The Not Happy Thread

That sucks, Gigi

Personally, I'm just a tad annoyed because my credit card apparently made two payments of forty dollars to my phone company, instead of the one I actually owed. Yet I don't have any extra credit for next month or anything added to my account. Not cool.

 

Thanks, Mal. I am just really stressed because my first year in college has been kind of difficult. I had a lot of medical problems related to my endocrine system... My doctors were working hard to get me on a medicine that would help, but all it did was screw up my balance, and I was having severe problems that had a significant impact on my grades. They are much lower than I am pleased with. And to make matters worse, it's been almost a year now of testing and trying out medicines to make this easier, and I am no closer to feeling better than I was last year. I have stopped going to appointments; I am just sick of trying. Pardon the pun.

I wouldn't be worried, except for the fact that I am technically already a junior, even though I have only completed one year as a college student --I came in with a junior standing in Spanish (one of my majors), and I tested out of a lot of the preliminary biology courses for my biology major. I am afraid that when it comes to applying to further studies, which is in just one year, no one will give me a chance because of my less than perfect grades.

I was thinking that maybe I should do an honors thesis; after all, grad school is all about research. And if I can prove that I am capable, they wont care about my first year grades. But I only have another year and a half to do that, and these projects take a lot of time. I could add another year to my undergrad career (I mean, lots of kids take 5 years to graduate. If I have to add one and still wind up on the 4-year track, that should be fine), but that means adding another $20,000 for tuition. And I cant afford that, especially if my aspiration is to become a poor graduate student.

I am worried that no one will possibly want me. I am just so nervous. Everyone just seems so much more capable than I am. I really hate those sayings that are like, "Surround yourself with people who will bring you up, not bring you down" or "Shoot for the moon; even if you miss, you land among the stars." You know what? I feel like I've done just that... and I'm among the stars, but what sucks is that everyone else landed on the god damn moon with no trouble at all, while it took every ounce of energy for me to just get into space.

On the bright side, I at least have someone (maybe two, maybe three) who is going with me to Electric Zoo, so I don't have to worry about that as much as I was. I wont be in NYC alone; I will be with friends, and the financials are working themselves out. Which is good.

*deep breath*

 

I have to get up early after a week or two of summer holidays when I could get up whenever I wanted, so that I can get to school and do some extra I.T. work. Only it isn't really extra work; apparently they were in the middle of changing the specs for one of the units I'd taken, which means - hurrah - now I have to go back and redo a load of stuff. It's their screw-up and I have to clean up afterwards.... And I have to find some clothes for the prom, which is on Friday....... *sigh* >.<

 

Why is it that happiness and hope are so intimately linked?

 

I posted this on FB, but I'll put it here incase anyone experiences the same thing and has any tips for me:

I hate having Thyroid disease. I'm stuck at this weight and it seems impossible to shift any more of it despite the fact I don't over-eat. Something's got to change.

 

If it helps any, I think you look gorgeous in your profile photo on facebook. All of you, but especially your face and your arms, look quite slender. You're obviously taking care of yourself, eating right and exercising, and it shows.

I'm sorry I cant help any, but I thought you might appreciate hearing that. It is hard to see your own progress sometimes when you see yourself every day, but I don't see you every day, and I can really see a difference. You looked lovely months back as well, and you look lovely now --in addition to slender and very healthy.

Maybe step off the scale for a month or two and use measuring tape as a gauge, if you don't already. Maybe you are losing just fractions of inches off your waist or hips or arms or thighs and not even noticing it since it happens so gradually. But it adds up.

 

My glasses just broke -- the left lens fell out and I have work in 3 hours, not enough time to fix them.

 

Ubrechor: That sucks. They should really finish doing a spec one year and then the next year implement the new one. Have fun at your prom though.

dizzyspell: I don't know but it sucks.

Ashleigh: You're fine as you are. Okay, I know I've only seen photos you've posted on here, but those photos have always shown a confident, pretty young lady. Don't worry about your weight so much. Be happy with the body you're in. I know it's easier said than done though.

Gigi: I remember that happening at school once just before assembly in the morning and having to get the D&T dude to fix them. Hope you have a spare pair or can get them fixed in time.

