The Not Happy Thread

Sorry accidentally double posted and I don't know how to delete.

 

I don't mean to be harsh at all, so please don't take it that way but here's what I've come to learn over the years (the hard way):

When it comes to relationships there are two inalienable truths:

1. No one belongs to you, not really.

2. Even if they did, no one can steal that person who isn't ripe to be stolen.

The faster you realize that the better off you'll be. (just my opinion and I'm sorry you're feeling awful.)

Hope you feel better soon

 

Well obviously she doesn't belong to me but you don't try and get with your friends crush. It's not on.

 

Ooooooooo just had earthquake. Strength was 4 they say. Don't want to go to bed now. Aagggh hate earthquakes.

 

You're right. I understand being upset with your friend. Not much I can say about that either that won't sound harsh. I hope things work out for you, I really do.

@Madhoca- Eek! I would so freak out!

 

Warning: Ranting about the mainstream, idiots, and religion. The context of this post has the potential to piss off the close-minded.

Spoiler

Things that are pissing me off:

1) Feeling fat.
2) PMS.
3) People who shove their obnoxious religious beliefs down my throat.

I hate how it's okay for people to be pricks, by the way, so long as it's mainstream enough. This woman is driving down the highway with a GIANT sign on her car that says JESUS in big, marquee-like letters on top of her car. Not only is that a safety hazard, as I cant f/cking see past your obnoxious sign, but you're pissing me off. NO ONE CARES that you love Jesus or if Jesus loves you.

Seriously. I don't care about you, and I don't care about your belief or non-belief in your god.

I want to drive around with a marquee sign on my car that says GARDEN OF EARTHLY DELIGHTS or RELIGION IS A MARKETING TECHNIQUE. Maybe those are too long; I could just drive around with SATAN or LUCIFER on top of my car. (I don't promote the king of hell and suffering or whatever, but to the idiots blinded by their own prejudice, it's all the same.) Would that work? But I'm a minority, a hedonistic, heathenish nonbeliever, so that's obviously not okay.

Regardless of my personal beliefs or your own, reader, please understand that my anger isn't (completely) about the fact that this lady loves Jesus so much that she feels compelled to essentially shout it at me on the highway as it is the fact that she can be a driving hazard and people will say f/ck all to it because aww, she loves her savior! How cute. It wont be cute when that letter falls off and hits my god damn car, let me tell you that.

I hate this state sometimes. I cant wait to leave. I cant wait until I can go somewhere more exciting and a lot less conservative. Seriously --a friend of mine was teaching a class on criminal law, and it just shocked me how many college kids are against abortion (because obviously only your god should make decisions about life and death) and yet support the death penalty. Or think that it's totally okay to destroy someone's life just because they destroyed yours. And here I was thinking that Jesus preached forgiveness. LOL, color me mistaken!



ugh.

ps: I don't have a problem with you, whatever your religion is. I have a problem with idiots, people who shove verses from a book they don't understand down my throat, and traffic violations that are swept away because the cop happens to also subscribe to your religion. Meanwhile he has no problem busting me for going 42 in a 40, but whatever.

 

PMS pisses me off too.

 

Right now my grade in math is a 59% and school ends on June 8th. If I don't get it up to at least a 60% before then, I won't get the credit. I really hope I can get my grade up before then, I don't want to have a semester of credit recovery next year!

 

Its 2am and a car alarm is going off, right in front of my flat. It has been going off for 5 minutes, and there is noone breaking into it. I don't know who owns the car, but I'm pretty annoyed it has woken me up instead of them.

 

Merc, you have inspired me to drive around with a huge sign on top of my car that says "religion is a marketing technique." I love you so much right now.

I'm kind of bummed because I pulled a muscle on the inside of my thigh last night, and now it hurts like hell to move around. But...I did it practicing with a derby league in Arizona, and I had a great time. So I guess it was worth it.

 

Thank you both. Gigi, hope the interview went well.

Right now, I wish I knew how I felt, but I don't. I can't even describe the feeling I feel right now. We have been told that mum is going on a drug trial, if she gets the drug, she'll hopefully live longer, if given the placebo, she'll not be here for Christmas. It's the governments decision... if they give her the placebo, it means they decided they want my mum to die. I can't describe how I feel about this...

 

So I've probably had the worst day to mark. Customers at work were rude, the cup of coffee at break time wasn't enough to pick me up, and I got cigarettes for my sister and the cashier guy (who was totally leering) gave me a hassle. I showed him my license, but no he had to be a complete creep about it all.

Oh, and on top of that, tomorrow is the end of the world (supposedly). Please, stop the zombie rumors. It's getting really worn by now. And I can guarantee that I'll be the first person tomorrow morning on the Happy Thread saying "I told you so!"

 

^Zombie Rumors??? What are you talking about? The end of the world? You need to get some serious sleep

 

Torana: I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I can't imagine what it's like. I hope your mum gets the drug, and I hope you have family and friends that can support you.

Tess and Tay: Haha, I've never got the whole zombie apocalypse craze.

 

Thanks Eunoia. I don't like accepting help, but for the first time ever, I know I can't cope on my own at all, and my friends who are offering support, I've not turned down, because I know I can't cope without it right now. Feels like I'm holding on by the worlds thinnest thread.

 

The Rapture is supposed to begin in less than two hours. I said goodbye to my pet turtle. I might have committed a few sins in my time, but at least those were forgivable. God have mercy on Leo's soul.

 

*hugs* I'm sorry things are so hard right now, Tor.

 

Actually, no one is making the decision, if it helps. The decision is made purely by chance, to make sure the research remains free of any bias, intentional or otherwise. So no one is playing God and placing judgement on your mother.

There is not much that is new in this situation other than there is now hope that was not there before. It has been a long, drawn out illness, and stressful for both of you over the long term.

My thoughts are with you.

 

Well, if that don't take the cake...

I drew some good sketches of Kenthew on paper and wanted to scan onto the computer, but my laptop's printer decides to make a black bar across the scanned image. The desktop printer downstairs doesn't have a scanning feature.

I am a sad llama.

 

I've only managed to write a paragraph in about 8 hours of being sat at my computer, I feel really rather rough and I have to get up at 5am for work.

 

I'm allergic to my house, I've run out of antihistamine pills and I can't afford any more.

 

Is it straight down the middle? If it isn't turn the sketch the other way, scan it, then turn it after it's scanned...

 

Worst semester ever. Broken my lowest essay score record 3 times consecutively now. No motivation, no will to improve, just want it over. One month, one essay and three exams to go. Sigh.

 

My older sister's fiance is a raging jackass. I tried really hard to like him, but it's starting to get to the point where I really want to punch him and/or any of his family members in the face.

I have so much frustration in my right now, I kind of feel like I'm going to explode if I don't find a way to let some of it out.

 

*throw pad and pen at hiddennovelist*

Write dammit Write. I know the feeling, I actually never have a problem with people, the only thing is, when I do it is to that extent!