The Not Happy Thread

Is that supposed to be Klingon?

 

Here's all I get from that alphabet soup: "Joq was a male Ferengi office worker in the 24th century." (which supports your hypothesis, @Friedrich Kugelschreiber, but wouldn't it be capitalized?)

 

When written in the Latin alphabet, Klingon is actually case-sensitive. So, "D" represents a different sound than "d" for example.
I've been hunting around for my Klingon grammar but I can't find it, so I guess I'll have to rely on your translation.

 

It's not a translation, the only word that came up at all was Joq, and that's the beginning of his bio or whatever.

 

Yep, it says:
Smile and wave boys, smile and wave.

 

Weird synchronicity that Joq happens to be the name of a Ferengi then.

 

In Mbabaram, the completely unrelated word "dog" just happens to mean the exact same thing as in English.

 

Klingon has a word for "smile"?

 

Apparently...

 

"It's insidious! Just like the Federation!"

 

Dunno what the hell I'm doing. Living off benefits and no idea when or indeed if I'll return to my old job.

Part of me is like - schools' out! Time to do whatever I want for as long as this lasts!

And the other part of me is like dude, you're a 31 year old man. Get yourself together and start being proactive.

 

What's the outlook for home business?

 

Spoiler

I stress ate a lot yesterday and today I am guilt tripping myself for all the food. Probably won't eat much today if I'm being honest.

 

I ate half a cauldron of lentil soup with lots of feta cheese around 2 am? I was not the least bit hungry, but overwhelmingly bored. I also ate lunch. Another 4 or 5 hours to go and then I'll hybernate.

 

I'm oscillating back and forth between confidence and despair at the prospect of the approaching new semester. Schools in Japan have gone entirely online, but I've never done this sort of thing before and I'm terrified I'm going to blow the whole deal. Yes, the school is giving us guidance on their expectations for the semester, and yes, we're all in the same boat pretty much, but some of the things they're asking of us just seem too easy to be true while others seem really daunting.

I've got a good boss and my department seems, well, not quite on top of things entirely, but doing as well or better than can be expected, so I shouldn't be worried but I still am. At least I'm primarily teaching freshmen this year, so they've got nothing to compare to, but still.

I can do this. I've done harder, dammit.

I'm in this video,but I'm not telling you where

 

The base is exactly the fucking same. To the placement of the bushes, and the colors of the barracks. And yes, the screaming. The sounds of my people.

 

It seems impossible to know what to believe these days. The entire world is just one contradiction after another.

 

At the end of each x-files episode there's some variation of "Trust no one." I have that pop up in my head often throughout the day. Everybody has an agenda. Some align with yours, but many don't. And all of them want something from you. Maybe not an actual item, but possibly validation or acknowledgement. But they all want something. So I agree. It is all a contradiction. I prefer using logic and sense more than reference. Even the peer reviewed sources are getting obfuscated.

 

I'm also a damn teacher educator human.

It's hard to know if this online stuff is the future of all teacher or whether this is more of a blip.

I'm in a position where the school is closed and only a few particularly motivated teachers are teaching online.

I have enough money to live off from the cash hand outs from the government.

But I also feel this gnawing sense that I'll need to know this online stuff at some point so what the hell am I holding off from?

I guess this is like a second university (in my case third or fourth since I spent basically my entire 20's delaying various decisions including in my case leaving Japan so interesting users here are out there!)

I feel the fear a little bit of the tech side.

And also just this kind of feeling that I'll be exposed somehow teaching in my bedroom. Like I won't be able to get in the zone of being a professional, and the sad pathetic low life I feel I am will be impossible to hide when I'm sitting mere centimetres away from my bed.

And I feel like I'm already behind so fuck it.

Not to mention at my school, the teachers have to prepare the entire curriculum themselves. Not something that fills me with any kind of good thoughts. But in a WAY it IS good having that kind of freedom. It's weird sometimes being human, the stuff you hate and don't wanna do can actually make you feel good even though the fear and stress of doing them made you think quite the opposite.

Basically this is all anxiety.

 

So my Bluetooth hearing aid charger is acting weird. I put my hearing aid in last night but when I woke up this morning, it didn’t charge. It’s plugged in, but the hearing aid is low on battery. I don’t know how this could’ve happened..

I guess it’s just small mercy I still have my old hearing aid as back-up in case we need to get a new charger for my Bluetooth hearing aid. Dammit. -_-

EDIT: Good news, we fixed it. 　 Turns out it needed to be plugged into a new wall outlet. 　

 

I cannot reconcile the importance of my existence or the importance of anybody's existence.

 

I agree!

Dishonesty kills trust. And when trust dies it does not born again - ever.

Without honesty there is nothing and can't be anything.

And I'm talking about honesty like we have here in Finland. The type where you just don't say "nice to meet you" if you don't really, really, really mean it.

Anyone can deal with the world as it is, but no one has a duty to tolerate any level of dishonesty.