 

Yeah, I really hope so too. :/

 

Aw, that's so nice of you to say, heh. Thank's so much. Have some rep! x

 

Thanks so much lovie It just gets me down sometimes. I know it's dumb to care so much about weight.
I've even been wondering about being Vegan just 'cause it might make me thinner, but I think doing that would be kinda lame and against my principles. I didn't turn veggie to be thin, so going vegan shouldn't be anything to do with it either, I guess. Besides...Every few weeks, I need chocolate.

 

Just be sure to take care of yourself. Be healthy. Healthy is much better in my humble opinion than being super thin. Besides, everyone else is right. Your great just the way you are.

 

The renovations are somehow even more behind schedule. I get to spend Canada Day still away from home! I will be f5'ing this ancient computer all day, hoping the Leafs actually make a good move in NHL free agency.

They won't.

 

^ Hope everything gets back to normal for you soon...

 

Got a call from a place I interviewed at earlier this week....but my phone kept dying and cutting them off...now I have to wait until the woman gets out of a meeting at 3 to call and find out whether or not I got it...

 

Exams. I have Physics paper today, and I'm cyberwalking... o.o

I am fed up with studying. But I just have to do it. I think I'm studying too hard...

 

Arron - That sucks - I hate the feeling of being stressed out waiting because of other people.

Tsubasa- I'm sure you'll rock your test, Study hard.

Okay so there is something that REALLY irritates me: when journalists act like catty, whiny babies and write their articles like it's their diary. If it's your own personal journalism blog, write it however you want, but lots of these people are from sources like CBS, NYT, Washington Post, and other places you'd think would be neutral. I'm a journalist, and I was taught in college (recently!) that the reader should never, EVER be able to guess your political/religious views from reading the article. You don't interject yourself AT ALL, even if it's as small as the "we" in "we can expect stormy weather." It's unprofessional. You present the facts, and let readers make up their own opinions themseles. Journalist's opinion in factual (non-editorial) news article for professional newspaper = bad. But then, I'm reading articles online supposedly written by professionals, and they simply provide their own personal opinion as though it were their own editorial blog, not a "hard news" story for a paying, legit news company.

And......anxiety and stuff. Which was just now triggered by seeing a news headline I didn't wanna see....crap.

Well rant over, I'm off to bed guys! Night!

 

I didn't get the raise I expected.

I have a nice job with above average pay but for several reasons I expected a rise in june and it just didn't arrive.

Now I don't feel like working. I feel like job hunting.

However, trying to see the situation from an objective point of view, If I change jobs just for some more money it's quite probable I'll end up in a worse place, where I'll have to work much harder for some months until I establish my value.

I hate when my reason goes against my feelings.

 

That sucks about your raise! But I'm sure you'll get one eventually...maybe when you least expect it.

 

That would piss me off if I saw that in news. But if the person is a columnist writing on current events it's inevitable his own viewpoint will come into the article as that's his raison d'etre for writing it really. Analysis and whatnot. But if it's in a factual report, that's just simply inexcusable!

 

I don't wanna be here. I just wanna go back home and back to bed. I hate it when work is this slow. Plus my allergies are kicking my butt. I've got all this stupid sinus pressure and itchy ears to deal with. The pressure wouldn't be so bad save for the darn itchy ears, throat, eyes... gggrrr.....

 

I know the feeling of work being slow....can't relate to the allergies, but my boyfriend can, and it sucks pretty bad...

 

Totally just not fun... The economy here is bad (well everywhere) and jobs like mine lets face it are a luxury service. If things don't pick up I'm worried my boss may decide to just retire. He's old enough. I don't think he'd fire me first, probably the other tech but still.... things are getting scary around here.

 

Not columnist, factual reports. And it totally is.

Corb - I'm sure you won't get fired. Don't worry! And if he does retire, surely he'd let you guys know long in advance, so you can find another job.

 

Yes he would, it's just there aren't many good jobs here. Which is a vast understatement. I know I'll be fine even if he does retire but my options stink. I don't like it. Not meaning to be whinny about it either it's just been going for so long now I know the practice can't keep going like it has been.