The Not Happy Thread

@Lewdog I know they have those programs. Im signed up and all. But its been YEARS of waiting to get disability for exposure to radiation. Im not the only one. Theres hundreds of us that were exposed and have had varying states of cancer, sterility or other problems. They dont care. And the homeless thing is an absolute joke. By the time they will help, they wont find me because Ill be living out of the trunk of my car, and wherever I run out of gas is where my address will be.

Then theres the "discrimination" from my employer because I have a past, one defending the constitution and that is a sign of "oppression". Throw in a past as a cop and the color of my skin and that just means I'm evil. I imagine I may be called that here too (writers are not exactly conservative, right?).

Instead of this making me tolerant, it has done the opposite. I have zero sympathy for any "group" that touts skin color, which hole they stick whatever in, or what bathrooms they feel comfortable using. So if I am hated and attacked then might as well have a reason, ma right?

Anyway. I decided something fairly big. I am holding back from publishing everything. From my research (some very heavy stuff) to my book. After Im dead and humanity comes back to normal (big if there) then it may be the time to share what I would have had to give. Until then I will just toil in obscurity and start hunting squirrels for their meat.

No, this isnt a boohoo, poor me thing. Im angry. Im furious, but Im in control still. I may have been defeated in this battle but the war isnt over yet, not as long as I have breath. So I will continue to create, but not for today's mankind.

AB

 

I hate when somebody tell's you something important but you just happen to miss that one bit you needed. As someone with ADHD, it can be very annoying getting key instructions in the middle of a long talk from a teacher(main example).

 

I don't have ADHD and that annoys the fuck out of me, too. I think you're entitled to shout "BULLET POINT THE KEY INFO!"

My mother is the worst for unclear speech. She literally breaks off in the middle of a sentence to start a new (unrelated) one, so none of it makes any sense. And when you reply she starts talking before you've finished, usually answering a completely different point.

 

The thing is people always blame me, and yes, I should be able to pay attention more intensely, but sometimes the teacher's aren't particularly strong with the bits they should be strong with, and I think that's a flaw in their method. IDK I guess they're preparing me for the frantic and difficult management of work and information in a employment environment?

 

That's a good way to look at it. My current manager is like me - gets to the point without much fluff - but my previous one was like your teachers. He'd ramble for several minutes, and only one or two sentences would actually be pertinent to me. The method I adopted was to let him get it out of his system (he's a natural talker) then say "right, so you want me to arrange a meeting with X in the next two weeks?" and let him confirm. I doubt you can use that in a classroom setting though?

 

I could do that. I've done it before to stop them brushing past it to continue with explaining some details about stuff I'm going to read up on later anyway, not that talking in class isn't useful but hearing doesn't immediately translate to marks, missing an assessment date does: negatively. I should say I'm a rambler myself, it's just I'd like them to highlight the instructions I really want. I don't have any real problem with long-windedness.

 

I feel like an angry old curmudgeon today. >:[ It's a pity I don't already have an angry old curmudgeon character because I really want to push it out of my head. And even if I did, I've no clue where to put that character and my OCD will demand to know who that character was, and the context behind the character's actions. So you all will have to suffer through a little of me going on an old curmudgeon rant:

#1- The news ginning up fear and anxiety over a somewhat severe thunderstorm-tornado combo, talking about how devastating it was going to be, the projected radius of the damage it was going to cause, etc. It did nothing but disrupt everyone's day, and cause multiple car wrecks because apparently it's not in the capacity of anyone to drive safely in a moment of stress and anxiety. And what happened? IT WASN'T AS BAD AS THE NEWS MADE IT OUT TO BE!! SO EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED YESTERDAY WAS A COMPLETE WASTE OF TIME!!!!!!

#2- My anxiety ginning up doomsday scenarios for me once again. It's like it flips through a rolodex to find the next thing it wants me to panic about.

#3- Just everything in general.

#4- Politics, how it looks like we may have a Trump/Clinton election. I'm staying out of this one, folks.

#5- Just feeling sorry for myself. Feel like I'm not showing anyone here that I'm actually improving my writing, what with the excerpts I show every now and then again. Even when I tell myself that this is just so I can learn a new lesson, or get some facts straightened out, my anxiety tells me differently.

<sits down in an old leather chair with a Guinness in hand and glowers like an angry old curmudgeon of a man>

 

When you've misspelled a word simply by flipping two letters and Word's spell check give NO SUGGESTIONS. Also when you write a whole paragraph in past tense and it randomly suggests you write one of the verbs in present tense. That's the type of thing a robot should never get wrong. At least they got rid of the paper clip.

