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When my anxiety meets my 'old angry man' mood that I get sometimes. Disaster imminent. As in as I type.

I also wonder if sometimes my eccentricity is just a mask to hide the bitterness, and sometimes that bitterness comes out anyway.

Aagh, sometimes I wish I didn't have anxiety. I'd be a lot more at peace in the mind. I'm always thinking, always analyzing. Always self-criticizing. I know this isn't the true me, but still, it's there. Sometimes it comes out and enshrouds the usual cheerful personality I have.

No wonder I have problems...

I suppose it's just one of those days.

 

Okay, today was the coldest day of the year so far around here. The radio said there was even a freeze warning for parts of LA County. The guys doing our kitchen renovation chose today to bang a lot of walls with hammers, and in doing so, they activated the earthquake shutoff valve for our gas supply. They didn't notice, and we didn't notice until we realized that the heater and the water heater were not working! On the coldest day of the year!

We had to do some pretty high-steppin' ourselves (my roomie and me) to reset the valve and get the heaters started up again. Even so, it took a couple of hours before the temperature in the house was anything resembling normal.

Argh.

 

Despite mine and my vets best efforts, my little ferret Pax died yesterday morning. He'd been suffering enough that I was considering euthanasia but for as long as he was fighting, I had to give him every chance I could. In the end, I believe he suffered a massive coronary... his death had the feel of candle being suddenly snuffed out, there one second, gone the next. I'd had to mess around with my meds in order to nurse him during the long nights, so I'm feeling a bit raw right now. Mir, his little partner in crime is struggling to come to terms too, so my emphasis is on doing what I can to make the transition easier for her. Ferrets are social creatures and it's considered inconsiderate to keep one on its own. Luckily, I also have two cats, both of which tolerate her quite well, as she has gentler nature than Pax did.

It's been so long since I've lost a pet, I'd forgotten just what a big hole they leave, even the little ones.

 

Christ, I know the pain. It hurts like fuck to lose a pet; it's the same as losing a human family member.

So sorry to hear this.

 

Thanks @Link the Writer. It's been hard...I've never felt so bonded to any animal as I did with him. I was lucky to get a space at the crematorium almost immediately. He died just after 9am and his remains were returned to me at 2pm. I'm so glad the process wasn't drawn out over days.

Still, it's hard to get my head around the fact that the contents of the little bamboo box with his name inscribed on it is all that remains of him.

 

I'm sorry @obsidian_cicatrix. It's sounds though like he died peacefully at home and had a good life before that.

 

How can someone be so worthless that their whole life has been sworn to realizing an ideology founded upon the defamation and oppression of the weak and innocent. You care about freedom? Yeah, sure you do. Apparently nobody gives a flying fuck about the liberties of the people who have been shat on by this society; they only want to play into their pathetic martyr complex to justify their own 'freedoms' to continue murdering and raping and abusing those who they think of as being 'inferior' in their worthless opinions, which they have made absolute law. Have fun with your second Holocaust. I hope you enjoy the final dying syllables of the infirm and misunderstood under your heel as you gleefully stomp their heads in.

Humanity is the most evil and disgusting species in the history of the planet. Probably the universe. Fuck the human race, and FUCK everyone who thinks that they're anything more than a colony of sadistic rapist maggots writhing in a worldwide landfill of excrement.

 

Humans can be capable of monstrous cruelty, unfortunately. We've all got that primate in us, that barbaric, flea-bitten monster and sometimes, sometimes people just let it out because...reasons.

 

It has become their legacy. But obviously it's justified because everyone who's the slightest little bit different is subhuman, right?!

 

Thanks. Knowing that I did everything I could helps make the loss bearable. One of my pets died at the vets. I tore strips off myself for not being there with him when he passed. At least I was spared that this time.

 

Apparently Houston is so worried about child molestation that it's decided to repeal a law on faulty reasoning (the common sense argument doesn't hold up and the data refutes it), resulting in the legitimization of discrimination that causes transgender children to be high risks of being sexually assaulted. Maybe if Texas wants to lower child molestation, it could increase its expenditures on child abuse prevention services and child protection that is among the lowest per capita in the nation.

 

My dog keeps vomiting. I hope it isn't anything serious, but it sucks to see my poor doggie suffer like this.

