The Not Happy Thread

........I haven`t had a very stable life......recently it seemed like I had found some stability or at least the start of it for the first time in my whole life. Start of this year I felt on top of the world, and then...some old traumas started bubbling through in March, and COVID took my job away sending me spiraling. I managed to make it through...depressed and anxious....only able to focus on anything for short periods...aclomphsing nothing except just making it through...but June is almost here, the state was slowly reopening it was almost to an end. (not COVID itself necessarily but back to work, back to routine, and back to...something)

.........hotel shut down is extended until July.........


I`ve barely made it this far......

I wrote this in January......all of that optimism is just.....gone...

 

Bella Rose Desrosiers. Fucking hell, me and my bad habit of looking at news. Rest in peace.


https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-8342349/Girl-7-stabbed-death-moms-friend-hours-drew-picture-cheer-up.html

 

So how did I manage to piss off the internet today?

• I posted pictures of a spider I found in my house wanting to know what it was and managed to give the Facebook group, Nerdfighteria, a heart attack and they reamed me for not putting a trigger warning and embedding the photos in the comments.

• I made a post in a Facebook writing group about writing characters with different political/personal beliefs than your own and wound up insinuating that all Christians own guns and are bigots. A mod intervened before the shitstorm got real but damn, yeah, I worded that post wrong so I had to edit it.

Oy...

 

Seriously!? This trigger warning shit is totally out of hand.

 

My husband, at the other house in Caguas, managed to gain access to the digital (not physical) innards of the router/modem.

My husband is best known as the person who receives electronic items in this life when they were evil electronics in the past.

I can make no demands, but every human on the planet currently online should log out and unplug for the sake of their equipment.

 

In their defense, arachnophobia is a real thing, even seeing pictures of them can be frightening.

Too late.

 

dont feel bad

There was this really loud bird on my deck one day. I couldnt see it but its call was super loud, so i recorded it and posted it to the local birding site to ask them what kind of bird made that sound because i couldnt find the bird that made it. It was super close and I told myself "this things really good at camouflage!"

I got like over 20 responses..... all saying...... it was a frog.

i was so embarrassed.
Bird nerds are scary

 

If it’s of any comfort, I told a Classical History nerd that Christianity doesn’t have monks. He elaborated gently on how wrong I was on that.

 

I have a blood and needle phobia, a pretty severe one, in fact. Nobody looks out for me, and I really don't expect them to. Maybe I wish they would, but I definitely don't expect it. In fact, I almost guaranty someone is thinking of posting a gory pic in response to this to be funny right now.

Some people are as afraid of dogs as others are spiders. Should we put warnings on every dog pic on the internet? Where does that end? No skydiving photos, no clowns? I'm sorry, but I think the whole trigger warning thing is ridiculous and will eventually be tuned way down, if sanity prevails. Maybe not though. It might just get worse and worse.

 

I agree, since I a PTSD sufferer am not easily triggered by most things,
think that it should be used more specifically for those who have
PTSD or something similar. (I had a short erotica book set me off for a
good 3-4 hours once.)

No more of this, 'fee fees', crap that makes someone feel a little uncomfortable.
I may not like spiders all that much, but I deal with them, and not freak out
like they are going to eat my soul.

 

I almost wrecked my sister's car the last time she was here because there was a spider the size of my thumbnail bed crawling on the dashboard.

They're coming for us.

 

That is why we all silently pray that scientists never cook up
some with wings. Then we know that things just got bad.

 

I belong to the "Facebook Bird Misidentification Group." Not my project, it's just a weird little page where people compete to give the least correct answers to pictures of birds (and occasionally other things). There are some hardcore bird nerds there just cackling madly. You might like it.

 

I just came in from pulling weeds. I kid you not, this giant spider with an egg sized, white butt comes out of the weeds, and the life momentarily left my body.
I quit!

 

Spiders are our friends. The human lives they have saved from vectors literally outweigh the ones they've scared ( or otherwise) to death - by megatons.

Thanks, Boris!

 

Continuing the spider discussion going on, I like spiders. Especially their meticulousness in building their webs. Quite similar to writers, in my opinion. And then you trap one reader, then another reader. . . oops. . . I mean insect.

 

Spoiler: Trigger warning!

 

The corners and tape on that book testify to its value, precious.

 

Like a lot of our books, it's been in the family a couple of generations. I read it to my kid again recently. He's a little scared of bugs and spiders.

 

I've got a sliver in my finger from a thorny weed I'm allergic to that broke off under the skin. So it's swelling and stabbing and itching. I'm about to take a scalpel and rip the fucking thing out.