heart rate to slow down.
Not a good day.

 

*HUGS*

I know that feeling. :/ I'm oversensitive to caffeine myself. And I'm prone to migraines about once a month. I've had several times I tried to fix it by drinking a little caffeine then over did it. It sucks when that happens. I hope you feel better soon.

 

Having a very frustrating week. I've been having trouble keeping my mouth shut around people that annoy me. Getting a god damn twitch. I also almost pooped myself several times. Don't ask. Okay, I'll give you a hint. Chipotle.

 

I think the worst part would be the issues with your mom. Have you rationally talked about it with her when she's not in bitchy mode? If you're in school, is there a free counselor you can talk to about it for some advice?

Laughing my ass off at this....TMI much?
Never had any bad experiences with Chipotle (or....that), but I have thrown up after bad McDonald's food.

 

Nah, I was just joking. I do usually get Chipotle about once a week, though. There's one I go to that is especially fresh. Delicious.

 

I like places that serve nacho-related stuff. The best nacho places near me are Moe's and Tijuana Flats.