EDITED TODAY: Aaaaand my other dog's throwing up. Damn it, is there a dog stomach virus going around or something!?

 

Bumped into an ex-friend of mine and unfortunately, she also popped up on my social media via someone gushing about her. She was extremely toxic to me. I just have to remember that.

 

WTF is with the new Bond song? It's an estrogen infused peice of crap. Totally un-Bond

 

Wait, what? Is Bond a lady?

 

I'd call humanity a joke, but how can I laugh when rape victims are having acid thrown on them? How can I laugh when autistic teenagers commit suicide every day because they've been bullied to death? How can I laugh when black children are curb stomped to death and the fascist news channels worship the cops who did it? Humanity isn't a joke. They are a plague. Every where I go I see new strains of it. No place I've ever been to has been free of the disease that is the human race.

 

Not Happy........feel like my work is crap and i'm the worst writer off all time and kinda regret putting my work online for critique. About to give it all up and not sure where to go from here

 

How can you laugh?

Well the first thing you do is if someone says something funny or does something funny you curve your mouth up, show your teeth and let out a jolly string of giggles kinda like "Guk, guk or hahahah or hehehehe" like that! Now sorry if that was to condescending. Didn't mean it to be and yeah since this is the not happy thread which is for ranting but I've noticed from your posts you seem quite angry a lot about the world.

That is understandable.

But the fact you care so much about what happens people to do other people shows you do have some love for not only the world but humanity. Also the fact you care about other peoples struggle shows you've got a big heart. Hope you cheer up! And remember a big heart means you can do great things with it and use it to help those in need in someway whether it be a large act of kindness or just helping people with a smile. One day I hope laugh sincerely and heartily! , you deserve to be able to and of course everyone does. Besides remember you yourself are a human being, you might think of that as bad but remember you are capable of all the love of a human as well

Sorry for long wall of cheesy worded text or if I was out of line but just noticed your posts and wanted to let you know that ....well just wanted to try and brighten up your day. So rock on metal head!

HI!

Your post happened to pop up while I was typing the up above, so I decided to reply!

Don't quit!

We all feel like our work is crappy sometimes and want to give up, that's common with us writers but don't sweat it! If you love to write keep on going, running into a few bumps is a heck of a lot better then giving up on it.

You've got this lisa

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF! I'd say more but I'm real exhausted but yeah please don't give up, your work isn't crap and even if it isn't good yet (like ya feel your work isn't up to par yet) you can make into pure gold if you got the drive!

GOOD LUCK, I'm rootin for ya!

 

Thank you

 

For the love of the gods, don't!! Take it from me, my writing sucks, I put my stuff up for critique, so I know how that feels. Don't give up. Take a break from that story and go do something else, sure, but don't quit. We're all in this rickety boat together.

 

It just gets my goat when someone who has not even read the whole piece says its crap just for the sake off being a c#$t and no other reason. I understand that each to their own and my book may not be to everyones taste and i dig that but theres no reason to be a c@#t about it. I don't think ill be putting my stuff up for critique again.

 

Wait a while,@lisabeth - you've only had three pairs of eyes on 'The Cocaine Chronicles.' Out of ten reviews you're bound to get a couple of ropey ones. I know it is painful, you feel horribly exposed, especially, well, like me, sometimes it's that 'world of one experience,' but battle on through. Anyway, one reviewer didn't like your style, one did, and one offered a massive text of crit which would have taken him an hour, it's not so bad. As for the negative crit - I wasn't clever enough to pick up on the flaws he mentioned, I immersed into your world, so take some praise and move along, chapter 2.

 

Also, some people's "being a cunt" is other people's "being honest." I mean if somebody hates my writing so much they can't actually read my work, I want to know. In most cases it will be because they like a completely different style which is fine, thanks for your critique but it's completely irrelevant to me because my style isn't going to change. But maybe they've picked up on an issue that's easy for me to fix without compromising my style, and will save me from turning off a whole bunch of readers in the future.

The LAST thing I want is someone sugar coating a critique. If they hate it and tell me they love it, how on earth can I improve?

 

Also cut/paste their avatars - place them in your garden of pain, it works for me.

 

Garden off pain ?????