My main character, a 17 year old boy, blames himself for the death of his younger brother. He is motivated to gain redemption/forgiveness. In the beginning of the novel, he is the kind of character who would jump into the path of a bullet to save someone else's life. That might seem heroic, but it is actually driven by the fact that he has no self-worth and is trying to earn worth. By the end of the story, he has gained self-worth and it is his self-acceptance that enables him to defeat the big, bad, evil guy. I'm having trouble writing him in the beginning of the story and clarifying that he's not a hero. I'd appreciate some guidance on that.