 

I'm hungry but my blood sugars are too high for me to eat any carbs and, as a vegetarian, that leaves me with... idk... iceburg lettuce dipped in peanut butter. Not fun.

 

My court date for my disability hearing is March 7th. Currently, I am living with my mom in my brother's house. We were renting from him while he was in the United Arab Emirates. Now, he has moved home. He found a girl whom he is romantically serious with and they are planning to move in together. As he can't afford two mortgages, he has asked me to move out in a few months. My disability case has dragged on for three years during which I've had no income. In a few months, all of my investments will be gone. So, moving out will make me homeless if I don't win my disability case. My mom has said that she will stay with me whatever happens, but I can't let her do that. She is 75 years old, deaf, and quickly going blind (macular degeneration and retinitis pigmentosa). That means that, when I gather up my courage and leave to go live on the street, I'll have to do it so that she can't follow.
Honestly, I'm scared. Please say a prayer that my disability case will result in my favor. I really don't know what I'll do if it doesn't.

 

My hope and sympathy goes out to you. Stuff is crap sometimes.

 

'Like' seems the wrong word, but I'll keep my fingers crossed for you Justin.

 

Anyone who hates and/or attacks you because of being a white cop is a hypocrite reversing bigotry solves nothing. However, "defending the construction" does that mean you believe in traditional marriage? You realise there's this thing called reform and progress? You know, like what happened with slavery, like what happened with conscription. Tradition for traditions sake is illogical, why does it matter about the past? it matters about what good things of the past we keep just as it's what good things in the future we add. Justification is what justifies things. Reasons that matter, that affect things or represent something good. Besides, traditional marriage is a religious concept and the American constitution is quite secular. None of the founding fathers were Christians despite how people talk about your country. They were secular deists and secular atheists all of them.

 

I'm curious about this. Can you say more?

That sounds like racism.

I can appreciate that. Why should I feel sympathy for heterosexuals? But, thinking more about it, shouldn't we strive to feel sympathy for all of God's creatures?

 

I think what he's saying is that while we should all strive to be sympathetic and fair to each other regardless of color, who we want to get laid with, etc., if people automatically assume that because you're...whatever, that you're somehow a monster for it, why should he be sympathetic to you? I even discussed this briefly in my blog: if you assume someone to be a monster and treat them as such from the get go, they're not gonna want to listen to you, even if what you have to say is 100% legit and worth listening to.

 

I agree, but he seems to be suggesting he supports traditional marriage. And while that doesn't make him a monster, I'm going to disagree on multiple levels. Not only is it already dead in your country, but "all men are created equal" right? Yet some are hated/patronised for getting married to the person they want. They don't deserve the right why? Especially considering religion has too much power already, as your constitution is secular. All western countries already have separation of church and state, even Russia has it. Traditional marriage has no place alongside that and human rights. It's not as terrible as Iran's fatal sodomy laws, not by a long-shot, but it's a symbolic put-down not to allow the same recognition to same-sex or indeed non-binary couples as opposite-sex ones. It makes no sense and is insulting. I don't believe in marriage much and I'm a little offended.

 

Oh yeah, I don't believe in the "traditional marriage" thing either. People love who they love, regardless of their sex parts and should be allowed to do so. Glad my country came to its senses in that regard.

 

Blog you guestblog at (they asked you) says you can write about anything you want. Obviously, you won't write about how your plant died because you forgot to water it, so I decided to be more specific and ask her "what about this topic?". So blogger says it's ok, I spend an entire afternoon making things and photographing and writing, and then mail it to her (IN TWO LANGUAGES). She replies something along the lines of "meh, it's ok but such an obvious topic, I don't think it's fun enough" and proceeds to not post it. That's fine, but maybe you could have told me you didn't think the topic was fun enough when I asked you and BEFORE I actually wrote the thing? Kinda pissed since I really had better things to do.
/end rant.

 

Have you ever read any of George Washington's letters?

 

There's suggestiona he was a deist or theistic rationalist. And he was certainly secular. The U.S consitution clearly establishes secularity as a principle, that government should not establish religious ideas over everyone, to allow a religiously free nation. My point is traditional marriage is a religious concept from the monotheistic religions, and is not necessarily shared by any given alternative philosophy, especially Atheism.

 

So I walked in on an episode of fuller house - It is so much worse then I had imagined. and the laugh track, the ungodly horrors of the laugh track. I truly can not recall a show I hate more then it. The bad acting the terrible writing and once again the damn laugh track....

 

Is it meant to purposefully be bad like that? Because based on the original....

 

I know but I hated the original too.

 

Me too. I was just wondering if maybe the reboot was a sort of satire on the original and meant to be bad, or are they actually being serious*

*within sitcom context.